ALL SAINTS DAY 2011

the post under this one is saved, it should be Oct. 31, but i did not managed to post it because im very busy and i need to finish my PAL report so i can take my leave that day, i was thinking back then to finish the post when i got home...

Apparently i havent finish the post so i just saved it so the details wont be deleted...

Yesterday, i've gone to the cemetery, i bring my nephew with me, my parents and my brother plan to go there at the evening so i got there earlier then them, because thats my original plan anyway, i really wanted to go there alone and to be solemn and to know my responsibilty as a living relative to the love-ones who died...

i bought lots of candles... at first there's no rain... and i wanted to go home early after lighting  some candles...

i saw my auntie and uncles, and on the contrary...

i saw nothing of friends...^^ well, i should have known that at the first place because they are night goers...

and oh! it rained...oh my! yah, so me and my nephew have no choice but to wait for the rain to stop, we manage to stop over for a while on a store... then we ate there, then after a while we headed home already... 

there are some grave i haven't visited yet because when i got there yesterday, i didn't saw the name.. i think its just me who didn't saw the writings...

poor eyesight...^^ 

now i think i should go see a doctor an have my own glasses so i wont let my self suffer... im so sensitive to the sun, my eyes get irritated... then i cant see at night, so thats one of the reason i stay home always...  i also cant see in distance...i can clearly see just a few meters away... rather than that all is too much blurry..

well, back to the Halloween special, i can say that the cemetery is much cleaner now than the past few years, and more well arranged... medics are every station of the cemetery... officials are more prepared...

when my parents turn to go to the cemetery i told them to not use a shoes because its raining and there might be water they better use a boots so their feet will be protected, then when they came back i ask if there's water around the place they answer "no there was nothing anymore, so sad for you ^^"

i was like...OH MAN! what the hell im having such a bad day at the cemetery... hah ^^

this is Prince face hah ^^ a halloween tribute... his gone Singapore Sentosa last week, i envy him for that ^^

FIRST SERVED FOR MY TRICK OR TREAT - HALLOWEEN 2011

Another day pass by so fast... i feel like counting days to open up a new chapter of tomorrow...well im full of dreams and thoughts of something good to happen... i can say, at this point in my life, as a woman, one thing that i held on to, to live life happily is the thought of i can tour the world someday and a positive view of everything... i am so silent now because i dont wanna talk anymore about things that are not necessarily need to upbring. i dont want to blown everything out of proportion because im thinking so weird... i just want some POSITIVE VIBES... so better not say anything, well its really my nature to be silent but this specific happenings that took place a day ago, its just not my cup of tea... im not affected anyway, im just annoyed and pissed off to people think were close enough to be take on easily, i never owe someone or somebody anything so its best for them to stay cool, because their not even funny at all... i just wish them well, i hope they start making their own life than bugging someone else...

Everytime i feel sullen, i just go to her house, take a deep breath and she will point out something, she really is something to me, i hope she will surpass what have i learned , i wish her to finish her studies and be much better than me, she calls me ate,shes my cousin but shes like a sister to me.. they say blood is thicker than water and i agree to that... but this lady is more than a water to me, were not blood sisters but the love and care i had for this person is equivalent to the man i love thats is my brother, both of them remind me my responsibility as a big sister, i dont want to make a fatal mistake or a decision that would ruin everything i had for myself because i know this two person that i value , value's me the most... this lady dream to be successful so she can have her dream house while my brother once dream to be an Engr. so he can build my house... everything my brother ask me, if i can i will give it to him, but i also realize i spoiled him too much and i depend on him also... his one of the reason why i wanted to stay this way so i can fulfill my promise to myself, and i want to live like this because of her also ... both of them played the biggest factor in my life... and this year i can say that i've stepped a notch higher of my expectations for them...

this year i spend most of my time to this two person important in my life... and hope i can see them growing up in the near future... they both are studying, also IT but my brother took a vocational degree. I owe him my dream... so whenever and whatever he want if i can i will provide my bother, his just a testimony of Blood us Thicker than Water... but Water also is pure and as Thick as Blood and thats my cousin... my brother Al Pits, and my cousin dear Emy... what a fool... were all rockin this Halloween 2011... hmmm i can smell party...^^

right now, im drinking coffee but the camera is damn dead so i just got hit by this one, enjoy... its my first TREAT not a TRICK before Halloween 2011 comes... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ^^

Soft Tofu with broccoli of majestic...

i love squash, if you eat this, theres a tofu with this veggie...and tis soft, you can order this through the counter of Majestic, i also love their beefsteak ohhhhhhhh yummy all of them... 

Konnichiwa ^^

Im hear again! Konnichiwa ^^

Although i've been missing for quite a couple of days...ive been visiting regularly to my blog and to my favorite blog sites... the most common reason i can give is that im busy with work + im spending some time to myself to settle things ive never thought ive used to deal with all along, well its not exactly it should be but ive seen it so special to be left aside... sometimes decisions are made to pursue and to let go, it may really affect everything in our lives. I can say i have lived my life the way i wanted to think, i haven't seen this before from where i situated myself today, its kind'a Enchanted to me sometimes, how was that huh? ... + all the effort to do something for the family im so attached to + to the events i should cherish to let them happy + the most fun is i've been happily doing what really makes me happy aside from the music, i've been busy also watching movies lately... + im thinking too much ^^  a total of = blog absences hah ^^ 

When i was young, i was learning to speak Japanese and i understand a little Niponggo and Mandarin...

