Thursday, March 31, 2011

...in my dreams only...

Hmmp...i dont know how to explain what im feeling right now...and i dont know how i will handle to say what I've learn in myself to the person who showed me love...its hard but i know that i love with who i am today...i love being single...i love myself...i want to break that boundaries of mine and take that risk to experience that happiness I've been longing for such a long time...i wanna travel the world...i want to travel and meet bunch of people and see how beautiful world is...but i think i cant do this as of now...but i will strive hard to get to france...after that haha i bet i better face my lovelife...cause for sure by that time im secured (and old...hahahahaha) and i know who am i...i know myself already...my family is good and maybe that time...i can merely see who will be the man last standing before me...and will say "HEY!IM HERE IN FRONT OF YOU...AND I'VE WAITED FOR YOU IN SUCH A LONG TIME & I LOVE YOU THATS WHY IM HERE...THE MAN WHO NEVER GET BORED ON WAITING FOR YOU & THE MAN WHO NEVER STOP LOVING YOU"...KORNEY!!!!hahahah but yah this is my weird side saying this whole lot of OA stuff about my dream love...hehe im so loveless...s*! but im happy...very much happy...i just wish the man who loves me today wont grow tired on waiting and will still hold on haha but i guess only "crazy" person would wait for me...well well well im not the only girl in the world ....hahahhaha so the ending..i still dont know...i will let God write my own love story...do you find it nice?if not it's ok...cause for me i do think it is nice hehe

...journey

...what a long day...cant wait to rest...
..."cause its you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing prove ...and its you and me and all of the people and i dont know why i cant keep my eyes out of you..."
this is my fav. song...oh my god...i will be busy for sure next week...im so worried huhu,im thinking about the "WHAT IF & IF's" of life...please God be with me...hehe

i know the road ahead is not that easy... but i believe in God and i believe in myself...^^ hahahah AJA!

Part 3

...hi!yah...you...dont smile...^^ hahahahhahaha

...i hope you will wait for mr MR.LOVE...hahahah i call my soon to be special someone MR.LOVE...if God will give you to me,i will be happy...but for now...please kindly wait cause i want to be ready if i say yes to you...im not perfect and theres nothing perfect here in the world...right now im enjoying God's company...

Not yet ready man!olah...hahahahahahhaha but i know God has been making His own ways...and not just ways...SPEACIAL WAYS...hahahhaha

Part 2

...TRY IT!have you try what i suggested on my last post?...if not yet or no...well its your own prerogative...
Its nice how people fall in love...There is someone out there God has plan for me and hope that person wont give up waiting till i pick up myself and find my true happiness and fulfillment in life...In my age i wanna take risk and experience more valuable things for myself and enjoy being single...Cause being single is so "ASTIG!" and with God with me...NOTHING ELSE MATTER...I'VE GONE THROUGH TOUGH TIMES...AND SWEET MOMENTS IN MY LIFE...thanks to GOD...hahahahah i sound creepy eh?...



-1 Corinthians 13-
"4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

wandering soul...

...As i was growing as a woman...all i notice is the feeling of emptiness...i really dont understand cause as far as i know,i am very much love by my family...i have real friends...

I was a self committed single woman,I dont believe in a "HAPPY ENDING" realtionship...and most of all i dont have a bf...That was all before...

After that first love trap i was so boring with my self...all was a routine for me...'house... school...studies...eat... watching t.v...listening music...'and i did not notice i was growing up lonely,cause of that freaking failure i've experience...but we all gone through that...the wrong thing of my part was that i took it seriously... but now if there were times i can recall my first failure about what love means all i can feel is that im happy to know how cruel life was...and gradually in reality we must face the truth there's no happy endings...hahahhahah 

Now,as i go on with my life,there's is this man who gives me an idea what love means...he pursue the thing he wants...he helps me see's life is a maze and beautiful...y maze?cause i can see and i've learn when we look ahead  on what we are right now,theres a lot of different roads that should we will be taking,roads that leads us to the ends of our reasons and decisions in life...but im confused y?...understand my answer from the explanation see after this : 

