Friday, December 30, 2011

A TRIBUTE ♥ ♥ ♥

its been an awesome year...a hell of a ride 2011 for all of us people from different countries...
on my world, i was so rounded by good people...whom,i consider myself blessed with...so its justifiable and worthy if i pay some tribute to them...this is my year end post,i want this to be read by them...^^

to my papa...you taught me things i was naive and innocent before...i owe him a lot...from the life he has given me...from the lesson he continue to teach me...for being strong...yeah,im a papa's girl, maybe thats why im tough cause i am just so like you! but you often say, where does your toughness came from?that strong affirmation?that strong faith?that weird side of you?that values you have in yourself? hey,papa...you forgot? you taught all of that...your so damn strict! i even loss some happy moments on my school days cause you dont let me...you even hit me twice when i arrive grasping to death cause im afraid i cant be home at 9 pm because of the school program...yet when i say sorry, you did say so...i was blessed to have you as my papa...your not perfect...but for me you are...i will man up thats a duty! and ill do my best to stick on it...

to my momma...you know that ive loved you...actually my brotha and i both do! haha and your freaking me out if your not in the house and theres no one to cook for us!i cant live without you...we were old enough to do all the stuff on our own, yet you spoiled us much that even me dont know how to cook for my self and throw tantrums cause i dont want to eat if you dont cook it...and to think im a big girl now! you! haha you're the suspect on that crime...thank you so much for helping me grow the person i am today... i cant imagine days without you... i can trade my life to make yours a lifetime... you know already what to know... stay healthy! 

to my one and only brotha! hey man! haha you always taught me that Life isn’t always a party... and so ever since im such a homie...and youre always the one who goes out partying... if im a homie then youre my counterpart... you see me as a good sister and im thankful on that...i am your hero and youre my hero too...im not perfect yet your so proud of me being as your sister... all im asking dont get intimidated on me, if you want to have a girlfriend then you can have...dont worry about me, i already accept the fact its not my time hahaha kidding! but yeah... i will try my best to stay prim and proper just for you guys! just dont let me down, youre all ive got, and your the reason im working so hard... 

im so blessed to have a family like i have...if i had to live my life again...it still would be yours i belong... you know i love you so HAPPY NEW YEAR TO US hahah im running out of words... ☻ 

to my friends... i know most people befriend you and then take part of the gaiety but when you’re caught up in a serious predicament, they’re never around.This year I realized that although it’s good to always try to see the good in people, nobody is perfect and some people will be immature and will forever try to bring others down. No matter how much you try to be good to people, you should never expect them to do the same thing to you. You can’t force people to always be positive, their attitudes & outlook in life are influenced by their upbringing. You’re in no position to judge them cos of that. 


I know I’m blessed to have tons of friends, but I’m even more blessed to have a handful that I can count on... HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

most specially to the people im glad ive known here on blogosphere... i may a newbie on their world...but im glad ive known some of the best i think worth the writing for...who would have thought a teacher like Teacher Mots   inspires me alot of things,not to mention the rated pg thingy on his blog haha but man! his one hell of an artist... i wonder why he didnt have a degree on artistry...his amazing! words are not enough for this person...
also to this person... before im just bloghopping until i was really parking on his blog the whole day... reading his reviews to books and movies, since i also love books, his blog already catches my attention... his also a good damn of a writer... i maybe kapal ang face to say this but i really think his my friend already haha i cant help but just be amaze on his write ups about stories...and his a guy but his like me his weird,like his whole blog thing is orange...duh his name is ORANGE ^^ the orange wit 
and a lot of writers...there's Neneng kilabot where i wa so envious on how she write tagalog haha shes so funny! her blog is full of humor... also just like the the wicked mouth whom i cant stop laughing with... his so green! and one time i really cant stop laughing at the office its so embarrassing cause i ddint help it i really burst out... and lots of people thats in my blog list... those people made me write again... maybe i dont know them personally but i can feel them...i can relate to their ego's... haha they were all COOL! 


i hope i gotta chance on seeing them one of those days... and to read more from them, learn more from them and hopefully those people wont fade... im thankful ive gain more real friends here and this year... 


 It’s hard to find real friends who stick with you even through shitty times.  but these people from my family...friends and new found friends... 
THANK YOU ALL GUYS! MAY YOU HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! WELCOME 2012! thank you 2011... 


love    love    love...   ♥   ♥   ♥

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

THANK YOU 2011 ♥ ♥ ♥

as people busy bidding goodbye to 2011,im on the other side...im still reminiscing and still rewinding what i had on this year...totally sum up with an awesome year...im happy i was blessed...with people so supportive behind me, and my family...thats the most important thing...its been a great year and hopefully i'll do more good on the coming year...to my self,family,friends and career...i had a good life...and im glad after examining myself, ive been good...^^ as a daughter,a sister and a friend...most specially as a christian...i may lack something others do have...i always have this lesson on me, love always ...say thank you always...and say sorry always...and its so cool cause i know i was able to share that to people around me...im so happy hahah im not hard to please though...^^

