Thursday, October 27, 2011

FIRST SERVED FOR MY TRICK OR TREAT - HALLOWEEN 2011

Another day pass by so fast... i feel like counting days to open up a new chapter of tomorrow...well im full of dreams and thoughts of something good to happen... i can say, at this point in my life, as a woman, one thing that i held on to, to live life happily is the thought of i can tour the world someday and a positive view of everything... i am so silent now because i dont wanna talk anymore about things that are not necessarily need to upbring. i dont want to blown everything out of proportion because im thinking so weird... i just want some POSITIVE VIBES... so better not say anything, well its really my nature to be silent but this specific happenings that took place a day ago, its just not my cup of tea... im not affected anyway, im just annoyed and pissed off to people think were close enough to be take on easily, i never owe someone or somebody anything so its best for them to stay cool, because their not even funny at all... i just wish them well, i hope they start making their own life than bugging someone else...

Everytime i feel sullen, i just go to her house, take a deep breath and she will point out something, she really is something to me, i hope she will surpass what have i learned , i wish her to finish her studies and be much better than me, she calls me ate,shes my cousin but shes like a sister to me.. they say blood is thicker than water and i agree to that... but this lady is more than a water to me, were not blood sisters but the love and care i had for this person is equivalent to the man i love thats is my brother, both of them remind me my responsibility as a big sister, i dont want to make a fatal mistake or a decision that would ruin everything i had for myself because i know this two person that i value , value's me the most... this lady dream to be successful so she can have her dream house while my brother once dream to be an Engr. so he can build my house... everything my brother ask me, if i can i will give it to him, but i also realize i spoiled him too much and i depend on him also... his one of the reason why i wanted to stay this way so i can fulfill my promise to myself, and i want to live like this because of her also ... both of them played the biggest factor in my life... and this year i can say that i've stepped a notch higher of my expectations for them...

this year i spend most of my time to this two person important in my life... and hope i can see them growing up in the near future... they both are studying, also IT but my brother took a vocational degree. I owe him my dream... so whenever and whatever he want if i can i will provide my bother, his just a testimony of Blood us Thicker than Water... but Water also is pure and as Thick as Blood and thats my cousin... my brother Al Pits, and my cousin dear Emy... what a fool... were all rockin this Halloween 2011... hmmm i can smell party...^^

right now, im drinking coffee but the camera is damn dead so i just got hit by this one, enjoy... its my first TREAT not a TRICK before Halloween 2011 comes... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ^^
Soft Tofu with broccoli of majestic...

i love squash, if you eat this, theres a tofu with this veggie...and tis soft, you can order this through the counter of Majestic, i also love their beefsteak ohhhhhhhh yummy all of them... 

SOMETHING'S FEELS BETTER AND BITTER

Just when i thought that i was all by myself living a healthy and a happy life, i was hound by something from the past... its all started when i open my Facebook today, there is a person whom i never thought of sending me an annoying message , well...he just did! and Prince saw it... im just too upset that why cant i go on with my life without the shadow of that person... i never been into a relationship before... because i believe theres no one made me feel breathless haha im so crazy but kidding aside i just did it! i've over come my fear that this person might ruined everything i put up with... i just wanna ask if what is that person wants? i never owe anything from that bullshit... just a jerk that keeps on barking...its just pissing me off the board... 

theres nothing much to say about this person, well... on the light side if you remember fro my previous post, i mentioned a friend...a best friend indeed... i think, i got her wrong and misunderstood her the last time... thats me, i think i was wrong this time, its not her anymore... but were ok, i reach out to her and had a bonding even if its been a long time, feels like were still the same, the thing is ...she had her family now, but still im amaze on how she handles her life today, because as for me i really cant still imagine my life having mine to attend to... there's been a lot of things and goals i was focused from on till now... im so happy for her cause i can see she's happy with her lie and to her baby, hopefully the christening will be next year on Sinulog, hopefully...  im kinda excited about it... 
wanna share some stuff here, hope you enjoy...^^ 

