SAY WHAT? ^^

this has been my escape from the flip side of the earth...well,there's nothing really interesting with my life so far this week...not to mention for the first time im in love...and was tormented apart...hahaha ^^ how cool was that eh?...thats me, iv'e never liked the idea of feeling alone, if your sad why think of the problem? it wont solve anything...so last night i told my secret to my coolest cousin Emy Mendez, she's not just my grown up cousin but she's almost my little sister... then she said "WHAT? ARE YOU SOME KIND OF A CRAZY WOMAN? I KNOW YOUR NOT LIKE THAT, YOUR TOUGH!" then i give him a spank on her head! then i just laugh...well, maybe that makes me realize like i was imagining myself from last night...that to the extinct of my excitement about my secret that most of the time i was telling her i was teary eyed...^^ lelz! sooo pathetic of me...

its Holiday today totally in the whole Philippines, but for some reasons there are also some fields needs to get going...like ours...im at the office right now, very bored...wanted to talk someone...like HELLO?... its been a year and still i dont have someone to talk to...im almost feeling my blues right now...maybe because of that feeling..Bloody Hell! how i wish i can teat this to pieces so i will feel numb 'bout it...^^ for heavens sake... i decided to forget about it yesterday...still i dont know how to write and put the words so that i can finish my post today... i just go with the flow, i will write the stuffs that will eventually comes out from my mind as i was writing this one...^^ how lame...

REPELANTS FOR THE HEARTACHE

When boredom strikes...all i can do is NOTHING...aside from enabling my brain to stuffs im planing about such goal...well, i can say im a goalie...and i have one month to go and i have to run everything for this last goal for this year ender...i need to purchase my new glasses...cause i badly need it already...well, i also plan on hanging out with girl pals before the year ends...and if they wont...well i think i will have a solo flight...^^

it will also be fine with me, so i can have my me time again...im sad right now...^^ 

i can diversely get my mood change as fast like a canon ball ya know...yesterday im happy now im sad...hmmm why? well, i just bump my head with the word REALITY... oh yeah you read that right...

this is really what i fear about liking someone...it will just cause our self pain...maybe not all but to people like me, well i guess im really hard to settle with...

before im rough and tough when i talk about love...now im so mum about this...then i divulge it here with the compliment of knowing everything...but i guess not really it is...im such a looser ^^ haha i cant do anything about it anyways...i love a person whom i know looking for her girl counterpart...but its not even a close book to me,like...i know it right?....but it hurts sometimes knowing i dont fit to this person...well, i told ya a while ago that today is the last day im gonna talk about this person...i feel devastated...this damn feeling is all crap..and its freakin awful... give me a toast gor this...^^ lelz! as if i dont know i will end like this...but i dont understand why i ended up like this like a helpless child...looking for sympathy..haha how lame of myself...so freakin embarrassing... well, anyways... i feel better now than this afternoon...chocolate helps me settle down my unpredictable emotions...thanks to my tita... then we saw this creep cupa...it really scares me...far cry from the topic eh...O_o