for quite sometimes,i forgot my music and my passion...i am forgiven by this crime...due to schedule and too much of being so workaholic...i was not coping too much to the music scene...i miss them...the adrenaline rush to my veins whenever i put that ear piece on ma'ear...browsing the page of my idols...acting like one of them...singing my lungs out...and putting up a mini concert on my room...i miss the ME TIME iv'e lost this year...its been my medicine throughout my life...and it was painful to see the music scene today...they call someone a singer even if they cant sing,o'cmon! i hate to hear and see them blabbing about albums they brag us to buy cause its cool...haha how sad the music scene was evaded by those people... auto-tune people...^^  maybe i am so familiar with foreign bands that i often compare them to what our local bands nowadays... Filipino music scene is undoubtedly awesome but the local scene lost their originality...most of the singers are reviving the foreign ones...and when it comes to bands...goodness they are dying man!like...hey wheres is our local band spirit?you can sing better than those foreign ban guys! make some noise...somehow, we partly to be blame, dont lie, we tend to choose foreign ones then our own...maybe because its easily to understand and more meaningful, and this is what iv'e seen the reason why we mostly choose foreign than our local, cause foreign are more serious about the meaning of the song,relativity the , genuinely, even if its screaming but! its meaningful...while some of our local band songs are passive...i love our local band,even the ehead songs that are decades old...i still got it on my pad...its because songs from before are more meaningful than songs of the bands emerging today on the scene...i will try my best to get in touch with music again...i miss it a lot...
looking back to time...

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

♥ SCARS LEFT ME → ?

as i sat here...all that stuffs that randomly passing through my brain leaves the trace of biding goodbye...a lesson to learn and should be taken into the deepest part of my ego...should be taken seriously...and should understand by me...it always came to the point, that im almost letting go of the fact that im gonna make it...yeah, the toughest bone that supports my every flesh is now a chicken...im really afraid for that day...but i still hope and trust God he wont spare me from that opportunity and that he will guide me always...

that random thoughts of being a coward is worsen on the fact that im hurting so much inside...i hope it isn't true...how i wish i did not see...and how i love i did not feel this...i am happy before...before iv'e liken someone at this moment...he isn't like a book i love that if i want it i can buy it...his one of those happy moments that i have this year...but i prefer to forget about and rejected my own feelings for the person whom i picture my self holding on to...id rather take the risk to keep it on myself...yeah im a coward...on many things indeed! even if telling the person i like him would lessen the burden and would set me free...i will still choose what iv'e decided long ago...hell yeah!iv'e restrain myself from opening my fb to get a hold on myself on pepping on his activities...i was happy i gotta rare opportunity on spending christmas with him...haha but from that moment i knew it....yeah...me  & him is IMPOSSIBLE...iv'e said it already before, i wont talk about him cause i dont want nega vives here on my page...but i cant help it...for the last time of the year , before it ends...and before i will forget him totally i wanna let go everything about him...if love would be this painful i rather choose to stay single...but yeah...as tears feel down like razors...i know he is the moon and im left watching him...im such a dork, im feeling this shit...im scolding myself cause i know im tough and my weakness is my family...but still im a woman whose heart so fragile...i can deny the fact now that im in love with the person...how can i say it when all i can see is his cycle and on his world im nothing compared to him...check sad reality isn't it...but above all the painful fact...im also happy that i have a chance to see his smile and hear his voice this close...haha if im a stalker ... im the best stalker a person might be...but the holidays has ended and so i cant see him anymore...back to normal days, im wondering if time flies by...will he still be single?or that girl his going to be with...only time can tell...but i cant really tell him i love him that genuinely...this is freaking me out! im no good at heart...i dont have any experience on loving until i realize iv'e love him long before...if i were to choose , i rather die than telling him about it...its very embarrassing...i dont wanna text him anymore...SWEAR! and i dont wanna see my phone ringing with his name on it...you dont wanna see me panicking like crazy that i dont know what to say when i pick up my phone...bullshit...

times like this makes me eat eat eat and eat...you wanna have some of macaronz i have right now? i know you want to but sorry me cause i dont have my camera now,all i have is this one iv'e took with my friends cam...this is my fav. to eat with my father and brother when we go out...

Sunday, December 25, 2011

CHILL ITS HOLIDAY!

since 2011 comes to its end soon...i am having a review on my self and  rating myself just like what iv'e read from a fav. blog of mine...he rate his blog and self...i will try to have a unique way of rating my sweetie also...well, to those who dont know whos sweetie is, sweetie is the name of my blog...haha weird eh?...

Whats the achievement ive come across to?
iv'e got my job! yaiks! oh goodness...very tiring one!super head breaker...i wanna say...i am earning my own money now... i can go out now alone...^^ wow after years of containing myself to the four corners of my room the daily boring routine of a student...school home school home...well i survive all of that...im a working woman right now...iv'e man up a lil'bit...im serious before, but i can say iv'e notch a rank this year...im more focused on my goals,well,im a goalie ever since but iv'e strengthen my will more.and im step by step taking the path iv'e foresee for myself before...ive had a happy life with my simple family also...that matters most to me,a happy and a smooth sailing everyday of our lives,id make sure that i spent time with them than before...and iv'e over come the shadow of my self...my shyness...ive gain my confidence on dealing people...ive control my bad temper already...and im more grateful i still have my friends with me...ive manage to have my self grounded and stay away from bad vives...^^

the maki the maki the makI!!!!!!!

