♥ ♥ SAYONARA ♥ ♥

♥ i'ts been couple of days...to be exact that was a week ago...haven't wrote everything and say THANK YOU to everyone who helped me grow... i really suck at goodbye so i wasn't able to wrote everything that day..now i think everything has sunk in already  ♥

i know im one lucky kiddo for i have something that makes saying GOODBYE  so hard and that's my friends...whom i consider an extension to my real family...

a friends once told me...i am a loving person and kindest of all but only limited to my family and real friends...outside that circle...im tyrant.. .:) do i agree???YES but not the tyrant thing...ahhhw MAYBE :) 

words are not enough to say how grateful i am with my EXPEDIA family...we may not have everything but we make the most out from what we have...the people alone are enough to make me happy on my journey within the company..i thought i can write better than the first part of my THANK YOU message to my friends..seems like im wrong...as i am writing this post i cant even think properly and type the words i have in mind.

guess i just have to make this short but meaningful... i just wanna say THANK YOU guys for being part of my journey and letting me part of your own journey as well... i personally miss you all ♥ 

wanna share this here...though i think some already saw this on my fb wall...cause sometime i always tend to forget that facebook is not my blog site :) pardon me for that...

I just wanna be grateful today...this aint goodbye indeed its just SEE YOU AROUND!!!! im breaking free and will be grateful for everything... CIAO ♥

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..never thought i'll fit to any team after our cool and super bonded EC174-A...cool KAIZEN and adorable ANGELS...got adopted by TEAM R.E.D.S and was transferred to the AMAZING T2 team... i consider the journey a one big racing track...all of us are on our cool and easy breezy pace...we don't bump each others way cause we fight as a team...the only scary thing is who will reach the finish line first for we cant go back on the same track anymore...PEOPLE COME AND GO...a sad reality i have to accept 

...i dare to go out and will try this new amazing track...as my brotha say MAN UP!! and they've said YOUR NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER (yeah ryt)! haha and since i love drifting...i am shifting my gears...it's a scary race track cause i have to familiarize each curves and bumps from square 1 but i consider myself a lucky kid for i know i m gonna walk away and will break free from my comfort zone with such pride working with these people who helped me geared up for my next battle  this kiddo will surely miss my T2 fam & EXP fam...its not goodbye...just SEE YOU AROUND FOLKS!!!  ▬ VANITY now signing off

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MY BIRTHDAY + WHATS YOUR IDENTITY PART II

its a nice morning for me today...its not just because im in the mood but because my parents sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me...haha but please agree, gestures like that are so sweet...yeah ITS MY BIRTHDAY ^^

and as i arrive in the office this morning, i knew it! this day and tomorrow will be so much of a hectic days in a row... tons of work to be done...so im gona make this post fast...

the first part was already posted last saturday...PART I

The STAR - born with the spotlight on them,last-borns are usually the stars and entertainers of the family...and i really do believe on this one,even if im not the youngest...i can see it from my brother ^^ sometimes spoiled rotten, not only by our parents but also by us, the eldest siblings...they are loved and adored by everyone...even the grumpy old ones...

• you ALMIGHTY - being the youngest usually means you're used to having all the attention. Also the most charming and possibly the most easygoing of all the children...after all,your parents had gotten more relaxed by the time you came along,so you weren't brought up strictly as your older siblings...but they usually absorb the parents "praningitis" hehe ^^ their special though...
• Spoiled Rotten Scoundrels - many last-borns are reluctant to grow up,since they've spent most of their lives being pampered and babied. So most of the time,the youngest children in the family are also the last ones to learn about responsibility and maturity...but wait...im also like this haha...a lot of last borns are also attention-seekers and limelight-stealers, since they're used to being notice all the time...this one i really cant justify ^^ this is just based on my the weird analysis...haha what?!!!
• Bunso Hustle - speaking in a baby voice...(annoying sometimes) is pretty cute...when you're nine years old, but not when they were in their teenie years ya know ^^ Just because you're the youngest doesn't mean you are excused from any responsibilities at home...i taught this to my brother before,now he act more mature than me haha ^^ volunteer for even the smallest tasks,like washing the dishes or cleaning the table after eating...these are small but solid steps that get you used to responsibilities...

