Friday, September 30, 2011

right swag of my taste


Exactly 84 days left before Christmas strikes the day...im super darn excited sweetie...

so since the time zone states today in Philippines is already OCT. !'2011...its the first day of the month...im thinking a lot of activities and goals to achieve this month...last September i've been surfing alot movies and musics that i love most to do...and i decided to share all the movies i've been busy for the past month some of the movies was old but really i watched some of those almost 3 times cause i really love those...atmost...i've fulfilles my goal for almost a year that i will stay happy and grounded as i am, to be humble enough...yeah thats true, maybe i dont live on a perfect life but all those things events people and opportunities came by to drag me to where i am right now is a whole lot of fun sweetie...^^  all the food...also taste great and worth the cost...SATISFIED! and all the time i spent going to church with my family also a blessing... to all the hurts that caused me to somehow forgot my coolness also cool enough to start a new...well, year also fast forwarding that there are 91 days and 17 hours left before we say bye to 2011...All was Worth It!

when i was winding up a week ago to sort things out that has blown out of proportion as i think of it i came up to a fact that all i've think and all i've decided for myself are not harming anybody around me, and also if it does sound a lil'bit offensive to be straight forward well, its not my fault anymore because i've never harm any body in the cycle...and thats what im proud of my self, i got to deal on keeping every decisions i've made the way it should be and the way i wanted and not ruining it...maybe im too stiff on myself, but for me thats how i set my mind and thats how i live my life to be happy...there are times i feel alone because of the fact that im single but thats not an issue...its never been anyway...

hmmm...i think my goal for this october is to post my picture here in my blog and to cut my hair...yepey! i've been looking forward to that day ever! gosh... hah ^^

today is saturday and i got this super delish! foods from Majestic Robinson's Cebu Talisay  wanna share my fav. cravings of the day...remember... "dont droll hah ^^"

chicken soup / thumbs up!
this is first put in a container and if you want to order this soup they will put it in a bowl then heat up then oooozzzing with soo much taste of heaven hah ^^ kidding !

perfect noodles for the soup
this is also part of their recipe, if you want to...you can put this one on your soup then Olah! a yummy chicken noodle soup sweetie...^^

potatoes and the green vegies!
if you are like me who love to eat vegies well this is perfect for your cravings...potatoes and those sinful onions oh my! i dont want to spit out every single i have on all of this food...awesomeness! 

chelsea Greek salad...
oh yeah! you are not mistaken...this is also another form of veggie salad that i love aside from those leafy green salad seasoned with the violet one...this one taste good that much than the other one...

and the maccarons spag
swag is just right for this spag! yah! hah ^^ this is more bloody than the other food we order...i choose this one...than the expensive one haha im too skinflint you know i dont have that enough money still dont have my salary for the month...

if you are wondering why all that food i order are vegies well...im a scrooge and i dont have enough money hahahha well thats the hurtful truth man...im looking forward to an awesome weekend and for a wonderful October... muaaaah give me some love...love...love...love...

Thursday, September 29, 2011

give my soul a break ^^

Woaaah! at last im back blogging again...im buzzing around again fella! well, i sort kinda busy with some stuffs this past dew days... i was watching this movie and i finish watching the series just this afternoon, since i got a time in the office to chill for a movie sneak peak ..hah ^^ cool it is! i got a free time cause im not that busy, im almost with all the work for a week last wed. so i did use my time to watch the movie... sorry but i cant say what is the title, you know "movies" is one of my treasures and truth to that is i haven't come up with a good idea on how i elaborate on the movies im working on that made me a lazy bum to visit and blog for something... hah ^^ 

i had all the fun with my parents and my brother when i spent the ME TIME for almost a year...yeah, its been a while since i've seen my friends because i dedicate my time after work for my family and to myself...i dont want to miss any single event my family is going through whether its too simple or complicated...

I scolded my self and bump my own head with my palm while bending at my table after i wrote something about complaining everything...
I know and i realize im just getting too emotional and too carried away by my blues in life...I didnt realize all the things i complain before was the reason why im so much full of happiness...so i give my self a break and 
rewind everything...then at some point again in my life i did forgot all of this just because im having tantrums...how sad isn't it? hah ^^ just give yourself and soul a break for a while so you can appreciate all whats happening and whats going on with our life...dont full yourself too much or else it will spill out...

i got to taste this one since this was from Mc...and it taste good...love it...i miss eating my favorite chocolate so i got some Chocolate drink woaaah! i could still taste it in my throat...yummmy all the way 
Enjoy! 