Do i have a love life at last?
oh goodness...i dont still have one...haha still zero on this...
they say...NO!i dont believe you!its impossible you dont have a boyfriend...but enough of that...do boys need to be the measure and reason of a lady's life?...how about the work, self pampering, achievements, cycles? why not that first before asking love life?...sometimes i cant help but pissed off when ask about this thing...hahaha until ! last month...remember iv'e said finally im in love...but i dont have a beau still...
i love the person whom i know would never feel the same way, friends and cousins said, im such a coward to love a person secretly...too much of a creep...maybe they were partly right about that but what do they know? haha i know i know right! im a coward, but i will choose to be a coward than him knowing iv'e had feelings for him, his my friend and i dont wanna change anything about the attention, im afraid ? yes...afraid that if he knew about this shit thingy...he wont be friend me anymore, twas like his my friend for how many years, for me i betray our friendship, and mostly the biggest reason i have is that his an achiever im such a nut compared to him...im no pair for him, its not that im looking down too much to myself but thinking that someday , im entering his cycle i might get overshadowed by all of those fancy people he had...i cant get to his level...iv'e started to  stay away from him,avoid contact to his skin haha yeah thats how i badly want to control my feelings...because as long as im letting myself get drown on him the more i know i will get hurt soon...and i did...so im such a looser coward...^^ i am left with the question "why cant i have someone to love me?...hahaha how emo...will thats how it ends so maybe next year i can have a beau haha but maybe still not...im such a monster ya know...

CHRISTMAS 2011! KICKS OFF!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone...i hope you had a wonderful and meaningful celebration with your family...well, i was hiatus for a couple of days to give way on preparing some stuffs for the holiday...since saturday i havent slept well,i jst have a couple of hours to spare...i was busy with the family and classmates at the same time...there are parties to attend to...but i choose to spend my christmas with the family and the party with the classmates was after im done here on our family gatherings...its one of my Lolo's birthday also...yeah his a christmas celebrity...each year he really had a party at 25 so were used to be at the house the whole day the whole night of 24...the said party was for the senior citizens...
the celebrant..angry birds theme party for the SC!oh man!

sometimes its best to let go with the flow...i really tried my best to gather all the stamina left with me yesterday since i dont have enough sleep but still it was awesome i still have some left with me and manage to attend the party we held for the classmates and thank goodness i managed to stay up till 10:32 pm...but then i got really tired already and so i go home first and leave some of them parting the whole night maybe ^^
when i got home...i flop my body on the bed,and send some thank you to the people who attend then i didnt know i was totally sleepy and i havent finish sending it cause i already got sleepy! FINALLY! 

oh goodness the whole day i was really telling myself to go to sleep but i just cant...the music and the cheer of people outside makes me insomniac for 2 days...and the result is this black eyebags...and ive drag myself to take a deep breath and go to work right now...but hey i really feel im a walking zombie...haha ^^

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

FELIZ ANIVERSARIO ♥ ♥ ♥

the 6th and the 7th morning mass...2 more to go! wow i am proud as my mother to myself right now, cause iv'e fulfilled my promises and list to end the year smoothly and Godly...and finish and complete the 9 morning mass for Christmas...it was something very important to me...not because of the wish they said cause i dont believe on that ^^ it means to me a lot , as a Christian we are oblige to do the mass...whole heartedly haha im not a very good follower of God but im not bad also...i hope, people with too much for this season will  enjoy Christmas but remember also the people who just lost their love one's because of the ts sendong...we donated yesterday some goods, and the clothes are set to be donated also...i wanna encourage some bloggers to please donate stuffs, your LITTLE something is a BIG THING for those people...actually, i dont wanna talk about it here because i dont know if someone reads my blog, but this past few days i have some friends already that are more influential on blogging, maybe they drop some glimpse on my blog and hopefully they read this also, specially ORANGE WIT...Teacher Mots...i hope they will spread the news to be open and more helpful to fellow countrymen..from this...i remember why i started blogging again...well, wala na ako masabi...end of the story cause i dont wanna dig in more, we all know already what to do...
i hope these lyrics will mean something to every Filipino nowadays...:
When Santa's flyin' in his magic sleigh 
Goes all around the world in just a day
from the north pole to the southern tip
he makes his trip with LOVE to give away...hear him say:
ITS CHRISTMAS ALL OVER
THE WORLD TONIGHT

on the lighter side...its my Anniversary! yepey! i am so very much happy haha with 5 followers! its many eh?...indeed! it doesn't matter they were one of the best anyways...and people like them inspires me more...
i hope i dont spoil my self today its not a big day for anybody but for myself it is...i gain friends, i learn from them, iv'e learn something you wouldn't learn from school, work or at home...it will cost a lot to give up on blogging, i maybe not commenting on post where i follow, but that doesn't mean i dont read them, it is just sometimes im stunned by what i have read...haha like,where on hell these people came from? and thank goodness until now from then, i still enjoy the magic of blogging and reading blogs and understanding more people, and learning more the real faces of the phase of the world...thank God iv'e never quit blogging...or else iv'e lose a part so important right now...at least haha i have 5 followers...well i can give a damn to these people their awesome! so please celebrate with me today! lets eat some cakes...O_o yum yum yummmmmmmy!
ang sarap!meron then itong other version the mallow is inside and it will melt and pp out outside oh my!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

I FEEL SULTRY BUT NOT NOW...