OH LALA ^^

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Konnichiwa ^^

Im hear again! Konnichiwa ^^

Although i've been missing for quite a couple of days...ive been visiting regularly to my blog and to my favorite blog sites... the most common reason i can give is that im busy with work + im spending some time to myself to settle things ive never thought ive used to deal with all along, well its not exactly it should be but ive seen it so special to be left aside... sometimes decisions are made to pursue and to let go, it may really affect everything in our lives. I can say i have lived my life the way i wanted to think, i haven't seen this before from where i situated myself today, its kind'a Enchanted to me sometimes, how was that huh? ... + all the effort to do something for the family im so attached to + to the events i should cherish to let them happy + the most fun is i've been happily doing what really makes me happy aside from the music, i've been busy also watching movies lately... + im thinking too much ^^  a total of = blog absences hah ^^ 

When i was young, i was learning to speak Japanese and i understand a little Niponggo and Mandarin...
I had this book from my Lola with all the Japanese word, and i try it every time i see something that describes the word and use it on a phrase... but i forgot about learning Japanese word as long as im growing up, so i ended up knowing just a lil'bit of it... 
Itadakimaso is also a Japanese word, i use it when i eat outside the house, like eating out with other members of the family, with my friends or even having out for myself, i use it when i eat and giving thanks to God for all the blessings and graces he has given to me and to my family...
Lately, ive been feeling ill of all thats been happening, it may be very simple from the previous events to tell things up, but all situation has its own ways on divulging out of the blue, ^^ maybe at this time, i got a more serious weighing to begin with, so i will shut my mouth eventually, but knowing me...^^ one of my post i will probably tell the story to share... i just hope things will gone smoothly...

Have you ever thought that October is such a fast month? i was like Oh! its almost the end of the month, yet without knowing it, i forgot its almost November and December is coming very very very soon... 

Its a TRICK OR TREAT everybody! ... when November strikes, all im excited about is that i can spend and go to cemetery just the way we celebrate it just like before and the second reason why im excited about November is that theres a special place i will go when second of November comes, i will got to see my Lolo, cousins and friends from the town my heart attached with... im super excited, i haven't realize how we grow so fast that the gap is getting wider every year because of the changes...
well the excitement im feeling is not changing a bit yet its getting more and more stronger to experience the event every year, im looking forward to go their every year... its so special to me...
the adrenaline rush is ranging heavily...

moreover, i wanna say advance HAPPY HALLOWEEN everybody...^^

Friday, October 21, 2011

CREEPY - PART III the epic fall

actually im feeling ecstatic right now...one of my client bashed me on the phone... how sad  T_T
shes so silly, its not my fault in the first place, she shouldn't nag to someone if she even know both of us hasn't the problem... i wanna screw that womans mouth grrrrrrr this has been second from today, im shaking from tiptoe to my fingertips... i cant even directly answer the question their making me sick... they should know im not the one who is en charge unto that, the thing is the upper management rules are not quite effective, i just dont want to be bashed out in the phone, it really makes me depressing... *sigh*

if i had only 100 years to live... i will sure that everyday is a worthy day of existence, that in a little way, i can help, i can work, i can spend time with my family, spend time with close friends, let people happy, and probably i want to see God in my last day walking on earth... i wanna share to others how God reminds me to open my soul rather than my eyes...listen through heart not just my ears...speak with wisdom not just tongue...and use my feeling of sense rather than just the heart... it sounds difficult , though that should be people must live within... cause that makes me happy all the time. there's no need for us to be lying down with money just to become happy, like i always say : there's more to life than that...God creation is one of the miracle we are living with everyday... those who think they are as high as the universe are so useless one...look at all those low profile people, their happiness are genuine compare to those rich people who limit their happiness... i agree that Money matters so much with our everyday dwelling but...because of that pathetic thoughts of us people we dont enjoy the real happiness life has to offer us because we think and do too much... as i believe , too much water will spill out, once it does it will shake the basin and sometimes it makes it weak then collapse...worst is to be destroyed... for me the word love is just a word, just like when you repeat it more often it will sounds like LOVELOVELOVELOVEVLAVLAVLAVLABLAHBLAH see? hehe its not a hypothesis , its somehow a fact  to me... i dont want to be a spoiler because as a person i also love someone... but if you are really one of my reader throughout my life, you would have already known that when it comes to love... i had this rare impression and understanding when it comes to this one of a kind feeling... and i will say it again...
For me LOVE has more deeper meaning than loving someone... its the feeling that someone feels for the people they care about, it doesnt mean, you like someone to be your partner when you say you love the person... it has to be more then love... that is what im trying to seek to someone, when it comes to love... love sometimes is the reason why others hurt, they say, you wont understand the hurt if you wont experience it, but for me its different, why need to be hurt when you deserve to be happy? i just dont get the logic about what other people think about this stuff but i dont mind it at all... its not my cup of tea... there are only few people whom i love the most... : my parents...brother...cousins... best friend...my dog...food and music...specially God who never get tired listening to my life blues... we all have our flaws in life... i've said it back then so iwont elaborate things more deeper... ^^