"im confused since then...this was my problem before,to have a relationship...cause im confused...feels like...yah!i want him to be my bf...but on the deepest part of my mind and soul theres something missing in myself...it's empty...for so many times i let love pass me by because im not ready to commit on someone cause im still searching looking for that spark i lost or shall i say the spark i always wanted in my life...im refering to this special person that i myself...FINALLY FOUND him...i dont know what happen i just think of him and ask his forgiveness and surrender my self to him...with him...i find my peace of mind...i find love...unconditional one...a love that would never betray me and understanding...He never blame me if i do wrong..He wont shout on me if i commit mistakes...He always let me know He is there always with me and He is willing to accept the BEST & WORST of myself...He im talking about is GOD...

...WOW!i am so high if i talk to him...He is the best thing that happen to me...If i talk to him about the problems he lighten up my burden...He understands me...people around me,acts like they know me in and out...but they just dont know they dont really know me at all..im a faker when it comes to myself...they see me jolly...irritate easily and lots of stuff like im so "kalog"...hahahahah they thought im immature the real thing is i hide the real me cause i dont want to be vulnerable...and i get hard to trust someone...but he taught me how to be soft...still i dont show myself who really am i...cause all i want to be accepted by the worst of me...and the,lets see if who would be the right one that will be worthy of my BEST...

I ask HIM to enlighten up my mind every time im in trouble handling myself temper...i know very well myself...im a demon inside if im mad...and crap!im so awkward when im good hahahaah
God never fails me to be a good one...and im happy i found what i really want now...i want to find myself first and serve God while im still young and waiting for the person he destined to give me...I want to find my special someone together with Him...I always put in my mind now...GOD NEVER FAILS US...
its up to us on how we execute well our decisions in life...

Now i know why i feel so empty and hard to get into a relationship right now...it is because for a long time i forgot about HIM...i forgot GOD in my life...that is why i feel empty...confuse...I never regret the day i say yes to GOD...cause with Him i can say hahahah IM IN MY HIGH...I love someone but now that i have HIM now,i wont let HIM go and i dont want to forgot about HIM again...i just want to spend more time again with God..

God loves us unconditionally...try to find your own happiness with HIM...and with His blessing...

...first time...

...u know the feeling of "uneasy" and "confused"...? yeah u read me right...that is what im feeling about for a couple of months passed by...or shall i say...years passed...oh man!so damn feeling,it sucks,y?cause u dont know how to execute things right...i dont wanna talk or even blow this out before but now im fine and in the stage of sureness now...a lil'bit hesitant to this...OH!I WANNA STOP MY HANDS TYPING haha sounds funny huh...^^

               ...wanna know what im talking about?...oh yeah sure u do...cause u've got to read this line so ur interested huh...

.."Long before i have myself today,i was always on the safe side of the world...i've never experience  the thing they call "LOVE"...its not the general "I REALLY DONT HAVE ONE"..i've gone through the stage of having a crush on somebody...admire someone...infatuated by a man...and until when i first have a bf that was when i enter college...his my man for sure haha cause u know that was the first time i fell in love with the opposite sex...
but i did not realize that was a "total mess...total mistake...total failure..." i never regret though the times i was feeling infatuated by this man,cause he brings out the new horizon of my self...haha but then i realize "i was the only one who's going crazy over this guy and on the other hand his not feeling the same way to unto me"...no regrets...y?cause we seldom see each other...the thing i remember was that he only holds my hand when we go to church and hey!that was once only...haha and the second time was that when he bring me to his house and introduce me to his family and a bunch of friends...uncles...oh my gosh! hahahahah that feeling!yah...that feeling on that day...i can remember i was sweating cold a lot!like...a lot!and i was shivering and shaking when
his parents talk to me feels like i was tortured...hahahaha but it goes well...and then we go to their place and the only thing we always do during this days was that 'TALK' he love to talk to me...as in we sit under the tree and facing each other...if u can only see us before u cant even think his my bf huh!hehe u know i was some kind of a immature thing about having a realationship so i dont know how to handle that before...but i can see in him that he was happy...even if he only holds my hands if we're on church and other than that theres no more...hahaha i feel sorry for the guy...and!!!! for me his gentle man...he never attempt to kiss me,he just hold my hand and we just TALK...TALK...TALK...he loves talking a lot...until such day i found out he cheated on me...so i hated him...i hated all the guys...and from then i was hardened... yah I was...I was so bitter since that...i dont trust a man's word anymore...until i found out there is someone out there who never fails to love me...never reject me...most of all never betray me...and that was the day i was so happy being with him...i find peace with him...i always go to him after my classes...and then ask forgiveness for the coldness i showed to people sorrounds me...wanna know who's this man i was talking about?