Friday, September 23, 2011

movie and music in my life...part II - the halt of the story

being perfect is so damn difficult to depict...why? because there are a lot of things to consider...
the way we execute decisions, talk, way we think, walk, way we approach people
things should remember well so i wont get embarrass and how we move so we wont get a fatal mistake...
theres no such thing or a person that are so perfect but at their most → ALMOST...i seldom use the word at least in a sentence because for me it means we dont give our best cause we just contented in "at least" but why do that? we can do "almost" and we can accomplish things we carry out in the good and right way we think...its all the matter of decision making and throwing all the selfishness in our selves... we cant be perfect but we can perform , give and do our best to be almost perfect... ^^

at times when i feel so drained with my work, to people, and to some certain stuffs that makes me pissed off, i listen to music or eat or sleep...
now as i looked back all the things i've decide to take, stuffs ive decided to let go, people i prefer not to get involved with and people whom always there with me throughout the obstacles and to certain opportunities that i've given up for the sake of some personal reasons that made me give it up and let go and the opportunities that i've took and grasp that made me the person i am today...i am so grateful and i feel awesome to all journey that i've been...it makes me more maturehumil now, happy, contented, an a person whom i love... i also think in getting into a relationship but not until i found the person whom who can define everything about me...& if that person God will give me...there are lots of responsibilities i know...but maybe at that time im more capable on handling a life with someone to consider 
one of the most sinful and most disgraceful, humiliating, and most shameful bad habit of  a person that i really dont like is being a ...→ LIAR... that will be so pathetic to me...i really dont love people that are liars oh my...just be true to yourselves and you'll feel happy...this is very important to me because LIES means ...Lying equal to Cheating...they both partners in a situation where humans forget their class, brain, self respect and worth...and that is why i somehow stay away from relationship, cause i've seen lot of people throw away lies just to please everybody in the crowd...for me that is very lame...^^ haha 

its hard to get into a relationship, for a person like me...the thing that i havent been in a relationship feared me...i dont want to get hurt and i dont want to hurt anyone...
most of all i dont want a person that will be a hitch, hindrance to what i want... i want a person that will totally knows and accept the real me...i love a man that can define the things i have said in the past...and a person that are God fearing...and a jolly person, and the most important of all...a one woman man...i know this man is very rare nowadays and very hard to find...but i trust God he wont fail me on the person that he would give me someday...well the story has come to its halt...i wont tackle on this anymore...God teaches me a very important lesson..."when you said your happy live that..life is precious to waste"

my life music as this moment is from one of my idols...i have all her songs in my pad...THE CLIMB...and the movie for my life now as of this moment is...haha i love this movie...RAISE YOUR VOICE...very inspiring... 
 here it is sweetie...:

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"



Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking



But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high



There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose



Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

and you can also see the trailer of the movie just see the link above

reveal some stuffs i love...dig in!

I am Cherie Ann, a woman who choose and decide to enjoy life and nature, see the world in its different dimensions, being able to be adventurous, healthy, happy, fulfilled, chase dream and gasp it, understand my existence, serve and love God, most specially living life the way i wanted to be...

those decisions i made brought me to where i am right now...regrets? NO...probably just a little lament on some things i haven't done that i should. and from that on i choose to live my life on the path i wanted for a long time, its an unending road of changes but God reminds me to always keep grounded, and thats one thing people forgot about themselves. and to be more mature on things to reckon and to be executed, i understand that as we grow old, responsibleness should the one we carry and corresponds to all the decisions we made in our every day living. 

i got to complain on how i was pressured my life..it makes me laugh because that was way before...i feel sad, i really confine myself to my room, thinking awful things that had happened and that will happen its out of the world realization, then i got to get out on that box, cause one day as i ask Him, he answered my question...Him, who never leave me in times i was in my stage of confusion, everyone i think goes unto that stage in their life but i was so blessed that He never failed to remind me the things i should bear in mind
...thats the time i started living healthy, i listen to good music, i reflect the happiness that im feeling towards others so i started to reach out with my family, cherish the time they are with me and i am with them. 

LIFE IS SO PRECIOUS TO WASTE...

i've said before that i've lived my life HAPPY today...its true, but we all have shadows and skeletons in our closest...i have my fears...but its nice to have a strong and optimistic personality sometimes, because it boost your confidence plus the people so-rounds you are so kind and good enough to be taken for granted.
before im so tough towards others, its really hard to softens my heart, and im so aloof...but i managed to overcome everything, i found Him when i needed Him the most and at the hours i have nothing except Him...GOD is sooo good...

