3rd & 4th MORNING MASS KICK OFF!

the third and the fourth morning mass...

so far the sleepiest morning mass iv'e had was on the 3rd dawn...i just dont know why...at first i feel very warm,seems like its not dawn,and im sweating a lot...i ask my momma to move a lil bit further cause i cannot breath...and they were all laughing cause they feel cold and i was the only one sweating like hell hahah 

and after a couple of minutes i feel better...and the mass goes well...but there's something i notice during mass...

so the fourth morning mass was this morning... 

it goes well, also...but the thing is the something i was talking about the mass is that...the choir song choices...i just dont feel it...like, hello?!its Christmas so why dont we sang Christmas or Holy songs to praise each masses? no wonder people who attend the mass dont sang along with them, 'cause actually we dont know the songs...i was used with the old ways that during Christmas masses we sang song of holy and more lively christmas church song choices...

on my view, it only happens once in a year so why dont we give more to God, why can we choose nice songs without meaning to sang with our heart and lungs out full of nonsense...and when it comes to singing and giving praise Him for his birthday we settle for songs like its not an important event?...*sigh* 

im planning to tell my auntie to advice the choir so that they will sing christmas related praises just like what the Mnsgr. wanted and also to give respect to Him cause its his birthday not an ordinary occasion...

we have done it before why not now also?duh...really getting into my nerves a lil bit every time the priest finishes his part and so the people would sing, we dont know all the songs,and what more depressing about it is that you can really hear that the voices you can hear was them only...

i mean, the celebrant and the reason why we go to church is because of Jesus and to worship him,and give praises to Him...its not our place to shine its Him who really need the attention and needs our heads to turn to...not ourselves... thats very simple yet neglected...i was really nagging with all these stuffs and telling my momma and aunt and they agree hahah *devil smile*

and when you have these issues better to eat it all out...well, thats me when comforting myself hahahah yummy! you can order this at majestic,robinson...^^ feel free to dig it out...droll hahahahah

the cabs...lettuce + mushroom + bread + egg on top = H E A V E N baby!

DECIPHERING THE TRUE VALUE

Morning!...maybe this will be the longest post i will be writing...its all in here...iv'e think about it last night...and the reason why iv;e slept so early haha i think its just 6:45 pm and wooossssh i crawl to my bed and slept so early, and ended up waking so late...cuddle with my blanket ^^ i wake up today at 7:35 am! and i was like WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH IM LATE!

thanks to my momma she woke me up! 

time really flows by so fast that we wont know we've grown so much...mentally, physically and emotionally... indeed! realize so much...about all the things i should have thought before... i dont write annoying things here because im not the kind of person who talk about sad or things that are sooooooooo negative... i dont want negative vives... even when im dealing on the daily basis  it can be seen on me, i dont want negative stuffs...im also very transparent on some ways, but i also managed to hide the true me...yeah im transparent on some ways but neither of that transparency helps other people to know me, i didn't know if there's one person who truly understand my swings and wants in life...before i have someone who understand me a lot and she knows exactly who am i, but then she flew away from us...shes my bestfriend...and i treasure everything i can recall of her...then as i was dealing with my self, then i graduate from school, and so i got my job now...

i erase the line that i should have post here...maybe because there are things left unsaid...^^ 

i have shared here about my love life...it was a total regal moment for me, because for the first time i was in love! but then that was not the main point...my cousins didn't allow me to feel that...but they cant dictate what someone should feel towards someone...but then i understand them cause they were just worried  about me feeling sorry for myself...you know also that the person i love dont know i have feelings towards him....and his my friend, so they were worried i might get used to the new feeling iv'e been trough...on the other hand iv'e over come it the day after i burst out of motions...hahah that was also very unforgetable, like i was so in love with the person yesterday then given up the chance today...and totally forget about it in the future...