if i got to live a 100 years as i have said, i will spend it to be more happy than being lonely(who wants to be lonely anyway ^^)... then love each day to live... eat more... laugh more... and  be more approachable than before...

i may sound awkward now because of the things i have said earlier but its real... i cant even think of anything that comes from my heart to write here... this may be the ending of my CREEPY part post...^^ im excited for Halloween...excited cause i know i can sleep whole day... knowing me hehe ^^ im such a sleepy head... sounds creepy but thats me sweetie ^^ 

just love to live life healthy and happy...Godbless creepiness...

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

CREEPY - PART II

Im so drained... i only have 6 hours of sleep more or less...i got home around 3 am..
my goodness, im so lethargic... how i wanted not to appear in the office, i wanted to sleep more...
but today is reporting day, there are lots of things need to be done and should not be delayed also.  When we are on our way home, the streets are all so empty, if there's a car it can be count...and im afraid something might happen.. but i trust the people around with me... im blessed to work with this people, learn from them, and boost my confidence...in the past i haven't seen myself to be really lingering in this industry... im a Computer enthusiast , funny thing is i ended up working in Tourism industry... i enjoy this kind of pursuit, but sometimes it takes all your energy , you need to sustain more from yourself so in times work needed you to exert more you still have the balls to do it... before i always make mistake but actually i twice did that mistake, after that i managed not to do that again... i set a high standard in my work, im so workaholic...work is work for me... just like when i was still studying... study is study...friends is friends... both different in my life... the first thing is my love and life while the second gives the spice...

I get this working attitude and habit from my college life... we are pushed to the limit and so stress, we need to meet the deadline or else the line for us will be dead...its all or nothing every time we defend thesis, make reports book & chapter ...
it will drive me crazy... when i was still a freshmen, i was freaking out, i always sleep late, then wake up so early, the result , when i got to the room all of my hair is blown up... how creepy was that...? thanks to my friends and proofs they love me...^^ oh yeah, got that right, im friendly back then but devilish to others specially bullies who bully the weak...but during our time, there's no bully's in our batch... i had the great batch ever in my life... all awesome and true circle of friends...
I can recall my life before...house-school-house, my parents are so strict, that i cant go out anywhere after school...

So that serve as the reason why i  am so uptight with my self...and to how i dedicate myself to what im into...

im so tired today, im playing with my favorite game, it drives all the stress away... plus i am not busy work right now, I've had my coffee... and thank no work load in the table so i can recover some of my energy taken from me last night report...^^

hmmm i can smell something really soo spooky... almost Halloween im super excited...its a trick or treat everyone...

everything seems to remind me of this... 

"I WONT GO HOME WITHOUT YOU..."

#there is still part III because i cant think of anything right now due to tiredness...im freaking out

creepy part - 1

If i was into something,i dedicate all my time with it...i was kinda torn between my passion and opportunity , while deprive from love and was opened by happiness...
such a pathetic line... but so true right now... im still a dreamer...
some of my goals are still popping up and ramping in my mind...still, i will wait and strive hard just to see the other side of the world...maybe im so ambitious , but that dream gives me the strength to work harder so i can do that someday, for now, i cant... i really dont know what to write right now...^^ how creepy...i run out of words to say, well i was struck by boredom...
I used to see my friends before, but now i can only communicate with them through networking sites...i badly wanted us to have a reunion but cant make it, *sigh* they are all busy, so as me...