-im just a girl from the shadow of candidness and aloofness now grown up to be a much more tough but soft handed, mature enough to decide stuffs, and more open in my self so i will control my confusing side haha just kidding well im just sharing things you might ask me in the future...im sure no one reads my blog anyways...^^

i just love blogging...its my pacifier when im not in my mood...and also not to forget the food i love to eat when i feel bored and just being weird... mac'n cheese is the best spag...whhhaaat???! hehe 

who love to eat burger? haha dont drool im eating my burger  right now with my coffee , so sad i cant take a picture at my coffee the camera is taken already hahah next time i will post the shawarma......yummy
burger and chips from Mc...yummy!super love it...
this is what im talking about dude,just live life in the healthy way...^^ i want to spend my me time again...eating and strolling alone...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

my life movie and its music - part I

i love movies & music the most...almost all my time if i have my day off from work all of my spare time goes to watching movies...and the movies i love the most is HOLLYWOOD movies, and Taiwanese movies...i just dont know how did i end up loving Taiwanese film,for me there is one specific and certain spice in Taiwan movies...even there t.v series i also watch them when i have a break in the office i just cant take that into my circulation. 
there are lots of movies i've seen and they are all amazing! these past few days i havent wrote anything because im still finishing the movie...
when it comes to movies and music , its like my baby...no one can ever pull that off out of me...both are connected in my world. all my dvd's and tapes i dont want them to be borrowed, hah that is how im so obsessed in music and movies...thats simply me, but behind all that simplicity is the thought that whenever i did wrong, feel aloof , scared , mad, angry and feels no one to turn to and feels the world turn their back at me i just simply put my earphones...play the music and boom! i feel fine and at ease...thats the difference between friends and your passion...friends leaves you and sometimes at the most important time of your life, but your passion never ever can be pulled out of you. maybe not all people understand what im talking about...but in 21 years of living in this world, gone through all those struggles in life as growing up, i've seen and deal and meet lots of different personality and the different faces of a person.
some goes and you cant say some stay...because practically speaking they all come and goes just like our owed life...it can be live once so why chase those people who come and just goes? whats the deal? well, for some they have an answer to that but to me i still dont believe in in such philosophy about people stays by your side for the rest of our lives. not all people understand music really well, if they can sing, they think they are good enough and they are musicians, but they dont know what really music means to real born musicians...all can sing and dance but not all have the passion and heart on understanding and loving that gift...see what i mean? ^^ im too into something that no one understand me, im just too concern to the people around me to not let them get hurt and put them first...before anything else...
then suddenly i get tired on that feeling, im not selfish anyway...am i? i do whatever they want me to do, go to school, listen to what they say, never embarrass them, be a good daughter, finish my studies and be a woman with self dignity, and i can say im one of a kind because of them, but i grew tired already, i lost my will to still pursue that day...because all i want is to enjoy my spare time and enjoy what i love, why cant they let me free for a while...its just im too pressure on things...its true that sometimes i feel useless, yah i have a job but i cant still go to place i want to, im too old to mingle...still im left alone...no one dares to court me or to be friend me because they are intimidated by what i become now, why cant i have real friend that wont ask pathetic things in life hah maybe thats how it ends...im just too complicated on things...
 im successful but im not happy..haha now i can say that? it takes so long for me to say im not happy at certain things in my life nw...i dont ask for more i just want to live life simply the way i want...^^ but im almost there already...just a little more sacrifices...when im done i can live my life the way i just love to live it...thank you God for another day of contentment... 

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

i crave the most

for this past few days i was so busy with a movie...so i decided to finish it first so i can write what i was into in my life so i can share it to you...so i promise to write everything the next time around,for now, this is all i've got...
this are the stuffs i love and enjoy much...maybe every time i feel aloof and feel lonesome about some stuffs and person...i just eat it all out...so i can let it go,i dont tolerate sadness anymore...theres more to life than stuck to people whom you care but doesn't gave it a damn anyways...i dont feel any resentment to people like those...or any grudge at all. Their not important at all...i just feel sorry for the wasted effort and time, its not worth it...im regretful to myself why on earth i was bumped unto people like them,but its all well for me now...just let it e...and thank God as always for the enlightened and the guidance so we wont end up hurting too much by sooooo calllleeeedddd friends...^^ 
just live your life healthy away from those hatred,it will not cause you any good at all...like me, i eat to be healthy hahahha love you sweetie blog...
FRENCH FRIES...for the afternoon snack

my favorite coffee...everyday i got a dose of this...