its sinking in me already...i can feel it, as the days slowly counting to end the year...
Christmas is in the corner already...
and im feeling blue...or shall i say , im having Christmas blues...well, maybe it is...
on the other hand of the story...iv'e almost cried at this very moment...haha why? because theres someone who walk in , in the office, talk to me and ask about flights of PAL...he then started to talk about VP Binay...i was just listening to him while talking on the phone...then after he smiled talked again to me and told me about it,he then say thank you for certain help iv'e handed...then he gave me something and say MERRY CHRISTMAS...then he explain why shes staring at me(well,let me clear his not a maniac ok,his oldie and his very sacred haha his a SULTAN in mindanao...he said " in our religion we dont dis grace our woman,we love thee , but as what i have witness in your religion not all of you naman, but you can agree that meron talaga mostly of your guys dont treat your woman nicely...in mindanao, if you brokenheartedly hurt woman you will pay for that,and you will be sorry, we dont feel mercy to guys who hurt woman and children..." and i was like pausing in front of the Sultan  like a post for a couple of minutes...and he said "so dont be confused why i gave you that,i remember my sister in you,shes a steward,that is why i feel people like you..."
and i was stunned by what he just said to me...like WHAT?!!! how come a stranger just walk in my office,ask something and have penetrated something in me as fast as like that...amazing! hahah eh?weird...mamamatay na yata ako haha...well, ang ganda talaga ng morning ko, all of a sudden my sadness fade away... i dont know how that look in his eyes and his smile...i remember what my father just did this morning for me and my brother...oh my mamamatay na talaga ako haha freak...
so...back to business...ive managed to wake up early again...the 5th and the 6th morning mass...the message was the Annunciation of Mother Mary and her Visitation to her cousin Isabel...consecutively...
smoothly it goes well, but the mass this morning was like a test to everyone, the weather didnt quite well,slight rain showers during first reading...since we are outside the church,but still we have our own chairs, momma said to go inside it might fall off soon, so i did and its very hot inside, im sweating a lot like baldi baldi talaga hahaha kid! i was standing there inside, and after the priest conducted the final doxology we go out to where my momma was,by then the rain started to fall, but it didnt threaten us instead we just stand there and wait for the final blessing...i just love to be like this forever, yung walang sungay ang head ko haha
im so happy, i can fullfil my Chirstmas list...its not a wish list but its a list of things i wanna do to be bid farewell to this year...i can foresee that im doing my job well...hahahha keep it up keep it up...im cheering myself alone... dumbness ^^ well,im weird that cant be help...eh?...

piece of heaven...
read after to see the complements given to this one...oh heaven! hahaha 

Monday, December 19, 2011

3rd & 4th MORNING MASS KICK OFF!

the third and the fourth morning mass...
so far the sleepiest morning mass iv'e had was on the 3rd dawn...i just dont know why...at first i feel very warm,seems like its not dawn,and im sweating a lot...i ask my momma to move a lil bit further cause i cannot breath...and they were all laughing cause they feel cold and i was the only one sweating like hell hahah 
and after a couple of minutes i feel better...and the mass goes well...but there's something i notice during mass...
so the fourth morning mass was this morning... 
it goes well, also...but the thing is the something i was talking about the mass is that...the choir song choices...i just dont feel it...like, hello?!its Christmas so why dont we sang Christmas or Holy songs to praise each masses? no wonder people who attend the mass dont sang along with them, 'cause actually we dont know the songs...i was used with the old ways that during Christmas masses we sang song of holy and more lively christmas church song choices...
on my view, it only happens once in a year so why dont we give more to God, why can we choose nice songs without meaning to sang with our heart and lungs out full of nonsense...and when it comes to singing and giving praise Him for his birthday we settle for songs like its not an important event?...*sigh* 
im planning to tell my auntie to advice the choir so that they will sing christmas related praises just like what the Mnsgr. wanted and also to give respect to Him cause its his birthday not an ordinary occasion...
we have done it before why not now also?duh...really getting into my nerves a lil bit every time the priest finishes his part and so the people would sing, we dont know all the songs,and what more depressing about it is that you can really hear that the voices you can hear was them only...
i mean, the celebrant and the reason why we go to church is because of Jesus and to worship him,and give praises to Him...its not our place to shine its Him who really need the attention and needs our heads to turn to...not ourselves... thats very simple yet neglected...i was really nagging with all these stuffs and telling my momma and aunt and they agree hahah *devil smile*
and when you have these issues better to eat it all out...well, thats me when comforting myself hahahah yummy! you can order this at majestic,robinson...^^ feel free to dig it out...droll hahahahah

the cabs...lettuce + mushroom + bread + egg on top = H E A V E N baby!