I had this book from my Lola with all the Japanese word, and i try it every time i see something that describes the word and use it on a phrase... but i forgot about learning Japanese word as long as im growing up, so i ended up knowing just a lil'bit of it... 

Itadakimaso is also a Japanese word, i use it when i eat outside the house, like eating out with other members of the family, with my friends or even having out for myself, i use it when i eat and giving thanks to God for all the blessings and graces he has given to me and to my family...

Lately, ive been feeling ill of all thats been happening, it may be very simple from the previous events to tell things up, but all situation has its own ways on divulging out of the blue, ^^ maybe at this time, i got a more serious weighing to begin with, so i will shut my mouth eventually, but knowing me...^^ one of my post i will probably tell the story to share... i just hope things will gone smoothly...

Have you ever thought that October is such a fast month? i was like Oh! its almost the end of the month, yet without knowing it, i forgot its almost November and December is coming very very very soon... 

Its a TRICK OR TREAT everybody! ... when November strikes, all im excited about is that i can spend and go to cemetery just the way we celebrate it just like before and the second reason why im excited about November is that theres a special place i will go when second of November comes, i will got to see my Lolo, cousins and friends from the town my heart attached with... im super excited, i haven't realize how we grow so fast that the gap is getting wider every year because of the changes...

well the excitement im feeling is not changing a bit yet its getting more and more stronger to experience the event every year, im looking forward to go their every year... its so special to me...

the adrenaline rush is ranging heavily...

moreover, i wanna say advance HAPPY HALLOWEEN everybody...^^

CREEPY - PART III the epic fall

actually im feeling ecstatic right now...one of my client bashed me on the phone... how sad  T_T

shes so silly, its not my fault in the first place, she shouldn't nag to someone if she even know both of us hasn't the problem... i wanna screw that womans mouth grrrrrrr this has been second from today, im shaking from tiptoe to my fingertips... i cant even directly answer the question their making me sick... they should know im not the one who is en charge unto that, the thing is the upper management rules are not quite effective, i just dont want to be bashed out in the phone, it really makes me depressing... *sigh*

if i had only 100 years to live... i will sure that everyday is a worthy day of existence, that in a little way, i can help, i can work, i can spend time with my family, spend time with close friends, let people happy, and probably i want to see God in my last day walking on earth... i wanna share to others how God reminds me to open my soul rather than my eyes...listen through heart not just my ears...speak with wisdom not just tongue...and use my feeling of sense rather than just the heart... it sounds difficult , though that should be people must live within... cause that makes me happy all the time. there's no need for us to be lying down with money just to become happy, like i always say : there's more to life than that...God creation is one of the miracle we are living with everyday... those who think they are as high as the universe are so useless one...look at all those low profile people, their happiness are genuine compare to those rich people who limit their happiness... i agree that Money matters so much with our everyday dwelling but...because of that pathetic thoughts of us people we dont enjoy the real happiness life has to offer us because we think and do too much... as i believe , too much water will spill out, once it does it will shake the basin and sometimes it makes it weak then collapse...worst is to be destroyed... for me the word love is just a word, just like when you repeat it more often it will sounds like LOVELOVELOVELOVEVLAVLAVLAVLABLAHBLAH see? hehe its not a hypothesis , its somehow a fact  to me... i dont want to be a spoiler because as a person i also love someone... but if you are really one of my reader throughout my life, you would have already known that when it comes to love... i had this rare impression and understanding when it comes to this one of a kind feeling... and i will say it again...

For me LOVE has more deeper meaning than loving someone... its the feeling that someone feels for the people they care about, it doesnt mean, you like someone to be your partner when you say you love the person... it has to be more then love... that is what im trying to seek to someone, when it comes to love... love sometimes is the reason why others hurt, they say, you wont understand the hurt if you wont experience it, but for me its different, why need to be hurt when you deserve to be happy? i just dont get the logic about what other people think about this stuff but i dont mind it at all... its not my cup of tea... there are only few people whom i love the most... : my parents...brother...cousins... best friend...my dog...food and music...specially God who never get tired listening to my life blues... we all have our flaws in life... i've said it back then so iwont elaborate things more deeper... ^^

if i got to live a 100 years as i have said, i will spend it to be more happy than being lonely(who wants to be lonely anyway ^^)... then love each day to live... eat more... laugh more... and  be more approachable than before...

i may sound awkward now because of the things i have said earlier but its real... i cant even think of anything that comes from my heart to write here... this may be the ending of my CREEPY part post...^^ im excited for Halloween...excited cause i know i can sleep whole day... knowing me hehe ^^ im such a sleepy head... sounds creepy but thats me sweetie ^^ 

just love to live life healthy and happy...Godbless creepiness...