the BISCUIT from my coffee is delicious wanna have some?

my ever fav. mac'n cheese with w/ herbs hahaha 
Cherie Ann Lines

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

wont turn back at you

what am i really up to now? i've asked this question for quite a while...whenever i get upset to some things or stuffs, i always send sms to all the people stored in my phone...and instead that would make me feel lighten up a bit it drained me more, and it worsen more my self drama...why?well simply because sometimes i huff cause im wrong somehow on how i think to the people 
it was cousin who made me realize that people exist in different ways...just how i look my self different from others too...she help me understand myself sometimes...then she gave me a conclusion to things i've been upset to...to people whom i thought will be there whenever i need them...to some people they only see what they are seeing from the alter side...they dont really penetrate unto somthing...my cousin even if we both have differences in living life, contradiction, contrary, thoughts, love, dislike, and beliefs still we cling to each other...for some reason shes all i have now...if im down, she wont ask anything but cheer me up, she doesnt know what im going through...its really not easy to divulge everything...shes still young she could have a very bright future if she only listen to what ive been telling her...maybe im too much for an adviser but im only making it hard for her to be more prepared in real world...maybe im too hard on her,she really feel it sometimes i really notice her when she feel almost fed up by my treatment to her sometimes...i've seen her grow, i know what she'd been through in dealing her life...i dont want anybody ill-treat or manhandle her, and maybe if that happens i will be the scolding that bully person...hahhah thats how im so overprotective to her, but i know she has her own life, i dont want her to live like i used to,i've seen in her the dreams she wants to achieve but i also see and i understand we really have a big differences , im happy for her because shes stronger now not like before...well,the other night she told me that she likes fried chicken...so i took this old photo taken last week of august...this is from Mc. i went out to eat every Saturday night...

chicken buff...yummy!i hope i can eat this with her...


well,this one i really love this MAC' N CHEESE...

you can taste the cheese till the bottom without fading...wow!
i want to eat this dishes with my cousin she deserve also to go out and unwind sometimes and take a break for a while...from those days of the week shes into studying and doing the household and take note! its UNENDING chores...thumbs up to her...my cousins name is EMY MENDEZ ...shes happy Miss Angola wins the Miss Universe 2011 because shes like her,they both have black beauty...
i hope u love the food that i love...^^ they all taste awesome as in heaven and always give me the high...
i dont care im a bachelor at my age because i gotta taste everything i love...food...adventure...places...meet people...work...and God...enjoy...dont drool ok...


Friday, September 9, 2011

living healthy sweetie

its lunch time! take a look at my favorite goodies...they all yummy!
mac'n cheese - still taste good im so cheesy haha thanks for my sponsor

the most sinful dessert ever...ice cream!

burger & fries!thankz to Mc...

see!im living healthy!vegies vegies oh my!

and so you all know that i dont have my camera , so i ask my friends to tale a shoot on every thing we're going through...thanks to her i got a chance to see my fav. in my blog, you can buy all of these healthy food on McDonald...and they can deliver it in your office or home also...just dial  86236 or just go directly to their online site...hahah im plugging,anyhow as in by the way thanks to my sponsor i got a dose of all these stuff...to my loving friend...#vicentelao thumbs up!and to ate whom i borrow a camera shes in the other office...im so vain ^^ well these are stuffs i love and i crave...ooooppppsss!dont droool ok...wheow this is taken a week ago just posted it now...how lame was that! im not the camera owner so never mind about it...
see ya sweetie blog...more work to be done...for now im having my fav. soda ever...well, im alone and my love life are so empty but im so full when it comes to great things in my life now haha its really two different things everyone might forgot ...just LIVING HEALTHY fellas...=)

im eating mac'n cheese right now...^^
#sweetie - name of my blog
love ko to...Cherie Ann Lines