i was thinking how life will be in the future?... i just dont know i have this bad feeling... 
its almost the end of the month... it feels like the  year is fast passing us by. i cant even sleep for an hour counting the sheep that are profound, when i wake up it feels like i just sleep for a minute... days - weeks - months...they all so fast fading... but still happy, cause i know i spend it well... im happy, i can show more from myself now, not like before... i always hold back, always reluctant to all i do because i wanted to gain who i am right now, now my parents given me my freedom to express how i feel...do what i want...but still i was used to their strict habits, so im prim now than before, i was like, "hey!i love who you raise me, no need to change a thing" 

oh i happen to remember the topic... i want to share my favorite artist here since i already reveal my passion... let's start with music...i will show some list:

  • RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS
  • BON JOVI
  • SCORPIONS
  • AIR SUPPLY
  • LIFE HOUSE
  • SIMPLE PLAN
  • MAROON 5
  • SECONDHAND SERENADE
  • PARAMORE
  • HEY MONDAY
  • MATCHBOX 20
  • LINKIN PARK
  • THE SCRIPT
  • LIL WAYNE
  • LINKA
  • FM STATIC
  • FABER DRIVE
  • GREY HOUNDZ
  • SLAP SHOCK
  • WOLFGANG
  • MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
  • INCUBUS
  • CREED
  • RUNNER RUNNER
  • JAMES BLUNT
  • MIKE POSNER
  • GREEN DAY
the rest i will tell you next time...haha im empty minded with all the band names...how sad huh?...^^

so i guess we still have part two...

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

rush of the moment

When i say pizza, it means i am dying inside to eat my favorite pure beef pizza overload, specially the mushrooms...oh my!it makes me drool a little bit... hmmm, i love cappuccino , its sort of my favorite drinks aside from soda, i just dont know why, well i was telling myself before that i will stop drinking soda, but i cant resist Coke & Pepsi when i saw them on the table sweating a lot just to open its cork hahahah its such a sinful habit that is really hard to break... but given that i dont resist the tempt given to me, this is because this year is gonna be my sinful year, i promise already that my next assignment is to be a vegetarian and complete my healthy lifestyle next year, so im giving all myself the chance to taste all the most delish sinful food that i love... because next year i will be a total risk to take, i make a bet to myself if i can do it, i will give my self anew phone because i dont give a damn having one even if i have i dont typically bring it outside the house, im just not into texting...calling neither... then if i dont make it i will scold myself and go to gym...

As i was so busy since this past 3 weeks already , the reason for this is im doing a book report... you got that right... oh man, i cant believe im doing this for a close friend... it gives me a headache... but im done already, despite of hectic schedule at work, busy with all the paper works in the office... i just get it done sweetie... the prize is a soda and a pizza... sadly, its not the pure beef over loaded... still thanks to my Chinese friend who's very vain with everything... he totally mesmerize me when i see him, his so scented and balmy every time we meet... his more than vain than me...his a pedant but his very nice, and gentleman...  we both a like about food... we love to eat, specially pizza and shawarma... have you notice i love beef? ... lulz ^^ here is the pizza check it out.

i feel guilty about what i did this morning so, im scolding myself right now for the attitude... i think i let my mama's feelings hurt, she took it the wrong way... i didnt meant to hurt and deliver the line as bad as she thinks... but i know she'll understand... im evil again... *sigh* huhu i will buy her fudge so she wont feel biiter of me when i got home tonight... my family had this close ties that others dont have, we are living simple, but happy, full of thoughts... my pap dont want me to be stubborn, mistake is a no no for him, maybe thats the reason why i have this prerogative  of mine in life... how they raise me is a precious gem they have ever given to me... im proud if they are with me, i love being around with them, some grown ups right nowadays, dont want to go with their parents because they say they are already grown enough, but it is contrast with me... 
i love to stroll with my parents, im such a homie... i love to go out with them, i love to spend more time with them ever than before...i love my parents...that i will give up everything just to make them happy... 
some may dont understand this but in life we decide and see life in different aspects, directions, decisions, weigh and meaning...
it just so happen that ...i have my own prerogative and i stand by what i believe i know i love doing regardless with people who cant understand that simply... ^^ 
still thanks to God, he never fail to remind me right from wrong...i admit i was wrong this morning...
i need to recover the loss and hurt i gave to my dear mama...

