Thursday, January 6, 2011

friends...?...

(o_O) im so pissed off to people whom i thought my "SO CALLED FRIENDS & MY SO CALLED BEST FRIENDS..."
i didnt realize something about it till last year's DECEMBER 21...
i called up my SO CALLED BEST FRIEND and ask her if she can attend to our reunion but then all i hear from her was a pathetic thing that she wont go if the one she wanna see wont be going with us...oh shit!y cant they come?HELLO its a reunion u cant force someone to come they were busy...and there not available...it wont be a reunion if u chose who would come to that event and the others wont be inform?hallllerrrr?!!! some barely understand...and me too i cant understand why there are people who forget everything and people who instantly change...
...hahahahahha char char change...well i realize that the friends i thought who would stand by me in times i would be needing them are my real friends...but im soooooo WRONG...and i accpet the fact that it's true...i now know that what i thought from this people were like a dream...a terrible past whom i thought i belong to them but then i was never been part of their cycle...
...i pity myself...cause i realize im just the only one who keep pushing myself to them...but the real thing was..."they never wanted me" in their cycle...they were just using me and i let them do that to me...ITS ALL MY FAULT trusting them...
...its not that nag tatampo ako to them...but its really true and clear to me now that im useless and im just a clown to them...i never realize that till last 21...hahahahhaha how foolish am i for not noticing such shameful happenings...
...now im thinking if "hey?did they laughed at me way back then when im away?are they backstabbing me".Now i dont trust them anymore...and now i dont know if i could still be with them in the near future...now pa eh i know na i dont belong to them...
...how sad knowing the friendship i thought i had with them was real are FAKE!!!!they were all fakers...so sad to know such disgusting people...T_T  
 

...started...

...jumping to my alter egos thoughts...about starting a new year...
a year alone...a year to start to build my self...a year that i should consider a stepping stone for a brighter future ahead today...
...i could see my life now...i can say im better than before...but digging up everything of me right this moment...summing up the events i've been through from the past year...all i can say "i had nothing for myself YET...in short...i did not get what i deserve to have from what i've given up just to do my duty..."

...last nights horrific accident...

...continuing last nights fear just like what i saw and my friend on the road...
Questions echoed everywhere on our mind....how life is to short for us to live and thoughts for us to understand how we live our life at this moment...and how could HE can take it right away just like that...
...and how could we explain and how could we say "NO!PLEASE I WANNA LIVE MORE...." and some of our so called "PROMISES"...the "WHAT IF...and IF's" of our lives...
...How about you?have you ever ask yourself all of the questions you wanna ask and have u ever been satisfied by the answers u get from so called  MENTORS? and have u ever get the answers u really wanna hear?or u did got answers u dont expected but really it was....sad to say opposed to what u really expected...?"HAVE YOU"?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

...accidents...

could someone predict his/her life?...
if she/he die in some circumstances...an accident...from natures whip... 

...2011 already?...

....2011 started already...but then i was not about to start my year yet...maybe next week or later or tomorrow...I DON'T KNOW...thats the reality...
...but i really wanted to start it right away...i don't wanna wait for NEXT ...
but sad to say...im hectic and at the brink of my temper...IM SSSOOOOO SSTRREEESSSSEEEDDDD...&...DRAAAIIIINNNEEED