Sunday, July 29, 2012

CIGAR BURNS ♥

...just like the ashes drops down from that cigar stick...i kinda feel that im melting slowly,i havent know ive been obvious and confident on expressing myself on how i feel for this person...however i know that its so impossible...the feeling of waiting in vain...just like the cigar burns and this damn feeling i know i will laugh at this in the future ive been waiting in vain for years and its unacceptable if id let this root that i cant even pull it up when time comes that  id be needing to..

ashes do fell like dust that will blend to the wind haha and just like what i feel for this person... the time when i saw and i am not that stupid to not know this person had someone before its really freakin hard to accept that fact when i learned about it...while spending time with him and he makes you feel special would make you say Please quit playing games...If id just know,i wont let myself fall for you...but i cannot blame this person its me who et myself fall for him... its a kind of a funny story ive been keeping this for almost 6 years...ive already given myself up until this year for this stupid feeling and after that i'll let myself accept the fact that im just tooooooooooo stupid to let this root up without the persons knowledge... haha well, what happen was,i think ive read something on his facebook,two weeks ago... then its kinda slap in the face, haha i think that was a post for the girl...and its just dont feel right... however that was forgiven cause for some reason happen after that... i know God has been very generous to me when it comes to this feeling cause he gives me a lot of reasons not to throw this feelings away... every time i feel like hey,i this is it...move on girl! but then after how many hours a gesture would remind me why i love this person haahaha ive been in a roller coaster ride on this...its hard to be technically single but that person you love,you cant even call your own...
you have to deal with consequences that will make or break a lot of things between the two of you...

Ive never been very showy at all about my feelings to him,its just that maybe i cannot contain it anymore and let it out here...this has been my escape...i know if theres a fog theres been fire burning around the corner and theres no secrets that can be keep haha but i will use my power to keep them as long as i can...


cigar burns do leave scars but there are medications to let the scar wont be visible when it heals...


i know its just a matter of courage...self discipline and guts to go on let a smile out and feels light hearted when life gets harder...his been inspiring me all this time...it toughens me though...


i cannot deny that the work ive had is very stressing...the account im into has its high expectations on each other from the team...there are times that you would feel like giving up and just cry cause you dont have a choice this  is what ive loved to do...and ive gone this far to just give that up easily?unacceptable right? so theres no way to go but to move on...give my best every call history...

there are some issues on this world of ours that shocks me...havent imagine that its like this... the stakes are high... and you cant afford to against that its not an option...what i do is,for me not to lose the spirit in me every now and then during calls...ive had with me his picture...put it on the computer screen and that puts a smile on ma'face no matter how hard was the call is...i can manage that irate caller cause of that i have yes surveys,,,and its really damn good when you know callers are satisfied on how you resolve there concerns...and thats because im inspired hahhaha but yeah its a stupid feeling...

...unrelated with the topic : ive find time to post something today,suddenly we have a schedule change for two weeks,we will have out training,that is why we have our restday today...i feel like a zombie ahaha you guys take care... ♥ i will post more often than not and thats a promise!!!


CIGAR BURNS... and ashes will just gone by the wind and all you have to do is find medication...and let that burn heals...then start from that...


good to be back,reading all the stuffs from my favorite  bloggers...