...this is GOD...and he was so good to me...

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

book that inspires me

...NOTHING LAST FOREVER...
...a story that will move you...very nice...

When i read this book,the first thing i got into my mind ,was that "do this really happen?how could such writer comes up with this spectacular novel...it really wowed me..."
Since that day i never forgot how to love my family each day...and it always serves an inspiration from 4 years ago up until now...hope to read it again once more...it will be enough...

...chit chat with my close friend

...well well well its morning again...and its been days since i posted here...kasi naman...busy sa work...but i always take my time staring at my blog post...hahah thats all,i just stare at it...until such day...i talked to someone i knew...a family friend of ours...i told him and ask why i did not see his gf...he laughed he told me..."ur busy working and if Sunday u always in ur room ur such a sleepyhead haha"...i told him back "i wanna see her,ur gf is the only one i did not see noh!hehe" and in an instant something goes popping in my head...so i let it out and told him so creepy words from mine...hahah "u know what i now realize how lonely to be alone and single..." and my friend laugh and then told me..."i think ur the only woman left in our place not yet going into relationship and ur good being single,u dont get along with todays trend cause u know todays generation were not that pretty good at all,girls do forgot what a real woman is...thanks God ur good" then we laugh...
...Then i did not notice we already arrived in the road,then i waited a car,cause im on my way to the office that day...hehehe thanks im not late...the chit chat was good...it feels good...really it was...

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

...NARUTO...

NARUTO UZUMAKI
Father:  YONDAIME "MINATO/THE GOLDEN FLASH of KUNOHA" 4TH HOKAGE 
Mother: KUSHINA "RED HAIR" UZUMAKI
                               Naruto seems to be my hero since i knew him...hahahahahahahahhaha

Saturday, March 19, 2011

future...

...i used to laugh at many people,hahaiz im so bored today...im in the office working nothing...maybe next week,hanap na ako ng work na iba...kasi,sa tingin ko sayang lang if dito ako for the whole time...i want to use my assets... nuon i used to think this job has been right for me,i got to know and see different people...Pinoy,Americans,Canadians,Greeks,Japanese.Chinese and the last one is from Australia...I've had fun back to the days working here...but now,i dont think so...The business is in Red...I dont wanna wait for them to say "SORRY WE CANT RECOVER THE BUSINESS AS OF NOW AND SAD TO SAY WE NEED TO CLOSE THE BUSINESS..."huhu now i can feel the recession and the lack of job here in the Philippines...but u know...before,im not feeling this yet...Im a happy go lucky daughter...but im not a brat...im a good one...hahahhahahahhahahhaha


sad to look back the days i wasted my money for at times like this that i really badly needing much more money for my future...Someday...if i crossed the bridge out there...hope i can say..."I NEVER REGRET EVERYTHING I HAD IN THE PAST..." for me,what i did on the past is what i had today and it's up to me if i would change it for the good or not and follow the wrong direction...and what is we all doing today will bear a fruit tomorrow...if we do right NOW...then,we will harvest the sweetest success in the future...but if we dont?...i still dont know...who knows?...everything has a purpose...


i just want God's guidance to me and to my family...hope i can still see in the future my family...that is my greatest fear...being alone...T_T

Friday, March 18, 2011

about being single...

I dont know if it's really true about single ladies...For me they differ each and the other...people should not not generalize common things on them...hahahahhahahahhaha i have something here...


i made this one...^^

Thursday, March 17, 2011

...NOTHING ON YOU...