The SOLOIST - only...the lonely?... Not necessarily,only-born actually enjoy the undivided attention of both parents...since they have no other siblings to split it with...

• Only You - if you're an only child,you're probably more mature than other people your age, and on occasion prefer the company of older people. You are a godsend to office supplies stores, because being the organized person that you are, you just love to separate , segregate , and folder up everything that needs to be fixed. In fact, for me these people are very independent...^^
• Unforgiving - hehe since yo're quite the task master yourself,you have a tendency to sometimes be demanding and proud...Just because you have a tough hide, doesn't mean that everyone else does...^^ and just so we're all clear on this : when someone else bursts out bawling at your not-so-tactful comment,that usually means you were way too harsh...but i understand these type of persona...really do ^^
• A Walk To Remember - the next time you feel miffed by someone's comments about you or your work, remember that other people feel the same way when you criticize them ^^ learn to say things in a polite , helpful manner...and you'll find that people will also treat you more kindly...

that would be all ^^ i  dont know if im way too far of the words...but i know each one of us has our good and bad when it comes to attitudes...but for me,it is really important that we express the good ones...just dont like the haters...why hate if we can just spread love...hehe im really sweet,i just dont like nega vives... please greet me haha its ma'birthday ^^ love you all...muaaah i will be in hiatus for quite a while... i will be reviewing for my exams...tomorrow is my last day of work here in the office,i will miss all the stuffs here in Philippine Airlines, this has been my training ground...i need to focus now...and to man up,cause as i reflect this morning,im really grown up now...need to be more serious enough...i know im workaholic,but still i want to cross some boundaries...if i fail,the least i can feel is that I TRY ^^ so plese do pray for me...thank you for all the kindness in reading my workd, and on the good words that make me write again...im tahnkful iv'e known such great people around the blogosphere...i hope i have given justice to what i write above...haha its simply fiction,we all know that we are loved by our family and other people around us...lets all be thankful... this is goodbye but for just a while...i will be back...

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TURNING TABLES...

stumble and fall... 

when everyone does, its either let go or hold on till back up again... 

started my work for almost 2 years ago..having my ojt and really became an officer here... i started here with boredom as my partner,no one to talk to,but people whom you dont know...t'was very weird for me, and so challenging to talk nicely to people even if they were talking nonsense and sometimes hard to understand the explanation,my temper were at stake,haha there are really shitty times that i cant imagine myself so cool even if the usual me would walk out,so im'a say this help me a lot...iv'e known my self better,i knew what can i do and what i need to improve...even if the work is so stressing and make me like a zombie in the morning cause of the eyebags,well its quite fun though...in short this work makes me a real busy working woman...

forgot to see some colleague and friends,cause you prefer to take your rest and have your time the ME time so you can enjoy the weekend...its driving me crazy sometimes... but over all,i was attached to every single details iv'e learn from this work...its hard to move on...but yeah,we all need to take risk and have yourself take some chances,cause it wont go back again if we miss it and if we mess it...

my workspace and all my papers,im gonna miss them,all the reports iv'e handle,all the flights and all the time iv'e memorized and all the people whom iv'e worked with...they were all awesome,hands-up to them,they were all sky high with their patience and really used their humility though not all really can handle specially the newbie...haha they should learn how to deal with people...and they'll get used to it soon...im gonna miss all of these...those over working hours that made us go home very late...we were all great at our designated field... im thankful for those people who help me grow...from the maintainance  who never failed to great me and smile at me in the morning...to the guards who always say morning mam,bye mam haha dont they know another word? ^^ kidding! and to the accounting department that i usually seek help when im just at my training period...^^ i know im so annoying before...and thanks to my co-officemates who never fail to share their foods to me,haha they always treat me chocolate + coke + pizza...thats our bonding time...and to my manager who never treat me other person,she treat us so well,and i love her humbleness she's one of the best...

