CHRISTMAS 2011! KICKS OFF!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone...i hope you had a wonderful and meaningful celebration with your family...well, i was hiatus for a couple of days to give way on preparing some stuffs for the holiday...since saturday i havent slept well,i jst have a couple of hours to spare...i was busy with the family and classmates at the same time...there are parties to attend to...but i choose to spend my christmas with the family and the party with the classmates was after im done here on our family gatherings...its one of my Lolo's birthday also...yeah his a christmas celebrity...each year he really had a party at 25 so were used to be at the house the whole day the whole night of 24...the said party was for the senior citizens...

the celebrant..angry birds theme party for the SC!oh man!

sometimes its best to let go with the flow...i really tried my best to gather all the stamina left with me yesterday since i dont have enough sleep but still it was awesome i still have some left with me and manage to attend the party we held for the classmates and thank goodness i managed to stay up till 10:32 pm...but then i got really tired already and so i go home first and leave some of them parting the whole night maybe ^^

when i got home...i flop my body on the bed,and send some thank you to the people who attend then i didnt know i was totally sleepy and i havent finish sending it cause i already got sleepy! FINALLY! 

oh goodness the whole day i was really telling myself to go to sleep but i just cant...the music and the cheer of people outside makes me insomniac for 2 days...and the result is this black eyebags...and ive drag myself to take a deep breath and go to work right now...but hey i really feel im a walking zombie...haha ^^

FIRST MORNING MASS BEFORE CHRISTMAS ♥

this is one of the most memorable morning mass ive had...because for the first time...haha the mass was pause for almost 20 minutes,to give way to the Mnsgr./priest , the mass was about to reach its end, when suddenly before the peace be with you part, he was gone and haha i wasl ike, momma,where is he?Missing?...then i chuckle a bit...momma said,he goes to the CR...oh goodness hahaha ...well, thats the funny part but i also appreciate and overwhelmed with the neighborhood,the church was jam-packed this morning...im happy that people in our town didn't forget to attend the mass...and i hope to my self that i can finish this through out Christmas,and to continue what iv'e always done by the past few years...^^ 

IM SO EXCITED!...♥ ♥ ♥

and maybe tonight i will start buying my gifts for everyone...i feel awesome, cause i know i can share some happiness...we all know material things cant buy real happiness...but being able to feel that the real gift i wanna give this Christmas is that, what i really actually wanted to give them,they feel it right now...and im glad iv'e so rounded by good people...simple,yet honest enough to let you feel comfortable that your effort are not wasted...

at this time of the season...its very weird that im always a cry baby...^^ oh yeah, when i think of something right now, i always feel like crying...not because im sad...its because im always overwhelmed... thank God, the pain has faded perfectly without hurting myself...the hurt has faded but the love and happiness brought by it remains untouchable...maybe this is sounds weird...but its a matter of choice...i can see im no one compared to him, and that drives me to left the feelings behind and buried it there...soundless...they may think im such a coward...but to live in a country like ours who value so much dignity...maybe iv'e made it right to just keep it myself...its not easy but its cool cause it makes me push my self more further, take more risk on making decisions so i can help myself be better enough for the future...not to be better enough for someone...but to give credit to myself for such a pity now...hahahah revenge revenge! kidding aside, i haven't buy the Christmas tree , hah my momma reminded me this morning...before, when the first morning mass approaching we already have our xmas tree in our sala...but now i dont know the people were so busy doing nonsense with my self also...^^ but i will buy it tonight...stress...hahaha
so everybody! good luck to your Christmas welcoming...love love love ♥

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EGGPLANT  CHIPS  ↑

this is very addicting... again... what iv'e eat is a piece of heaven...awts...super shallowness of my happiness ...hahha i love food...

DELICIOSO!... ♥

SOUL INCARNATES TO A BOOK...

morning mass is just a day away...oh my!its Christmas time...

today,iv'e look back how my year goes...then i was amaze on realizing that it feels like yesterday when we celebrate Christmas,then its here again....after its a new year to face...this morning my momma got the calendar in my bag for 2012,then she go directly to see if what day my birthday will fall...then she look for my brother birthday then on papa's birthday then her birthday...i can see on her face amazed knowing next year will be a leap year...oh yeah...she said..."so your Tito will have his birth day now!the calendar has a 29!on February...haha " i dont know if shes excited or shes just making fun when she said that hahaha oh momma!!!

well, im happy today because i can see people around me are feeling light...i can see their happiness reflects on their faces...and they were all doing well...