spices made life more worth living for

click click click tick tick tick ...and it goes like this...
i really never knew before that life had a very vast and measureless scope...i really dont believe in life drama...because before i dont believe on it...its like - why deal with negative,theres more of it that life can offer to us,theres more to enjoy the privileged of living this life once so give it worth , give your life a life...dont live miserably, if your living in scarcity dont complain,work hard to overcome that kind of living, if your living full, then enrich what you have,cultivate more, nourish it and share blessings to others- its not because you will get more than you give, its not like that but its a reminder that you have handful of it while others not so why being selfish?...thats how i look life and living my life...for me all those hazardous people exist here in the world are far more lonely than a crazy man...because all their lives they live in fear, gambling-yet they feel happy if they commit crime but still after a while the'll be back for more cause they dont know how to stand on their own, they live in darkness, they always haunted by grief and conscience , and they always run from reality , and hunted by police...they dont live in peace...they haven't enjoy the real essence of being alive...
until i read this person's write ups,she shares her self...open up to someone totally strange to all of us but we look up to her , people from different country reach out to her,maybe people dont exist on blogging dont know her and people reading this might not know her...we dont know her aldo in real flesh but i somehow connect with her through her blog site, she helps people express their feelings...secrets...happiness...even worst experience in life...
and as time goes by, different life experience , struggles , journey and different problems...i've seen a lot of colors flying around their stories...and what i've learn from it is that everything happens in every aspect of life and shows how ironic life is...
its like a question how and when life ends...-its something far way too mysterious to seek for an answer...so my life drama...im putting it this way - its like a dust in the galaxy...their are more than this and now i know lets just cherish every moment we have...
-accept the fact that life is not fair,that i cant love the person i love because he has someone in his life because im too complicated and too fickle minded, too weird for him... -reflect life as how it should be... never break your rule -goal - aim- and dreams in life-
for me they say im crazy when i say i  im happy being single, and i can wait till the end of time ...they laugh cause im too formal when it comes to love topic well, its my way why should i follow them im the captain of my own ship if anything happens i should be the one to blame not other people and they cant break my self affirmation...its way too strong than their soda and choclates haha kidding... and i have a very lovable man with me...God is the first man i ever trusted and where lifted my life..maybe people know me wont believe what im writing here right now,and im having my creepiest smile right now...
ive seen and ive known NO ONE and such person that sees me the right way...though it doesnt matter to me but perhaps im excited where God will bring me and where my life decisions lands me...
for other people i have this strong personality...but its freakin me out cause i dont know how to with-stand the  strong aura...u know i still have a soft spot and i will give myself around of applause becasue i did my job well...ive been a good daughter,a good citizen, a good friend and a bestfriend, a good person...even if i got the worst in return, i wont complain now...cause i know their are more far too important things that will matter than deal to melancholy of life...im strong yet vulnerable...thaks to God he gives me strength...and thanks to the people who inspires me a lot...they dont know but soon they will...im almost breaking free and im learning a lot this time...i enjoy living healthy - and tats what im talking about again over and over again...its like im building a bridge to get over and conclude but im not their yet,but the obstacles are helping me to man up more...im so happy and contented...love...love...love...
  "I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love." –Marilyn Monroe.  

like it...Cherie Ann M. Lines...



whatever it takes

..just when i thought i was quite forgetting the people i supposed to forget because of time interval and focus differences...i was struck by how i approach a person its like a human instinct my body walks towards a guy & his lil'bro and when i was about to extend my arm to his shoulders to my excitement the guy look back and give a wide smile and say "HI COUZ!ITS BEEN A LONG TIME!, WHAT BROUGHT YOU HERE?ARE YOU WORKING HERE?JINGLE IS INSIDE THE CAFE WERE ABOUT TO LEAVE ANY MOMENT,WHY DONT YOU VISIT US IN THE HOUSE?" haha i saw my cousins! i feel very excited and i feel very happy to see my old folks...quite amazing though i haven't talk to them any longer cause im on my work & i should get back to the office right away....but sure,i will be visiting them in the house...
well,thats the irony of life,when we thought those people away for such a long time totally wont feel the same but i guess im wrong at some point still, blood is thicker than water...
still even if its been a long time i haven't seen my cousins with their posture even if its blurry i still know deep down that Hey!i know that person...and to my amazement the feeling is so fantastic that im very high cause i saw them, and the bond was still their even if were all grown up and a little more formal the way we talk, the way we held each other,not the typical loud voices , the hand gestures and the way we jest around...geez! were all grown up! 
but quite feel the same and still the person weve known for a very long time...its the time who pass us by not the who we are and thats far more important than anything else...
now i was move by my cousin Kyle & Jingle they make me laugh they still reflects the same aura...classy with a very approachable scent... 
im looking forward to see my other cousins also , maybe i feel those things before because im so into my self, being alone and so aloof...somehow its my fault , but still no regrets cause i just dont feel strolling around no time for that ... haha just living healthy thats my goal right now... well to wrap things up im with my cousin MICAH KARAH G. shes cool and nice...its raining  outside so we cant go home early...we'll wait for the rain to settle a lil'bit or else we'll cath cold...
Cherie Ann Lines