im not he kind of a person who shout, if i get pissed off by someone i simply dont talk and if im really gotten to my limit and exhausted...i will directly tell what i feel, that somehow make it worst because when i say something its really hard to the max... im cool but when i heated up, words can tore someone apart... thats the devilish side of me... but i can control my temper now... dont get me wrong, i dont say bad words i just simply talk nicely but will gotten worse the situation i think so... hehe 



Monday, October 17, 2011

A COVENANT TO GOD

Supposed, that i'll be looking back the ME a year ago up to at this very moment... I can say i just didnt advance a notch... actually, theres no trace of relevance, why? well, it may sound creep to other people, but for sure to people who read my blog, they somehow know a little bit from me...

Before,as u know, i was a stone pillar, there are things that i know i made the wrong decision with, and im happy i over come that fear... i can show a creepy smile because of that certain part of my life thats been a Total MESS for me...then after the year 2010 ended, at the first day of this year just dont know exactly the date already but after new year as i can recall i cane up to a realization that im messing too much with my life, i lied for too long to my family and to myself, so i decided to bring back who i used to be, i step out to the four corners of my room, and choose to live a healthy life and a happy life again, i admit i used to live a life full of lies just to cover up for somebody who i thought worth it all, i was too naive that time but then as people learn their lessons it will be easy to move on and accept that I AM WRONG and I FAILED in an area of my life... I once forget my covenant to God... 
I can still remember how i struggle in that stage... confused are everywhere... i choose to live life full of conformity due to my selfishness. I had a poor understanding of a family, i was once carried away by temptation of being free... i didn't wait... thanks to my parents, they raise me well... i grow and learn as a woman who i am today... i accept i was wrong before, they are wrong also but so am i... but it serve a lesson to me... 
I was not a woman who really chase love life... frankly, it doesn't move a bit of my nerve... my friends, cousins and close friends, they have their love life... but i dont feel the same way of longing like them, i dont remember falling in love before, but i remember admiring someone, my cousins used to tell me YOU'RE REALLY WEIRD! WHY CANT YOU FIND A BOYFRIEND? ! LOOK AT US! its all the same with my friends, they used to tell me the same line also over and over... i just laugh, cause i know whenever they strive to be someone else they can never be just like me... im proud of myself... that will be one of the few things i can brag about myself, my strong affirmation about my prerogative in life. having a relationship and being single is no big deal to me... i just dont know why, i only love one person and thats until now, even if its impossible but at most were happy , we both are! ^^ its not because im envious or anything about people who are over heals drop down because of their love for someone, they for me are so pathetic... given that im too much because of what i say, but i know what im saying... trust me haha ^^ parents are always good, and maturity is a thing... no need to rush and pressure self to get into relationship... i only love one person... and that will be the man God will give me... ^^ i found that already, but only God can tell, cause right now its not for real... there are a lot of things to work out...

i can put his face all over just to know and feel his closer than the flip side of the world, rather...^^

thank God im happy with the people i love... and i have a simple life... 
maybe is just a word... TO BE CONTINUED... ^^ 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

time zone gives me jetlag


"when i sing, it tells my whole feelings... when i open my pad then sing my heart out...maybe at some aspects im weak...but singing is my talents, its asset... i love music more than anything else, its my passion... and when i spend my spare time singing, its also my bond moments with my papa and my brother, we all love Rock... pop rock, punk rock, metal rock, classic rock, classic ballad... love songs but classy... i super love music...it simply describes how i feel when i sang something... its my comforter... "

when i hear this song...i remember Prince, his far away... one of the line goes like this :
"TRYIN' TO FIGURE OUT THE TIME ZONES  MAKIN' ME CRAZY"

Friday, October 14, 2011

God is always good...

God has been good to me, always listen to all the pain i shared with Him... he never thought selfishness...
at times when i was still learning and struggling and still catching up to life's speed-bumps. he was the only one who never question my worth... His the one who actually look after me, and always there to remind me, to just get up...move on...go on...dont hesitate... do what you ought to do... your one of my herd... your not alone... 