i wish Christmas in the Philippines now wont be rainy as before...i thought rain showers during Christmas mass blessing...but dont like it if it pour heavy just like before...^^ i pitied the babies carried by their parents , it adds the burdens but honestly i dont see it angers them or pissing them off...you can only see the excitement ,the thoughts of HEY TS CHRISTMAS!...MERRY CHRISTMAS!...HI HOW ARE YOU?MERRY CHRISTMAS...

they say,Christmas in the Philippines  is very festive , and i agree! its one of my favorite celebrations in the country...family gathers together and the happiness and the magic our natives have is very unexplainable...

as i was pausing everything im writing a while ago...i bump unto Teacher Mots blog post...hahah cant stop laughing...well, far from the topic...i want to add something on my Christmas list...im planing to segregate my things after Christmas...then i notice something my books...i want to have the book i want again...the one that i have before,i gave it to our college proof...and i miss reading the story...
NOTHING LAST FOREVER...- SIDNEY SHELDON

“You have two choices. you can keep running and hiding and blaming the world for your problems, or you can stand up for yourself and decide to be somebody important.”
― Sidney Sheldon, Nothing Lasts Forever

shes my idol in writing...iv'e looked in stores just to have a copy of that book, before iv'e seen one, but i dont have money that time...and when i looked at it again, it was sold, the store was having a sale...goodness!

this is the exact book ive had before

A LIST TO CHILL FOR A WHILE

true about  it...its been a roller coaster ride for me the whole year round... or should i say after i graduated college...'twas all worth it...have the long awaited freedom to do some things you wanted when  im still studying,mostly the stuffs that torn my heart a million times cause i was deprive from it...all the sore was all worth it...got my job...super cool, your earning for yourself, gotta help the family also...people whom you didn't know to last were the ones who lasted and never held back even on their thoughts...thanks to all of them! im looking forward to see them randomly year after year beyond today...

i wish this Christmas would be special...really hope so...

my Christmas wish...list ^^ that i barely stick on to...

1. complete the morning mass routine , just like what i am doing for the past years...

2. i wanna be more happy and continue to carry it on welcoming the new year...

3. wish to spend the last days of the year to friends and family...the ones who gonna come from other place and the ones who will eventually fly for a greener pasture...

4. hope i can give more love to the people whom i owe   the attention and great things...and hopefully i wont forget anyone whom i will send my gifts..though i forget always...^^

5. i hope i am well on that day so that i can last the time needed to all the events i will be into this holiday...

lastly...i want us all to have a merry merry Christmas with our family...and just enjoy! God is the reason...

 i stop making resolutions and Christmas list , cause i cannot do it...i always ended up failed... then when i look back now, im amaze! cause probably some was not a fail...just like going to the mass...im always present even if im sooo sleeeeeeeppppppyyyyy i always scold myself, then get up...chill for a while then i find myself setting in the church waiting for the priest to start the mass, and during masses i dont feel any drowsy at all...im always very awake...lolz! ^^

rambling...at the office

ADIóS! HELLO ICECREAM

even if the whole universe conspires no one can stop Christmas!

i am randomly thinking about what and where should i have my christmas list...need to purchase it...im such a busy fella, because? is it escaping from the real world? na-ah! not that reason...i keep myself busy as i could so i wont feel the pressure being alone and maybe im over thinking stuffs that is why im sickly lately...can i just say one bad word? hhhuuuuussssshhhh damnit!

this is all i wanna say...maybe this is the first time im using this? well well well i cant help it...my head is so full right now...plus the fact i really need to dump that damn feeling! i just knew yesterday he already have someone on his heart and im so stupid for feeling so sorry to myself! but i know i can move on from this damn so called first love...what? yeah! got that right! on my 21 years of existence in the universe...iv'e never love someone before...maybe iv'e admire guys before but its not counted because i only admire artist from Hollywood a big booooooo! to myself...  wanna trim my hair like before when im depressed because i cant go out outing with my cousins and cant attend college intramural during my junior year cause its very late already and my father is not feeling the earth vives that time and his monstrous when he say's NO!CANT GO!...

THE FAMOUS WARM BROWNIE CUP -  LA MAREA IN CEBU 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKAH KARRAH!...LOTS OF LOVE...

