TURNS UPSIDE DOWN...O_o

...i cant barely explain how my body aches so much right now...but still need to go to work...

iv'e shed my tears every time my upper back aches...i find myself biting my lips cause it hurts so much...cant wait to go home...i know...ive over used my body...but this time im really afraid...T_T  

afraid that this might be serious...iv'e known this for a long time, and i just neglected this...

maybe i should give myself a credit...im planing to go for a rest tomorrow...maybe a massage will make this feel better...

im encoding right now, and i cant turn around my neck...i dont have stiff neck but my upper back is very sore up to the edge of my nape...wow its very painful man! i want to leave for today, but i cant just left behind my work for today...theres work to be done...and tons of it! sakit talaga...this is the first time iv'e had this...and i dont know whats the reason for this...when i woke up this morning, twas like 5 in the morning , i was awakened due to the pain when i was about to move my body... so i lend my lower back to the other side so that i can push my body to get up...i feel so crippled... then i decided to take a walk outside...my brother ask me why i get up so early...i told him nothing...i dont want him burden this, malayo lang naman  to sa bituka...i dont want to distract him from studying...its his exam today...so i hope he gets the test done...maybe...of all the people around me, only him could make me take my life just for him..thats how important my brother is to me...i dont mind working just to support him, iv'e given half of my life just to help him, no regrets at all...even if i used too much everything iv'e learn just to give him and help him prepared for his life i will always openly do it...he maybe know i work hard for him, but he doesnt know how i sacrifice a lot for him...i can see naman his giving me credits...he respects me...his my only brother so i will fought a fight just for him...oh my! im so emotional when it comes to him..i dont ask anything from him...all im hoping is that he finish his studies...and thats all, when his over that he can do what he want...im laways here to guide him no matter ...

.gosh...im multi-tasking right now...encoding and blogging...^^ while my other hand is on the phone...haha pity myself...work overload weekend!...

this is why i love working...i can do what are the things and stuff people expect youre good to...and you also know that you are needed and your important on such aspect...i hope i can give justice to my report now...^^ well i need to go for now...i will just leave a short something ^^

this is my lunchy...

PARDON ME FOR BEING BLUE

im so damn emotional about this one...i just came up with a slight heavy decision...maybe after this one, i will take some time alone...not lonely but i will have my me time...and by the time im hanging again here i will tell you the happenings iv'e been...it will be a bunch...^^ well, i also feel a little odd about this, but i just got my senses back to normal, maybe i just need this some time to think things again...and clear things thats been blocking my sight...^^ lelz!  

so as the month ends... i will temporarily bid farewell to you guys...i'll be back soon...with me are loads of giddy ups... today i posted something in my twitter...t'was like paying tribute to my friends who never fail to keep in touch...well, im blessed with people that are so good to accept me, cheers me up, and the witnesses of how i deal with my life...maybe their far away, but they never fails to reach out... how sad i ended up like a lonesome looser...^^ yeah you read that right...

i have go back to my senses and i was still on the hype about that thing...and about that person..

actually the reason im doing this because i feel embarrass to my self... i scolded myself for the sad but the fact of understanding and controlling more the stuffs that will came my way...maybe i was just very giddy about that new found feeling... i dont want to talk about it...its Christmas again... i hope the people iv'e been with wont fade as time flies by... just enjoy the holidays guys! i wish us all luck and happiness...

PATHETIC SICKNESS STRIKES! EH...

there ya go! i have allergies...and im still sick...im freakin out already...maybe im just too stubborn to go to the doctor...but the med's doesn't respond to my illness anyways...and im starting to have deja vu about this...maybe this is a call that i should not be lame on going to the doctor...my head really aches!gosh...

and maybe this is due to over doing with my partner Computer...11 hours a day...6 times a week...3 weeks a month...its really driving me crazy! i need to purchase now my new glasses since iv'e had mine broken...and that was the last time i used protection for my eyes...and im regretting it right now...i cant work properly...and there is also a part of me regretting some stuff about the 2 days getaway with the family, no doubt!its fun...i had fun with them during that time but if staying away on that day will spare me on having this freakin sickness i hould have choose to that decision...well...the saying goes...repentance is always late...Lelz...

as if i dont know that...

THE  GREEK  SALAD ...

SICK COLLIDE WITH BOREDOM

i thought i was okay...since i already gone out with friends last Sunday...but then, Monday this week i was suffering from cough and at that moment i also got colds...then i take my med's and the colds gone but my cough stays with me till now...and its freakin annoying cause i cant sleep well at night...worst thing is that i always woke up late at night like around 12 then i cant sleep back again, till almost 2 am in the morning...its like..OH MY GOSH!why cant i be okay...ive gone to the doctor already and still no progress...maybe this is a bacteria from the air...and tonight i will consult a doctor about this...there's something stinging on my throat... ^^

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