NOTHING ON YOU...

beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby
they might say hi and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry about what they say
cause they got nothin' on you baby
nothin' on you baby

not not not nothin' on you babe
not not nothin' on you
i know you feel where i'm coming from
regardless of the things in my past that i've done
most of it really was for the hell of the fun
on the carousel so around i spun (spun)
with no directions just tryna get some (some)
tryna chase skirts, living in the summer sun (sun)
this is how i lost more than i had ever won (won)
and honestly i ended up with none

there's no much nonsense
it's on my conscience
i'm thinking baby i should get it out
and i don't wanna sound redundant
but i was wondering if there was something that you wanna know
(that you wanna know)
but never mind that we should let it go (we should let it go)
cause we don't wanna be a t.v episode (t.v episode)
and all the bad thoughts just let them go (go, go, go, go)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

...my family...

...It never comes into my mind that i would stop working,for me that is my greatest fear as of now...cause i can see how unstable life is...In my mind is my papa and my mama...I wanna give them relaxation right there ages now cause i know they raise me and my brother well...I want to take in charge now on giving them good life...But i dont know if they can give me more time...I dont have no doubts about my papa and mama...they love us their children so much...thanks to them im a person whom i am today...But the thing is...i really wanted to help them...and before i can help them i need to do something....

May dear God guide me every time of the day and my family...

Im so senti today...bakit kaya?hahahahhahahah im wondering if theres someone reading my blog...i think theres no one...hahahahahhaha kawawa nman ako... 

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

...a piece from the past...

...How funny i remember a person from old school hahahahaahahahaa the times he bullied me...

At first i really dont like him cause his so HANGIN!...u know that sort of stuffs he does...it will pissed us off!But when graduated in high school he changed,as in total changes...his ok by then,more man enough with his actions...This so called man was the one i really admire because of his looks...his not dumb at all,his ok,and his an athlete back then...he is ahead of me,i think 2 years...The only way we get along is through my cousin,he and my cousin were classmates during that day...During lunch break...i take my lunch in there classroom...So i get to see him there...
 But he doesn't recognize me at all.but that time i really look up at him...hahahahahha sometimes i fantasize him being my man,but that was just a simple infatuation of a young lady...A simple admiration...But when i get to know him,as in personally and we kind'a like friends after...that level of admiration becomes something un expectable...then i used to think he feels the way i feel for him,but NO! it's not like that,im not stupid not to feel im nothing to him...and so i neglect everything i feel for this person...
Suddenly...or shall i say,one day...a day to remember but instead a day to be regretted...y?cause it's like a doomed after...
This man courted me...And so rest was history...our friends were worried about being me clinging to this guy...but still i insist that his good...(hahahahhah im not bitter anyways)...and so they just let me...but this man,not to make thsi story long...he cheated on me...and i was the one who found out that...

So!from that day...i cursed him...cause im so bitter...i told him that he would regret the day doing that to me...but im a kind of person that i dont really give importance to the person whose ill to there words...but it doesn't matter to me...i dont plant bad feelings to person...im too vulnerable...what u see outside and inside of me was real...what you see is what you get to me...and so i forgive him already the day we separate our ways but i cant forget what he had caused in my life...but thanks to God he opened more opportunities to me to be more happy...
I don't have a boyfriend but im happy cause i choose to be one...It's kind'a lonely thinking im so alone sometimes...watching people or to correct hahah LOVERS instead...they were so happy together...but some were fake...we do all witness how lovers break...but its' there life...im out of that...

 just wanna share how im blessed and happy as i am now...Im contented to make my family happy...and so im happy also...cause i'd rather be happy and hurt in my own family than feel devastated on other people...

hahahh no hard feelings...and to end this story...i saw that man on my way to the office this morning...i think he saw me also....hahahhahahah

...TRU LOVE WAITS...

I read something today...it's sort funny and extremely unbelievable at the first place...
A continuation of what i watch last Sunday...