When i was still a student, i've said countless times that i cant do this anymore...cant go on... but still He gave me strength to fight forward, backing off is not a choice...
Its kind'a funny sometimes, because if i looked back, i know i've never been a good daughter, yah, im not bad but i know all what i've sacrifice for is still not enough to pay back for my parents... i cant still look into my fathers eye's, because once in my life, i've raised my voice unto him, that was when i was on the stage of being confused about how should i accept my adulthood, but after what happen, i appreciate more my father...i learn to think first before i speak,,, because what you have said already cant be erased... but the action to be acted can be control... thanks to my work, i got my coolness, before im really a brat... if i got angry i easily loose everything... i can loose my coolness in a snap... but now, i know how to handle myself more... im now patching the spaces i've made from my family, because before i used to be a loner i get myself contain in my room , i was a different person outside the house... i used o be emotional when alone, but strong if when with friends, so that may be the reason why they got me wrong sometimes because somehow i understand now that my true self cant be locked in a 4 sided wall of my room... i failed on showing the best of me... but all of that was a lesson to learn for me... im so lucky to have my family... as much as possible i wont go far away from them...and i know and appreciate my self...my achievements.. more... i've gain the confidence that was once i'd lost somehow in the space... and again...im so happy looking at to the people i know important to me... 

my family is my diploma... a piece of paper is just a paper... but the knowledge i have learn in school cant be stolen from me...its one piece thats been rooted far deep down in my being... im very happy i learn something in this world... if someday i might look back nowadays i can recall already what will be my reaction...hahah surely i will show that wide smile because i know what creepy stuffs I've done hahaha  im so happy at this point in my life, because my friends are happy with their achievements , their love life's...and hey! im the only one who have no love live...because my Prince is on another time zone of the world, too far...how sad hah ^^ kidding! either way... im happy ...thats the most important part... just live life the way it should be live...dont pretend to be someone else... live healthy specially... ^^

P R I N C E

ANOTHER DUCK FACE

so love of my life? 
... GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD... 

TRUST HIM AND LEARN TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR LIFE AS HE HAS ENTRUSTED US TO BE...AND ITS A ONCE IN A LIFE EXPERIENCE LIVING THIS LIFE... 
LIVE LIFE WISELY & GODLY... ^^

A TRIBUTE TO THE SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE

when i was all alone feeling all my blues in life this person reminds me i was worth something...
he achieve what i want in life, i dont want fame, but what i love about his personality is that he stand by what he thinks right and its inflexible...what he says , he will stand it...his workaholic...
i just dont love this person but i also admire his attitude towards life...his unreachable...but despite all of that achievements he still manage to make people smile...he really is something to me...
i was dreaming about that day looking at the Eiffel tower with this man...its impossible now...but his my hero...my heart belongs to God...my family...my music and craft...and to people like my bestfriends...and to someone like this man... his cool for me, you cant hear him brag about something...i love him cooking his favorite food...making the coffee he wants...drinking soda but not too much...his vain... 
i edit his pictures way back...this is all i had from him...thanks man! your all the way awesome...its been a very long time since i saw you...thanks for all the achievements... this is a tribute i miss seeing you...

P R I N C E
duck face
one of the funniest i ever saw in your face

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

the way i live my lfie

i can say im a woman who love to travel...enjoy music (it is one thing that cant be pulled out of myself) , loves movies (foreign movies ) , love sports, enjoy arts, pastime is singing when bored, a homey woman and would go out if i want to stroll on malls looking for food, depressed on shoes, super love eating...love to watch NBA...yeah...thats the me...and the closest person of mine tells me that im more than that...hah i know somehow, because i can also detect some of that to myself...im so fickle minded,  and theres more stuffs than that.. i dont want to elaborate more...^^ forgiven...

my sweetie is my blog...i can find peace here , everything is real, no fake people liking your work, its just all appreciation with genuine feeling of related feelings of thoughts... 

well, kind'a sound weird but i love this phase of networking, this is my timeline , at first i thought no one reads my blog, then olah, there is! people i dont think this stuffs i love is just a waste of time but gotten me wrong , indeed!...credits to them...

i somehow wrote here the things i feel, the secrets i cant tell anyone that are physically approachable, but then still choose to let it go here and let other people read this...because i was also a blog reader, i know how was it to feel to read a blog that you can realate to and thanks to these people who never appreciates   what i love doing...somehow on the other side of my world i manage to express what i love doing and what i know i can share with... 