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

MAMA MARY's BIRTHDAY 9/8/2011

Wow! good morning fellas... its really a nice day for me, and maybe to all Christians around the globe...
its the feast for MAMA MARY"s BIRTHDAY...
what?!!!! oh yes! you read that right sweetie...well, when September strikes the calendar...i feel excited becasue of her birthday , maybe for some reasons, one is that its only once in a year to celebrate a birthday, and the celebrity is Mama Mary, and if you're really a Catholic and a Godfearing person no reason you will forget and neglect that event its something very important to me .
i got a chance to say thank you to her cause im so blessed and its because she loves me and the people around me. This morning the mass started 3:00 in the morning for the "manya-nita" but we go to church 3:30 am...the mass started 4:00 am and ended 5:10 am...its a tradition that during her birthday after the mass we fed the people who attend the mass...every year we took the responsibility to do that...its kinda fun and were happy because we got to share the blessings we had. 
but i miss to take a picture after the mass,if i could only have a camera again, but its really nice
and the most exciting part is when we let go all the balloons woaah! its really cool!
now we only have few balloons to unleashed ... well,the balloons came from me i donate some of it, my tita and someone who are close to us...
its so simple tradition that should be passed towards our generation, the priest who do the honor to conduct the mass today somehow correct when he told the people that "simple people are gathered here today to celebrate...simple in a way special because you never forget a birthday, and so forth" nevertheless his right cause when we arrive in the church their are only few who i think sited inside, but after a few more minutes people flock their way to the church...still its so good to see our neighbors in our place doesn't seem to set aside the happenings...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA MARY...I LOVE YOU & MOST OF ALL THANK YOU
i may sound goofy but this is the other side of me, im very into this kind of feast...i was raise to fear God and i was so lame before that i dont want to go to church but when i was growing up i learn ITS ALL WORTH IT waking up early in the morning to be with my papa & mama to attend a morning mass...cause somehow i know i was so blessed even if im such a sinner i always found happiness in God...we should have time to listen to what his will passed down through generation...maybe thats the one lacking in todays cyber world...how the young generation reflects and give importance to our beliefs and traditions...well, thats far controllable...it should start in the family then to your self.. great man holds a self affirmation...haha again?! well affirmation again , its really something important to me...
and thats all for a wrap...love...love...love...^^ 

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

the best is still unwritten

too much doze of carefulness makes me feel numb sometimes...i need to..why?
to avoid hurting myself,and to avoid people from hurting me...thats my rule to myself...
and maybe some people i love took it the different ways,this is the problem i've been always keep bumping around me,everyday...i just cant help it, im afraid to where my decisions in life will take me from today... coz i think im to numb to reflect and give them the feeling i had for the people i cherish the most...now i can see only one person that i cant hide my feelings , she can penetrate me, shes my younger cousin, she took BSIT to be like me, im thankful that whatever and how will she manage the pedestal she had now to be still and always be approachable. and im happy she didn't turn out to grow an airy person...im happy she still look at me as her good ate...and im so careful with myself cause i dont want her to get disappointed unto the people who believes in me..it innovates me to push more from myself, they are the reason i dont complain, whether my money falls for them, its all ok, they are all worth it...sometimes im afraid to be left out alone and to the point im asking myself what will be the me after today...but you know that is just the one side of the story thats is just a part from my drama blues in ife...i really dont deal with this , because im not the kind of person that loves drama...
the most important thing is i know god had given me more blessing in my life now, and i try to be better more and more each day to give back what God had given me.
maybe im numb but it doesn't mean i dont feel the feelings around me, if only they knew what im i thinking...haha i kinda laugh sometimes to give light to my feelings if i dont feel ok i just set for a while chill...and then take a deep breath then go on...i cant stop right now...if only they knew the sacrifices i've made and how i fight everything just to stick with my rules oh comm'n! its not that easy but still im happy that i choose living healthy and remain a bachelor haha not a common habit for a person but im weird thats what gives me the vast difference from others well im simple yet confusing because of the stuff i affiliated to myself and the strong rules and affirmation i give to myself, i dont care what other people say cause id rather attend to myself than waste my time dealing with fake people...we only live this life once...so why waste it...
maybe you have your own way of thinking about living life once...
same as me...i have my own outlook towards that, so i live my life the way i know right for me and suits me...i i will have my life unique as it is from others and try to venture things i wanted...its nice to have a person in your life to share with whats going on with you but for now i haven't seen one...i guess i meet that before but isn't worth it...no regrets for the person but he had his own life outlook...his in a hurry , and took it with other woman when i look back , his clinging and hooking up with someone else , while im still and enjoying every aspects life given me...but thanks to him i gotta see more from the shades of yesterday...he reminds me that the decision is right that its worth it to took a single  life and to not get into so much hurry...i enjoy the fact that im single i can do whatever i want...so whats the big deal of being a bachelor? haha it doesn't make sense if they will ask me pathetic questions... i will give them my silly smile...
to wrap up everything im thinking now is that for me i thank God for everything and for the guidance & mostly 
The Best is yet Unwritten...
yet , spectacular getaways comes along every time but  still every good reasons for that and looking forward to that day...^^ when im standing in front of that huge edifice in Europe maybe that will be the most special day for me...you know what im talking about? well, i give u a clue...if you look at it , you will feel that will be your most romantic feeling towards yourself and the most fulfilling moment that its really nice to live life and you wont notice how fast time goes by...^^ and thats the wrap cheos gotta goes...