Friday, December 16, 2011

2ND MORNING MASS '11 AND ITS LESSONS

Angels... are mythical beings often depicted as messenger of God on the Hebrew and Christian Bible and  Quran, also ive read on a certain Christian site that Angels are pure spirits created by God...the word ANGEL comes from the Greek word "angelos" which means messenger...and they have specific given characteristics and values to elaborate more further these beings...well, iv'e come up with this because i saw the modeled manger in our church this morning that the only statue that stands in our church manger is the angel...and it was also discuss to us people in the church before the mass ended that our church committee  lacks fund for purchasing the manger that should be used during mass...before it was really a routine that the statue of the saints will be used for the manger,but the church ministers dont allow it now,cause the risk of using the real one's is maybe a hustle for them and they are just protecting and avoiding the real ones to be damaged...we just dont know what could have happen in the future...we cant be perfect anytime, eh...^^ so thats great that the administration also tell the people so that we can contribute for the manger and for the church also...
well,back to the mass, this morning it rains so hard here in Cebu...but it didnt stop me from attending the mass...3 am im very wide awake, and i started to send mms to my friends, this is really my devotion to them,i will be their alarm clock whenever they are in the country...and hopefully they are not annoyed whenever they receive my morning message...haha and i decide on this alone huh...some gave some response like 'WOAH ITS TOO EARLY!' "YOU REALLY SURE COMPLETING THE MASS HA"...
well,that cant be help... ☻

♥______________A  BOWL  OF  HAPPINESS FROM HEAVEN________________♥


please read more...so you'll know the whole story of todays mass...☻ thank you! i put the break here cause i dont know where to put the foodie...^^ hehe yum yum yum!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

FIRST MORNING MASS BEFORE CHRISTMAS ♥

this is one of the most memorable morning mass ive had...because for the first time...haha the mass was pause for almost 20 minutes,to give way to the Mnsgr./priest , the mass was about to reach its end, when suddenly before the peace be with you part, he was gone and haha i wasl ike, momma,where is he?Missing?...then i chuckle a bit...momma said,he goes to the CR...oh goodness hahaha ...well, thats the funny part but i also appreciate and overwhelmed with the neighborhood,the church was jam-packed this morning...im happy that people in our town didn't forget to attend the mass...and i hope to my self that i can finish this through out Christmas,and to continue what iv'e always done by the past few years...^^ 

IM SO EXCITED!...♥ ♥ ♥

and maybe tonight i will start buying my gifts for everyone...i feel awesome, cause i know i can share some happiness...we all know material things cant buy real happiness...but being able to feel that the real gift i wanna give this Christmas is that, what i really actually wanted to give them,they feel it right now...and im glad iv'e so rounded by good people...simple,yet honest enough to let you feel comfortable that your effort are not wasted...

at this time of the season...its very weird that im always a cry baby...^^ oh yeah, when i think of something right now, i always feel like crying...not because im sad...its because im always overwhelmed... thank God, the pain has faded perfectly without hurting myself...the hurt has faded but the love and happiness brought by it remains untouchable...maybe this is sounds weird...but its a matter of choice...i can see im no one compared to him, and that drives me to left the feelings behind and buried it there...soundless...they may think im such a coward...but to live in a country like ours who value so much dignity...maybe iv'e made it right to just keep it myself...its not easy but its cool cause it makes me push my self more further, take more risk on making decisions so i can help myself be better enough for the future...not to be better enough for someone...but to give credit to myself for such a pity now...hahahah revenge revenge! kidding aside, i haven't buy the Christmas tree , hah my momma reminded me this morning...before, when the first morning mass approaching we already have our xmas tree in our sala...but now i dont know the people were so busy doing nonsense with my self also...^^ but i will buy it tonight...stress...hahaha
so everybody! good luck to your Christmas welcoming...love love love ♥

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EGGPLANT  CHIPS  ↑
this is very addicting... again... what iv'e eat is a piece of heaven...awts...super shallowness of my happiness ...hahha i love food...

DELICIOSO!...

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

SOUL INCARNATES TO A BOOK...

morning mass is just a day away...oh my!its Christmas time...
today,iv'e look back how my year goes...then i was amaze on realizing that it feels like yesterday when we celebrate Christmas,then its here again....after its a new year to face...this morning my momma got the calendar in my bag for 2012,then she go directly to see if what day my birthday will fall...then she look for my brother birthday then on papa's birthday then her birthday...i can see on her face amazed knowing next year will be a leap year...oh yeah...she said..."so your Tito will have his birth day now!the calendar has a 29!on February...haha " i dont know if shes excited or shes just making fun when she said that hahaha oh momma!!!
well, im happy today because i can see people around me are feeling light...i can see their happiness reflects on their faces...and they were all doing well...
i wish Christmas in the Philippines now wont be rainy as before...i thought rain showers during Christmas mass blessing...but dont like it if it pour heavy just like before...^^ i pitied the babies carried by their parents , it adds the burdens but honestly i dont see it angers them or pissing them off...you can only see the excitement ,the thoughts of HEY TS CHRISTMAS!...MERRY CHRISTMAS!...HI HOW ARE YOU?MERRY CHRISTMAS...
they say,Christmas in the Philippines  is very festive , and i agree! its one of my favorite celebrations in the country...family gathers together and the happiness and the magic our natives have is very unexplainable...

as i was pausing everything im writing a while ago...i bump unto Teacher Mots blog post...hahah cant stop laughing...well, far from the topic...i want to add something on my Christmas list...im planing to segregate my things after Christmas...then i notice something my books...i want to have the book i want again...the one that i have before,i gave it to our college proof...and i miss reading the story...
NOTHING LAST FOREVER...- SIDNEY SHELDON

“You have two choices. you can keep running and hiding and blaming the world for your problems, or you can stand up for yourself and decide to be somebody important.”
― Sidney SheldonNothing Lasts Forever


shes my idol in writing...iv'e looked in stores just to have a copy of that book, before iv'e seen one, but i dont have money that time...and when i looked at it again, it was sold, the store was having a sale...goodness!
this is the exact book ive had before

Monday, December 12, 2011

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...

