i live my life as i want it to be

" its really nice to walk unto life without hassle,i dont mean anything when i say hassle,it simply just I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST... if im single until now well  its my choice so i cant blame other persons on my emptiness and so i cant point finger unto someone because im alone and single,for me it doesn't matter WHY? because as i choose these life to walk through i am very blessed for what i experience,how i see the world that i say very awesome and so perfect and how i enjoy the life God has given me. I dont have regrets because i get tp see the flip side of the reality that other people didn't see,now i feel better cause to the people i love i know they love me with my imperfection and i know wont turn their back at me.

I thank my mama,she takes care of me even if im too old to be taken cared of,yes!im too dependent on her to the point i cant eat if its not her work,i cant sleep if i cant bully her,i cant sleep if i dont know where she is , i cant do anything thats been messing up and shes the one who takes the burden to clean up my mess,its not im making my mama do all this things but she willingly do it and this is the reason why im so dependent on her i cant even cook my own food,i'll burn them hahhahah  she really makes it to the point that me and my brother wont do anything if shes not around were so dependent on her,she was my angel i know i've let her down for some reason thats why as i was growing up and fulfilling my dreams now i make it to the point shes included in everything i do,everything i've wanted to and everything that will happen to my life i want to pay back the hard work and the love my mama was showing me,i cant live without her...i cant live without my father they both make me a person...even if im alone,thingking of them makes me smile cause i know im single yet i have them and i got a chance to glance every time i want at them...
Life is too short to be wasted to people who will turn their back at u,not enough and also torn u into pieces.much more pound u as if nothing will be left to you...very strong words, but so true,none of us people would admit what i say,but we all know we are all ungrateful person,because we are all not perfect its just we should be more loyal,honest,lovable,and more likely a God fearing person...i hope i gotta live my life without regrets...

the man who makes me complete

"This is the man i really admire,i really look up to him,WHY? cause his good and very talented he makes me laugh..."

I really want to go Singapore to see him whatever the obstacles that will block on my way...hahahahha IM SO CRAZY when it comes to him...i miss him hope to see him soon...

I dont ask to find someone like his looks but a person thats thesame as Wang have...a good attitude,manners,a man with strong affirmation, and a very honest and loving man...

thank you to my reader

When i was scanning my archives i saw a comments thats been filter into spam, i read it and then mark it as NOT A SPAM so it appears at the bottom...i was then strike by my thoughts that someone is reading my blog also,cause i really thought NO ONE will ever want to read my write ups hahahha its just all about my boring life...nothing so special about the stories just simple blues in m life.

I just wanna say thank you to the person he lift up a part of me,i am more push to write more hahah even if its nonsense...well this is my alter ego anyways...

my wrong thoughts about something

It happens that i was struggling very hard to fight my own emotions...WHY? that will be probably some of the questions people will throw at me. At first I really dont know the answer myself... Im confused,am i so this heartless? this is just one of the questions I've been asking myself also for such a long time. Why cant i love the way other love someone? Why is it no one ask me if i could be their girl,whats wrong? Whats with me that im so hard to love by people?... HOW SAD AND PITY... At first i feel sorry for my self. But lately i know the answer somehow, maybe because i chose too,not because they dont want me...simply because i chose to be Single and Independent on things,i wanna venture my life growing up just by myself,i chose a lonely life for others to see. Somehow i do agree that the life i chose is so empty and im so alone,but part of that emptiness and a winding path of loneliness is the chance i have to be with my family,i gotta chance to be close to them to patch up the times im working. They are the ones who makes me push through my limits,gives me the reason to work hard,inspires me the most and most of all they are the reason why still holding on.

But on the contrary, i realize as i was dependent on them,i saw something they have that i dont have... I have them,thats not a doubt, but they are complete already, me i just have them,its awesome but still always left alone at the end of the day. This really makes me sad and devastated, i once had a best friend, thought i can lend on the person always, but then the person bug down my existence because the person i was talking about has his own life also, i jsut found out he has a loveone already, i feel sorry for myself, cause everytime i look around i see faces possess happiness because they have something i dont have, I always told my self DONT WORRY THE RIGHT ONE WILL COME ALONG, but how much longer? im not in a hurry but it seems people fades too fast.........HOW WAS THAT HUH?.....thinking about this really makes me angry not just mad,im feeling something like this because im alone, envy to them? No im not,im just jealous maybe for the fact they are brave enough to love despite the fact they are not sure about the person, because im not that strong to face circumstances like people have...Id rather be alone than hurting myself,yah they feel happy but sometimes in the end ends up hurting, for me i dont wanna go into something i will be hurt...Id rather die hahhahah well can you see now that my perspective are too lousy and strong and very much wrong but thats my prerogative, until now aint no one can break my wrong thoughts hahhaha

dallas mavericks

as the season 2010-2011 comes to an end,i gotta gathered more foes than friends...almost quarrel my cousin... almost hurt by their words towards how the bulls beaten up by the big 3 of Miami Heat...but bottom line of season...still my former idol,doesn't have the will and the guts to proved to his men left behind that he deserved that chance that was given to him...still his a king without a championship ring...thanks to Dirk's willpower and Kidd's determination to have that ring his bean wanting all in his career...well i gotta say...i know i was not mistaken...i know just when i looked into their eyes...each and every one on the team...they deserved all the good words the've been hearing and all the praise thats been said and all the write ups today...they came out just at the right moment...at the right time...and at the right place to quash the mockers...hahahhah who's sipping champagne right now...and who has the last laugh now...thats all for the jerks...hahahhahaha

                                                                                                                       June 13,2011 (Philippine Time)