Monday, September 5, 2011

...pathways...

i've had an awesome weekend...i sleep almost 4 in the morning on Sunday , i started watching the movie ahm i think around 9:30 up on Saturday after i eat my dinner , and after i had this meeting for business stuff and at the meeting it tackles about our health...and i wont elaborate more from it its kind'a confidential hahah kidding! 
back to the weekend getaway...so i thats it,im watching this movie and its very cool!
THE HILLS...and  haven't finish it till almost 4 am and my eyes are very dead tired already so i decided to grab my pillows and blankz so i can take my sleep,and decided to finish the movie in the morning since i dont have anything to do...but i planned to go to church that day i just didn't remember at first, im so excited to know more on the movie and looking forward to finish it that day,i woke up yesterday almost 10 am, i think if it wasn't the noise of my phone i wont be able to woke up that early, oh yeah 10 am is early for me haha ^^
i've had so much fun every Sunday, i got to bond with my family more...its like , the only time we could spend each other for a week, and every Sunday we have a visitor, my uncle and tita...the Rapada siblings...we got to bond with my 3 guy cousins...my kuya Rodel Rapada- Jefferson Rapada - Ronald Rapada...
im close with my kuya Rodel, i really look up to him, his and electrical Engr. but sad to say he cant land a job he haven't pass his board exam yet i think its because of his lifestyle but his not bad,his super cool, down to earth person, not an airy man, his so kind, he loves his work and career 
but to the point that he really wanted that job position but landed nothing because he still dont have his result, im proud of how he manage to be still and maintain his good self despite of the things he has and achieve maybe what is lacking with his life now is only his result in board but for me or shall i say us...his still good...
the problem is i've seen in him the disappointment ... he really wanted the position but ended up rejected, well i dont think i am in the position to brought up to here, i just really confident about him that he can make it...
he told me that he believe he dont have any hope for himself to achieve the job he wants...
well, after that around 4 pm they go home their already drunk...and i decided to go to church ...
its the first Sunday for the month of September...and hey to mention September Mama birthday's coming...we plan to give balloons for thanks giving,
yesterday as i was talking to my other cousin Emy Mendez about  what happen to me these past few days, he told me and explain some stuffs i should know like i was telling her the feud between me and my friend,she just say the possibilities why we happen to have a gap,well she might be correct but i forgive her already and thats far more important than anything else, all of my friends the fades so fast and feels cold towards me i forgive them all...i dont need tons of fake friends indeed...i will suit myself to a few but real bestfriends , not that much communicate but still answers your text and call whenever i need someone to listen even if its against all the odds miles and miles away...u know a simple yes?are u ok?whats the call?dont worry im here,although busy but still finds a time to know whats going on with you, this past few months that i miss my friends and im feeling my blues because im so confused at some points of life ironic blast I've found peace to my family that even if i dont say anything they just felt it and do the very best just to feel you light hearted...
i found out that i have tons of fake friends but im so thankful that i have with me my real best friends and they were all awesome...they all far from me, but still feels like miles away are not the reason to forget to remind me they are all there behind my back to cheer me up in times of all the chaos that will hit in your life...
now I've man up already and knows  some of them changes colours well i need to let them go...so that hard feelings can be forgiven and could be prevented...its not good for ourselves it will just gives you stress hahha 
im thankful to all the people who never get tired on watching over me...and never held back, never back stab, never abandoned, never think bad towards me, and never drop their hands on me...i jsut hope everyone will feel free to forgive everybody also...
to wrap up everything...love everyone around you,dont entertain fake people so they wont spoil you, dont stoop to foul ones, always smile, dont forget to say thank you to god, dont forget your family always put them first, and love yourself...trust your instinct, have self affirmation, stick to your rules...give yourself time to breath, then move forward without taking advantage to anyone...
love...pray...muaaahhh 
 Cherie Ann Lines