S  I  S  I  G
this past few days...i was feeling a little dope, haha ya know mr.friend calls me again then want to meet up on our friends house so we can plan for our Christmas party...i think i was able to hide my feelings very very good enough...i stay away from him so he wont see my face...sometimes i take some glimpse on him,then haha i dont look at him...im afraid i was blushing inside...even if my body aches so much...i still finds myself walking out our door making my way to the said venue...im doing this for them,and maybe i just want to see him...that was very weird eh?...im kinda back on track again...the feeling of awakening from a deep sleep...
well, maybe some things cant be controlled by us...and maybe ill forget about this ...
Christmas is just 12 days to go from now...i myself never knew it will gone so fast haha actually its hardly sinking in my thoughts...i was like "gosh!when will i start buying gifts for my love ones"
today iv'e scolded my self...i forgot my keys to my office...oh goodness...so when i arrive , i decided to go back at the house...of all the things i could have left without me,why the keys?!!!!
im very upset about this...maybe im just over thinking everything this past few days and so i was left so stupid and absent minded this couple of days...im thinking about the audit iv'e made...thank goodness iv'e receive a call and my work were correct! if it wasn't i dont know what should i do about it...
this has been the reason why im worried and so absent minded...im afraid i may not done it well...and im relieve after getting the info this morning...

...ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...
...HOW ABOUT YOU?...

Friday, December 9, 2011

TURNS UPSIDE DOWN...O_o

...i cant barely explain how my body aches so much right now...but still need to go to work...
iv'e shed my tears every time my upper back aches...i find myself biting my lips cause it hurts so much...cant wait to go home...i know...ive over used my body...but this time im really afraid...T_T  
afraid that this might be serious...iv'e known this for a long time, and i just neglected this...
maybe i should give myself a credit...im planing to go for a rest tomorrow...maybe a massage will make this feel better...

im encoding right now, and i cant turn around my neck...i dont have stiff neck but my upper back is very sore up to the edge of my nape...wow its very painful man! i want to leave for today, but i cant just left behind my work for today...theres work to be done...and tons of it! sakit talaga...this is the first time iv'e had this...and i dont know whats the reason for this...when i woke up this morning, twas like 5 in the morning , i was awakened due to the pain when i was about to move my body... so i lend my lower back to the other side so that i can push my body to get up...i feel so crippled... then i decided to take a walk outside...my brother ask me why i get up so early...i told him nothing...i dont want him burden this, malayo lang naman  to sa bituka...i dont want to distract him from studying...its his exam today...so i hope he gets the test done...maybe...of all the people around me, only him could make me take my life just for him..thats how important my brother is to me...i dont mind working just to support him, iv'e given half of my life just to help him, no regrets at all...even if i used too much everything iv'e learn just to give him and help him prepared for his life i will always openly do it...he maybe know i work hard for him, but he doesnt know how i sacrifice a lot for him...i can see naman his giving me credits...he respects me...his my only brother so i will fought a fight just for him...oh my! im so emotional when it comes to him..i dont ask anything from him...all im hoping is that he finish his studies...and thats all, when his over that he can do what he want...im laways here to guide him no matter ...

.gosh...im multi-tasking right now...encoding and blogging...^^ while my other hand is on the phone...haha pity myself...work overload weekend!...
this is why i love working...i can do what are the things and stuff people expect youre good to...and you also know that you are needed and your important on such aspect...i hope i can give justice to my report now...^^ well i need to go for now...i will just leave a short something ^^
this is my lunchy...

Thursday, December 8, 2011

WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE...

there's nothing so important on todays page of my life...its been 5 days already and still the rain hasn't stop...
hoping for next week that it wont rain during morning mass...if i can recall its still clear on my memory that the past 3 years Christmas eve's were rainy...
it cant be help...pacific countries always have this climate during the last quarters of the month...December is yet the coldest month...^^ 

last night i watched the-x-factor-usa... i love Melanie Amaro and Cris Rene...for some, they might ask y? for a person like me...who loves music and music really is flowing from my very veins...i can totally understand the emotions how they feel when they sang their songs last night...i was teary eyed when Cris sang his last song choice during the last part... and this is not the first time...he really is inspiring...while Melanie whose my bet ever since... gave me goosebumps... shes amazing!...im very hooked to singing competitions...specially foreign ones...maybe because they dont cheat on results and they dont have favoritism... they really give credits to talents...so sad we have lots of amazing talents in the country but overshadowed by personal capabilities...
so the results was given last night...and its Rachel Crow who bid goodbye...cant believe shes out already...next week is their semi final performance...so down to four...its gonna be tough! and im excited about it...

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

A LIST TO CHILL FOR A WHILE

true about  it...its been a roller coaster ride for me the whole year round... or should i say after i graduated college...'twas all worth it...have the long awaited freedom to do some things you wanted when  im still studying,mostly the stuffs that torn my heart a million times cause i was deprive from it...all the sore was all worth it...got my job...super cool, your earning for yourself, gotta help the family also...people whom you didn't know to last were the ones who lasted and never held back even on their thoughts...thanks to all of them! im looking forward to see them randomly year after year beyond today...
i wish this Christmas would be special...really hope so...

my Christmas wish...list ^^ that i barely stick on to...
1. complete the morning mass routine , just like what i am doing for the past years...