Hola!well hows your december starts?mine was good,its not that fine anyways because of my headache, but then i took aspirin to ease the pain...as whats prescription stated...and now i feel so much better than the past few days...i just dont know why lately iv'e been sickly...^^ a weakling... i can even scold then laugh at myself at the same time...i try to tell myself "hey!thats what you get when your saying goodbye and took the way as a vegetarian...haha" maybe but still it wont stop me from living healthy, maybe its true that my body is still adjusting and coping with the changes i took for the past 3 months...so i guess..there's no turning back now...^^ the only one lacking is going to the gym, really i love to do workouts even before but there's no time...and im so lame doing it... i always broke my promise...

now, i dont know if i still could do that this month...because im preparing already for the job hunting next year...yeah, thats true... i wanna took the road less taken, maybe its no good in here... but all my memories about here on my first job was worth keeping...the good and the worst of it...it all so damn but still iv'e learn how to deal on that...and iv'e learn lots of things from here...so bottom line its nice working here...

every Christmas i have my xmas-song every year...like the other year it was HARK THE HERALD... now my theme is LAST CHRISTMAS...its because i always hear it on the office, just like now, and the song really stuck on my head every time im away...^^ haha 

i cant explain my feeling everytime its December...for me its the month of holiness... people should deal with forgiveness...loving one another...charity...cheerful ambiance...i just love Christmas though...^^ 

COME TO MY SENSES!

well, i guess im okay already...hahahah just laugh about it...theres nothing really worth the bitterness...lets enjoy life....as i took back what iv'e said yesterday...na ah! i wont give in to the tempt! haha 

i was thinking on deleting the post but its something not that necessary anymore...its no big deal anyways...^^ 

hmmm bye November! its been a sickly but super Fun-tastic month of the year for me...no regrets at all... cheers! 

November 2011 , its been a great month for me, iv'e been trough my ups and downs...i never thought also that this month will be full of adventure...its nice to know that as the year comes to its halt, i still have my cool friends with me...through thick and thin...always there to just feel each others existence...they were all awesome on their own way... 

TIMELESS SEASON

Who would have thought about how the day pass by... its the second week of November a day after tomorrow... i can smell the December fever... for me December is one of the best season of the year than anything else...  i love it because i can express and see others also shares and gives genuine feelings towards everyone... when Christmas the party we have as a family is quite more fun than any other party of the year, because we got a chance to be with the family , see them happy doing the same thing for the event and see familiar faces thats been oftentimes because of work and other commitments...

 To other places on the world right now, streets are filled with ornamentals resembling for the season... 

what it love about this season is that i feel its never ending... the joy is unexplainable ...very pure... 

most specially, i always use this time of the year to give credits to the people i love... i always become a little Santa in a way that i can make them happy when i give their presents to them...

when i give presents...i make sure that it reflects how the person was to me, and how it relevant to the present so that the thought wont be easily forgotten...

and i surely believe on simple gifts remains matchless , specially when it really comes from your heart...price dont matter to me, whether its expensive or not, its all the same for me, because it is given in free well... 

i always do this during the season, im giving back to the people i love for them to realize something i've realize about this time of the year...

and hopefully if they realize what it is for everyone to really should understand about this once in a lifetime LIFE needs on this season of the year...

Its exactly 49 days left before Christmas comes... 

i wish everyone will love their life as much as they did before... 

im excited for this time because i see lots of food on the table... oh yummmmmmmmy! 

i gotta eat everything i want...^^ im not very particular with foods as long as my mother cooks it for us, i dont eat if she dont cooked it... thats the weird thing about me... because i had a phobia and i often get sick when i eat other peoples doing...

if i dont see any food on the table, i dont buy anything readily cooked outside... id rather cook noodles on my own or open a tuna...or fried some egg with viggies... 

try to see my plater you will love to eat anything i put at it...^^ 

i wanna share something...just like before...

brownie... O_o... yummmmmyyyyy sweetie

first day of the -ber month of '11

September 01,2011 

OH man! i cant imagine how time really pass by so fast and unpredictably amazing! 

its the first day of the ber months...hmmm im thinking stuffs how i am looking myself in the mirror , excited  for every day that will come until it reach Christmas day, and the year ending countdown oh it really feel so good! awesome, i just dont know why im so happy when its ber months 

i dont receive gifts mostly but i gotta be some kind of a Santa my self, im the one who give gifts to my love ones...and every gifts i shared is a special one, it really suits to the person and it connects me to the person...

this thoughts came up to me when i started earning money when i was 3rd year i guess if im not mistaken, im doing this to make them happy specially im happy seeing my love ones appreciate what i have for them

when i was little... my godfather and godmother are far away from our place so i really dont have a present and that makes me envy my brother he always have stuffs from his god father & mother...i envy him, but im not jealous cause it was explained by my father to me...so what he did is buy me things, then he acts like papa is my santa, so i wont get sad when the time strikes 12 in the midnight...

but still that doesn't take away my envy to the thoughts that they managed to remember him and i dont have...

its not the gifts but the presence of the person, but still it doesnt make me a bad girl either...i've had enough already...

i wonder what will make for my Christmas this year a one of a kind...im still thinking for a style.a cool stuff...

but its September first so i wanna greet everyone an advance MERRY CHRISTMAS! 

i can smell it...Christmas is coming...love .love .love...