i love food thats why i put every thing here, for someday when i look back again, i could still see    the traces of now from then on...hmmm how was that sound so creepy to me...^^ 
i miss my friends, i miss my self being with my real friends... i miss everything... 
but i manage to cope with that through food that are super delish...next year my goal is to be a vegetarian so i will eat everything with meat these days...oh my... i really want to live healthy...

u know what...i cant imagine myself being with someone else, because i want to enjoy everything and in my mind i know i still have my responsibility, well, my family doesn't demanding anything from me, but i know already there is no need of confirmation i should do my part, im not satisfied yet with what i have given up for them, if i can offer my life to them i will do that without hesitation because that is not enough for the life they have given me, that is how i see life...i feel so relieve writing this things up, i think also i never found the one whom i can say I WILL NEVER LET THIS PERSON GO for the rest of my life, maybe because i havent finish what God has summoned me here and i havent finish yet the work i should do...

i love this...
vegan sandwich / whole wheat bread yummy!
try eating healthy foods so you will feel happy...haha ^^ how was that? so creepy eh?!...

see the world on its horizon

For this past few days i've been so busy...with the work and with all those events i've been into...
so tired, but at last! i got a 1 whole day to have my ME TIME and a day to spend with my self and my family... and i decided to post some of the events to catch up with my sweetie...

GOD  IS  SO  GOOD !
we attended a wedding, and on the same day it's my uncles birthday...so after the wedding celebration, we go to our uncles house, we sang they drunk...we had so much fun...i will upload the pictures on the next post...^^

when everything is so stressful and when you get into that edge where you know your over using your mind, body just to work hard ... its very tiring, plus the thoughts of all the stuffs you should not forgotten and should always bear in our mind, wooah! its very stressful, i just want to scream...I WANT TO BREATH! 
but its okay, this is the nature of my chosen field and the hype of my work...nevertheless im enjoying every bit of it...
i work so simple, still grounded not to mention all those stuffs because i know i still lidont have the quality i really wanted ... i let God managed my life to the right way and i will be one who directs behind what he wanted me to portray... i may sound so annoying when it comes to my self beliefs but thats how i believe i should run my life...i dont want to conform my own taste and i dont want to regret not doing the things God has created for us to experience and see...

maybe to tour around the world and to be in Italy or to Paris is my greatest dream...it may sound so impossible but who knows whats ahead of us today...
those places are really closed in my heart...i want to sit there facing the Eiffel tower that will be the most awesome adrenaline rush i would be feeling if that will God will give me...i hope before i die i could do those things...and see how wonderful the world is and how amazing to see God has created for us...

i know my worth so i am not asking why things go wrong sometimes anymore, im more open to what He wanted me to see... i hope that with all those catastrophe that our country suffers , no more lives will be taken and that people can go back to a new life they should be doing and living...God has his purpose and it should not be questioned drastically...lets look back how we, people, abused what He has given us for free just in return to take good care of it , but instead ruined it purposely... because we people are pathologically pathetic, we can never be  satisfied, we always crave for more and even TOO MUCH...well thats how people live life on the way they think they are used to be...if they just know how to be humble sometimes...

 CHERIE ANN LINES

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

let bygones be bygones

keeping your simplicity despite of all what it is in front of you and keeps grounded at time you should is both such Awesome & damn Hard...why?
Awesome because its definitely reflects that you deserve all the things God has given you cause you never ask for more, dont ask for what is not given, contented, happy, most of all grounded...and its darn pretty much good to keep a character like that...cause not all can live life like that...
Hard because its a character an individual should require for himself and should not take away from the heart...and that some struggles to have ...because not all of us can manage to control our super bad inside but its the way we deliver and divulge it and on how we loose our coolness of simplicity to our superhuman egocentric attitude...super-proud stomach people... 