2. i wanna be more happy and continue to carry it on welcoming the new year...

3. wish to spend the last days of the year to friends and family...the ones who gonna come from other place and the ones who will eventually fly for a greener pasture...

4. hope i can give more love to the people whom i owe   the attention and great things...and hopefully i wont forget anyone whom i will send my gifts..though i forget always...^^

5. i hope i am well on that day so that i can last the time needed to all the events i will be into this holiday...

lastly...i want us all to have a merry merry Christmas with our family...and just enjoy! God is the reason...

 i stop making resolutions and Christmas list , cause i cannot do it...i always ended up failed... then when i look back now, im amaze! cause probably some was not a fail...just like going to the mass...im always present even if im sooo sleeeeeeeppppppyyyyy i always scold myself, then get up...chill for a while then i find myself setting in the church waiting for the priest to start the mass, and during masses i dont feel any drowsy at all...im always very awake...lolz! ^^
rambling...at the office

Monday, December 5, 2011

...NEVER SAW IT COMING...

... i never really saw it coming....never even in my presumption...never foresee that one of those days i'd broke down like that...like down in the dumps... but  thanks God im a far cry about it already...wow bilis ^^
im inspired...by who? not who...but why...yeah...the reason im inspired is that someone made me realize something so important in my life and i left it behind...put it in a closet and bury it there for such a long time...what was it?...im talking about my unfinished songs...no one knows i love writing songs,poems,stories that was before when i was not that busy,still a dorky student back in college and my best friends would hangout in the cafeteria then make some melody for my songs...that was all fun...i love reading...i never saw this before that one day i will forgot about my abilities...
then my favorite blogger / writer / artist...lets name him...he is Teacher Mots...weird name yeah...but thats how artist tag themselves... he inspires me a lot, not the typical inspiration that emerged right away...i know im so hard to please but this man is such gifted that i dont know how to elaborate him more further...maybe his far different from my idol in painting Mr. Aris...and my uncle whom an artist also they both well known on their field right now...Mr.Aris inspired me to write more songs, while my uncle is my idol when it comes to discipline, dedication, work oriented and more blah blah blah...^^ but Mr. Mots specialize on something...his cathcy...his on a comical basis...and he approach children...his a teacher anyways ^^ haha  and i like how he express his love for his mother Mrs.Mudrax...super COOL!

i forgot also the purpose somehow this past few days the intention and purpose of my blog...maybe because i was too carried awat with my damn emotions...haha darn i forgot my tag line
 'THERE'S MORE TO LIFE MAN!' ...
Howdy of me...now im super back on track not just the word okay but far far far from that day full of stupidity ^^ my respects for teachers intensifies more and more each time i read his blog post..well if he post something very rated PG haha its his choice its his blog kinda learn from him...eh? yeah, im not used reading or hearing those words from my environment but i can hear it somewhere else, even in a bunch of friends, and my usual response is to be just quite and smile...what more can i say? im just telling you my friends that im okay now...no more l.o.v.e emote...that is so not cool...and very not me...
a home made bread...

ADIóS! HELLO ICECREAM

even if the whole universe conspires no one can stop Christmas!
i am randomly thinking about what and where should i have my christmas list...need to purchase it...im such a busy fella, because? is it escaping from the real world? na-ah! not that reason...i keep myself busy as i could so i wont feel the pressure being alone and maybe im over thinking stuffs that is why im sickly lately...can i just say one bad word? hhhuuuuussssshhhh damnit!
this is all i wanna say...maybe this is the first time im using this? well well well i cant help it...my head is so full right now...plus the fact i really need to dump that damn feeling! i just knew yesterday he already have someone on his heart and im so stupid for feeling so sorry to myself! but i know i can move on from this damn so called first love...what? yeah! got that right! on my 21 years of existence in the universe...iv'e never love someone before...maybe iv'e admire guys before but its not counted because i only admire artist from Hollywood a big booooooo! to myself...  wanna trim my hair like before when im depressed because i cant go out outing with my cousins and cant attend college intramural during my junior year cause its very late already and my father is not feeling the earth vives that time and his monstrous when he say's NO!CANT GO!...
THE FAMOUS WARM BROWNIE CUP -  LA MAREA IN CEBU 