Its all about TRUE LOVE WAITS...A group of certain SINGLE people from  PHILIPPINES...to qoute "ALL OVER PHILIPPINES"...At first you would thought this people were some kind of OLD nerds...wearing big glasses... unfashionable one...dressed up like some sort of 1800 or something...but WOAH! they were absolutely NOT at all...in fact one of the organizers of the group were so sexy!hahahhahahahh i really look up to her...WHY? cause SINCE BIRTH she has no BOYFRIEND...hahahhahahhah INTERESTING for me...cause shes PRETTY...WELL FASHIONED...SMART...and ELITE...but she preferred to dedicate to such thing or shall i say she proved that THERE IS STILL A MODERN FILIPINA that can show and can give testimony and true to there VOWS and RULES and PLEDGE to the group and to GOD...

I really search the web just to know if the group really exist and YES it was!And hey!its GLOBAL...

Really she reflects opposite to what a modern girl right today...

ahahhahahhah im HAPPY IM NOT ALONE TO MY WORDS...the only difference is that i already gone through it...but it doesn't matter to there code of ethics...^^

Wait Mommy!

More cuteness

Sunday, March 13, 2011

...aftermath of the catastrophe...

...Cant believe over 10,000 died on "MARCH 11.2011 GREAT QUAKE & TSUNAMI" that hit japan...a 8.9 magnitude...a phenomenon no one ever predicted to happen on todays world...

... Haiti also suffers great massive destruction...but its nothing compare to what Japan suffers now...IF only i can do something to ease the pain of my fellow human being out there in Japan...

...For now all we can all do is PRAY...theres nothing impossible if we trust HIM up there...

...For me this is an eye opener to all of us that there is someone up there who is more powerful...hope we all see that beyond our eyes and deep within our hearts...


Copyrights of Cherieann Lines

Friday, March 11, 2011

...MARCH 11,2011...GREAT TSUNAMI hits JAPAN and followed by a GREAT EARTHQUAKE...

Thoughts are coming in and out of my mind...seems like im very paranoid about what happen to Japan yesterday and the tsunami and the earthquake and all of the upcoming disastrous happenings that will hit our race...

Huhuhu im not afraid of dying but im afraid on the fact i will die without fully repenting of my sins...im a human being,all of us plays a rule in all of this catastrophe that we are all witnessing and dealing with right now...

...All i can say NO ONE IS SAFE...and THIS IS HOW NATURE comes back to us....very sad and frightening...lets just all PRAY...

...For Human race and for all those who died...

...JAPAN...

...And who would not be afraid about the tsunami that hit some parts of Japan yesterday?...
Honestly last night im shaking from the videos i've seen in the news...All of a sudden...it almost erase Japan in our world map...tsunami yesterday seems like a triggering reason for us to be more resentful in our selves.


...Let us think and look back how human race abusively destroy NATURE and MOTHER EARTH...
How we let this happen..All of this was the come back of mother nature to remind us how we brokenheartedly destroy what mother nature let us borrow...


...But sad to say....i can still see human race are yet to understand the reason of all of this... 

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

...NOTHING STAYS THE SAME...

...Nothing stays the same...why i said so?simply because people do change...physically,emotionally and mentally changing...cause life is a cycle and a never ending process...i dont know if you whom reading this one would agree to my belief,but for me this is really true...at least...


...Kind'a weird how people change in an ample of time...y?cause i witness a dear friend of mine evolve through her life easily...and how she manage to forget something just to accept something new...but no hard feelings for her cause it's her life and she is the master of her prerogative...


...We do all grow up in a period of time but it's our choice how we handle things in our own life...a choice to be taken seriously...but for some people they dont care about thinking seriously or not they just simply execute moves on how they think right and not how would that affect the pro's and con's on that action...


...Sometimes i would honestly say,I also take actions not looking ahead...but i would rather trust my instinct and execute my actions clearly on my own decision making,and to trust my self,follow my thoughts and not my heart,go on the way that i will not harm someone in making that decision...i'd rather do that and blame myself than listen to other people and at the end i cant blame them cause we were the one responsible of our action...


...thats alll ceguro for now...^^