One thing i discover from my goal and aim at this year i was drag into the conclusion of..."IM SO SIMPLE YET CONFUSING" and hah ^^ its darn correct...of all the thoughts thats been roaming around my head for the past months starting this year, about this about that...complain about this and contradict on my own self decisions, almost gone trough the edge of all of that...face the conformity of my own taste...but then enlighten when i remember why i choose to live like i used to be today...and realize i just forget the things that made me happy and just feeling my blues so i have these kind of weird tantrums and sees them sore me to much...but then i realize all the things then another question comes up in my very pickle mind...WHY IM I LIKE THIS? then as the year almost comes to its finale to its halt...i was like hey!i was bump in my own ego and shadow...so im simple that is why im happy doing all the things i knew i love...ad thanks to God he never fails to remind me the things that is so important for a human soul...some may not understood me,but they dont matter because were the on's who manage our lives...we are the captain of our own ship...if it sinks then lets get the blame...if its successful say thank you to the people who never fails you also, because at the end of the day...we were the one's who will say Stop! its over...or Stop! thank you...& Stop! its too much...

L O V E ...maybe the hardest thing and the most indescribable feeling and the most fussy and delicate of all the human body to impose and understand...i've said this before im different when it comes to love because for me it possess a wide range of meaning and truth of feeling...
I really dont want seeing people very dumb when it comes to love, you cant say im too much of a rock...but lets talk and face reality because i also been into a relationship before...its not the reason of being single after that so they would say i dont understand what they are feeling sad about...they ask pathetic question on and on and on over and over again...its unending process of regrets... unsatisfaction... grievance... loneliness... morbid... sombre... mournful... rejected... and all that horrible stuff they think they are feeling...
thats all so lame for me...why choose to stick on sadness? theres more to life...yeah! lets put it this way the person is you think is all the world that means to you...the person is the reason why you are happy in the past...
they suddenly forgot that they meet the person just when they are about to feel the L O V E they say...they were the one's they say the reason why the word L O  V E have meaning to them...the truth is they forgot that they only meet the person when they are old the person who they JUST meet in school, office, place or whatever means of knowing a person today...they forgot that before that they are alone walking on the road of life...and in a glimpse of happiness with that person shattered they also feel they should stay on that room setting alone feeling so tormented apart and cant able to move on... their is one guy that i like the most but see what i mean by when i say i like the most? it doesn't mean there is something L O V E  struck in my head but the thought that before i was reading his blog and appreciate how he sees life ... i see myself in him... but again im wrong...i suddenly forgot one of my lessons God has given us...and that is - that i am not thinking twice before i say stupid praising to someone we
ll, thats my really bad habit hah ^^ thinking people are as good as my mother haha ans it serves me good to know that his not that strong as i see him, he dont see the world as i see it, how weird i am ^^ think so?

people sometime feel intimidated by me, and that makes me pissed off to them...why feel like that? i know i dont brag anything and to think im so simple if im in our house...all i do is   eat...watch movie...listen to music...go to church...spend time with my family...and i notice that the happiness it give me is very genuine as a true...it doesn't fade away its very remarkable that a relationship could give you...and the funny thing i believe about having committed to someone is that staying happy outside a relationship are so distressful...  
where as in a relationship you should not commit mistake or else everything will fall apart and i saw and foresee that before, im not afraid on falling in love, i just want to live my life the way i want to see the world as how lucky i am to see it...enjoy life and not to regret not doing everything i dream and i think i can...most of all i believe in my own understnadig that LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS TO WASTE and spending it to the wrong person, and still clinging to the past i just hope a friend could be enlighten...

well, i wanna have a toast for all the good and the bad happen in the past 9 months of year 2011 its awesome and full of adventurous ride to a woman like me...im enjoying my life...and i always got the dose of food i wanted...and i wanna share this here, for someday i will look at my life timeline i could scan the good and the bad experiences a person could go through and reminisce the feeling...well, its there still long ways to go through  before everything happens hah ^^ so im'about to say LETS CROSS THE BRIDGE WHEN I GET THERE...i dont wanna say the line I WILL BUILD A BRIDGE TO GET THERE...i dont want the second one because there is no need to hurry on knowing what should be done...it will be so boring if we force everything just do your thing and do it on the right way without hurting anyboody so the happiness you would feel is not fake and endless...

LEMONADE
this really taste good...very refreshing

SPINACH & MUSHROOM CROQUETTES 
YUMMY all of this...this is treat by my manager..she brought this yummy delish dish in the office this morning...you guys must try this very super delish...

^^ CHERIE ANN LINES