Friday, September 2, 2011

misapprehend

i really love siomai...i ate this when i fell my throat is craving for a coke
and if im totally aloof...
Though i dont have much more to say about whats going on with my life i still love sharing what my perspective each day i live by...
After all the troubles, i left it behind with a whole heart and with willingness , why?cause its not easy and not healthy to live a life full of virus, haha i mean full of negative vibes... i dont want that heavy feeling because it makes my head ache and i cant think that much , i dont want that annoying feeling...i just dont want to deal with so much drama in life... we all have problems but its on us on how we handle things... 
After all, at the end of the day all you will have is yourself...well,for me thats my opinion...hmmm let me say,im 21 now but still a bachelor,haven't fall in love so deeply yet, but had a much more deeper views about love...how was that huh? =O 
some say its weird and its a lie if i say i dont have a boyfriend... i wanna squeeze their tongue to let them realize relationship to opposite sex only exist because of love...hahha i really dont believe on that,im weird? well oh yeah i am, and also extraordinary...where on earth did i get that?! haha i got that from my very best friends...and they are men! yeah they have their girlfriends already but me,im still a bachelor...
simply because i choose so...so what? im happy anyways, i got to spend my time pampering myself, my family and my very best friends...i dont want to waste time clinging around with some men whom you're not sure if they were the ones for you...oh comm'n! cant manage to take that...
they say, how would i know if it will work out or not i dont even trying,well i just thought so...
and i dont want to test my future , i dont wanna mess up with my life, and i dont wanna regret the test...
im a coward? well if thats what people say and that makes them happy haha let them suit to what they think 
for me its all crap to be given such attention... i'll do what i do, say what i think, that makes me a cool feeling that i gotta let out and utter what i want to without even lying, you know i see people always tell lies just to please themselves , how was that? for me it doesn't make any sense...
But in our life their is a certain time that we ought to meet people that reflects different colours 
at this point in my life i haven't been in a world that makes my head spin but i guess i still refuse to because its very unnecessary...its not my cup of tea that because my colleague have their own relationship i will jump into it also nha-ah...thats a no no for me...  they can say whatever they want...still i wont take a hazard move just to do something i know its not so me...i love kit-kat but im not a copy cat hahah ^^ see the difference even if it rhymes... my golly! i wanna venture more new horizon... work in different fields next year...live freely... just what i really wanted to do... 
sometimes its really hard to be a bachelor... its not because you envy people but its hard because :
* people think somethings wrong with you,even if theres nothing
* no one ask you if your ok,but not lonely
* you cant stand to listen to a love song 
* its just it keeps pissing me off the way people ask me and all of that stuff that i keep on telling them, on and on again and again , why dont they just understand that i dont have anyone by me grrrr
* telling the people the same answer over and over and over again
* most painful of all, rejected by people because i cant sway to their trips in life, i cant keep pace with their topic and life because im different i cant love back so they just simply forget we once are friends...i just dont think they'd understand
well, im feeling blue right now, tears may ran down like a razor but nha-ah its really the typical  me...i just felt like this when i talked about my so called friends not to mention my real best friends who never leave me alone even if they have their gf already... but life must go on...and i just gotta go on with my so called tour n life ... towards success! please bottoms up bottoms up... 
u know its Saturday today, every weekend i always sleep late because its the only night that i can watch all my movie tapes , cant do this on weekdays cause work... so i love Saturday nights...im breaking dawn till dusk always...just to watch dvd's and i dont know it makes me feel light hehe ^^ i can do whatever i want and when i watch movies i could feel theres something in me escapes from the stress of working the whole week...at least i gotta do what i want...then sleep...lying in bed and no need to wake up so early because its Sunday after Saturday hahah how was that man! im so excited to go home...by the way i love this new found song...i will share some of the lines ok...:
I knew I wanted you the first time that I saw you walk by
That I need you forever when your eyes met mine
I loved you the first time I heard you speak my name
You'd be the beauty in my life, always

it may sound to you a love song but i love this because its not a typical oh la la love song...hahah i love music you cant take that from me...i just dont love love song that are pity to the bones...hope you get it right,cause im always misunderstood by people who acts they know me but really not... and it really gives me a grit that they assume to know me but they dont barely understand what i simply say,people are too literal that they just listen to what they say they forgot to understand what they intend to listen...
to wrap up everything... counting blues to end the day...gotta go baby blog...see ya tonight...