Sunday, December 4, 2011

DECIPHERING THE TRUE VALUE

Morning!...maybe this will be the longest post i will be writing...its all in here...iv'e think about it last night...and the reason why iv;e slept so early haha i think its just 6:45 pm and wooossssh i crawl to my bed and slept so early, and ended up waking so late...cuddle with my blanket ^^ i wake up today at 7:35 am! and i was like WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH IM LATE!
thanks to my momma she woke me up! 
time really flows by so fast that we wont know we've grown so much...mentally, physically and emotionally... indeed! realize so much...about all the things i should have thought before... i dont write annoying things here because im not the kind of person who talk about sad or things that are sooooooooo negative... i dont want negative vives... even when im dealing on the daily basis  it can be seen on me, i dont want negative stuffs...im also very transparent on some ways, but i also managed to hide the true me...yeah im transparent on some ways but neither of that transparency helps other people to know me, i didn't know if there's one person who truly understand my swings and wants in life...before i have someone who understand me a lot and she knows exactly who am i, but then she flew away from us...shes my bestfriend...and i treasure everything i can recall of her...then as i was dealing with my self, then i graduate from school, and so i got my job now...
i erase the line that i should have post here...maybe because there are things left unsaid...^^ 
i have shared here about my love life...it was a total regal moment for me, because for the first time i was in love! but then that was not the main point...my cousins didn't allow me to feel that...but they cant dictate what someone should feel towards someone...but then i understand them cause they were just worried  about me feeling sorry for myself...you know also that the person i love dont know i have feelings towards him....and his my friend, so they were worried i might get used to the new feeling iv'e been trough...on the other hand iv'e over come it the day after i burst out of motions...hahah that was also very unforgetable, like i was so in love with the person yesterday then given up the chance today...and totally forget about it in the future...

Friday, December 2, 2011

LATE POSTED...BITS OF THE SHATTERED PIECE

"Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year , to save from tears
I'll give it to someone special"

i was then relieve, as i was reading the comical blog from one of my favorite blooger...his a teacher...his really COOL! not just the word on its sense but his really is something!his 24 and his very TALENTED! i have my screaming tonsils because of his works, before i was not interested on his blog post,i thought Mudrax was his wife, i ended up embarrassing myself again, so typically she was his MOM after all...how was that eh?...
i kinda find him Awesome because before, iv'e been torn apart on choosing a course my ever love Teaching or taking Information Tech. then i ended up enrolling on the 2nd one...i really like his art and works...specially the lessons on his funny comical post...his an artist...a truly one in nature and its true sense...im looking forward for his next post...his driving me crazy a lil'bit , it takes my boredom...i was like , cant stop laughing reading on his blog...its somehow my MEDICATION...nice!!!!
far cry from that, on the pacific view ^^ i can almost count from my fingers the days before Christmas, why cant i stop talking about it, eh? hmmm, i envy my friend, he now reach his goal, to find a partner...Lolz! but i dont take it as pressure...knowing i was left alone from the circle of friends WITHOUT a boyfriend...gosh...hahaha should i pressure myself? hmmm,bet no, my target is 27...yeah...as in when im 27 and im very old that time, and when that happens all those handsome pepz are gone, scared eh? KIDDING!
yeah maybe if Prince could have been here maybe it wont be a very bad idea...but my friend is far from here like he was on the other side of the world and im here on the Phil.s, i really dont think it will work and turn out okay... 
TAKES MY BOREDOM AWAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKAH KARRAH!...LOTS OF LOVE...

Hola!well hows your december starts?mine was good,its not that fine anyways because of my headache, but then i took aspirin to ease the pain...as whats prescription stated...and now i feel so much better than the past few days...i just dont know why lately iv'e been sickly...^^ a weakling... i can even scold then laugh at myself at the same time...i try to tell myself "hey!thats what you get when your saying goodbye and took the way as a vegetarian...haha" maybe but still it wont stop me from living healthy, maybe its true that my body is still adjusting and coping with the changes i took for the past 3 months...so i guess..there's no turning back now...^^ the only one lacking is going to the gym, really i love to do workouts even before but there's no time...and im so lame doing it... i always broke my promise...
now, i dont know if i still could do that this month...because im preparing already for the job hunting next year...yeah, thats true... i wanna took the road less taken, maybe its no good in here... but all my memories about here on my first job was worth keeping...the good and the worst of it...it all so damn but still iv'e learn how to deal on that...and iv'e learn lots of things from here...so bottom line its nice working here...

every Christmas i have my xmas-song every year...like the other year it was HARK THE HERALD... now my theme is LAST CHRISTMAS...its because i always hear it on the office, just like now, and the song really stuck on my head every time im away...^^ haha 
i cant explain my feeling everytime its December...for me its the month of holiness... people should deal with forgiveness...loving one another...charity...cheerful ambiance...i just love Christmas though...^^ 

Thursday, December 1, 2011

ADIóS NOVIEMBRE...HOLA DICIEMBRE

its been a great December 1st ,to all...the sky gives its blessing to all of us...early this morning it rains...
not that heavy , twas more on rain showers...and as to my friend, it was something blessing from the skies...
a friend of myself that calls me big sis! yeah, and i call him Bro! i like to talk about stuffs im dealing with because he had lots of opinions to share with...we sometimes debate on something, and he ended up loosing...because i dont give up, and when he feels im getting intense he will say...OH GOD,I RAN OUT OF ENGLISH SIS...then he would laugh...his very smart...and if his confused about his work, we will then send me all his thesis and reports for his school papers then he would ask me to read all of that...i was like...WHAAAT? ALL OF THIS? his such a big pain on the head haha but i like his way on approaching and expressing himself on me...i know i was some kind of a person who's very hard to deal with...but he always fight with me so he could understand me, then he will make me laugh at his most awful joke...wanna know what was it? oh yeah it goes like this...'' I'LL FIND A GOOD MAN FOR YOU!SO YOU CAN HAVE A LOVE LIFE"...that makes me laugh...im thinking to myself that when my friends tells me that same lines. what were they thinking? am i that super pitiful person so i need to have a love life?...haha they just dont know...they were all funny...trying to find someone who would suits me, as they say they want to find my counterpart...eh?