whenever i fail on something, these people reminds me to pick up myself and be professorial enough,there is no such people exist that are perfect...but we must tend to be one...less mistake...if i looked back to those times,i can say im far better today than the time i was just learning and thinking what will be doing...and we all do have obstacle course to pass through,it is just the way that differs on how we deal on it...i know that im so freakin damn sometimes before and even now,im still working with some of my weakness..and hopefully when i start on my new work,i will be able to use what iv'e learn from here and i can adjust and will make less mistakes...if ever ^^ 

this has been driving me nuts the whole month of january...the thoughts of i should left this work...i can still remember the time i was crying so hard,when i get scolded by the manager for the big mess iv'e done...never in my wildest dream,i thought i can be bashed liek that...she never shout out me,but those words i cant forget...until now...after that i told myself that i wont be doing this,i dont deserve that way...i know somehow thats my fault,but if only she stop talking i could have done it the right way ^^ but that was really a total mess,for a flight that was scheduled for the assistant of VP Binay...haha now i can just do anything but laugh at that...i was really stupid at that time...but still the guy is so gentleman she never curse me to death ^^ thats a credit...well, on dealing with these people i should have learn a lot from them...i wont attempt to commit mistakes if working with people like them if i dont want to be bashed like that again hahah i pity myself now ^^ but yeah,i cry cause after listening to their long line on scolding me,the woman said YOU'RE STUPID!!! i was very shocked...in my mind u was also bashing them SHIT!YOURE IDIOT TOO...IF YOU JUST MAKE IT CLEAR AND DONT MAKE ANY CHANGES I AM VERY SURE THAT I KNOW MY JOB WELL PIG! cause shes so fat!!!AND DONT CALL ME STUPID CAUSE YOURE STUPID TOO...WHAT THE HECK!!! haha but seriously i havent think about it,its a late reaction... the thing is the guy havent board the plane and took another one...i think im being stupid that time ^^ hehe 

im gonna miss everything about this shitty work...that drives me nuts sometimes...but hell yeah i love working in a transportation industry where my dreams are so close...i have lots of memories to reminisce im looking forward to grow more from those experiences... im gonna cry for sure on my last day ^^ but now,i need to work ^^ muaaahhhhh bye fella...KUNG HEI FAT CHOI to my chinese friends...love you all guys... 

ADIóS! HELLO ICECREAM

even if the whole universe conspires no one can stop Christmas!

i am randomly thinking about what and where should i have my christmas list...need to purchase it...im such a busy fella, because? is it escaping from the real world? na-ah! not that reason...i keep myself busy as i could so i wont feel the pressure being alone and maybe im over thinking stuffs that is why im sickly lately...can i just say one bad word? hhhuuuuussssshhhh damnit!

this is all i wanna say...maybe this is the first time im using this? well well well i cant help it...my head is so full right now...plus the fact i really need to dump that damn feeling! i just knew yesterday he already have someone on his heart and im so stupid for feeling so sorry to myself! but i know i can move on from this damn so called first love...what? yeah! got that right! on my 21 years of existence in the universe...iv'e never love someone before...maybe iv'e admire guys before but its not counted because i only admire artist from Hollywood a big booooooo! to myself...  wanna trim my hair like before when im depressed because i cant go out outing with my cousins and cant attend college intramural during my junior year cause its very late already and my father is not feeling the earth vives that time and his monstrous when he say's NO!CANT GO!...

THE FAMOUS WARM BROWNIE CUP -  LA MAREA IN CEBU 

PARDON ME FOR BEING BLUE

im so damn emotional about this one...i just came up with a slight heavy decision...maybe after this one, i will take some time alone...not lonely but i will have my me time...and by the time im hanging again here i will tell you the happenings iv'e been...it will be a bunch...^^ well, i also feel a little odd about this, but i just got my senses back to normal, maybe i just need this some time to think things again...and clear things thats been blocking my sight...^^ lelz!  

so as the month ends... i will temporarily bid farewell to you guys...i'll be back soon...with me are loads of giddy ups... today i posted something in my twitter...t'was like paying tribute to my friends who never fail to keep in touch...well, im blessed with people that are so good to accept me, cheers me up, and the witnesses of how i deal with my life...maybe their far away, but they never fails to reach out... how sad i ended up like a lonesome looser...^^ yeah you read that right...

i have go back to my senses and i was still on the hype about that thing...and about that person..

actually the reason im doing this because i feel embarrass to my self... i scolded myself for the sad but the fact of understanding and controlling more the stuffs that will came my way...maybe i was just very giddy about that new found feeling... i dont want to talk about it...its Christmas again... i hope the people iv'e been with wont fade as time flies by... just enjoy the holidays guys! i wish us all luck and happiness...