FELIZ ANIVERSARIO ♥ ♥ ♥

the 6th and the 7th morning mass...2 more to go! wow i am proud as my mother to myself right now, cause iv'e fulfilled my promises and list to end the year smoothly and Godly...and finish and complete the 9 morning mass for Christmas...it was something very important to me...not because of the wish they said cause i dont believe on that ^^ it means to me a lot , as a Christian we are oblige to do the mass...whole heartedly haha im not a very good follower of God but im not bad also...i hope, people with too much for this season will  enjoy Christmas but remember also the people who just lost their love one's because of the ts sendong...we donated yesterday some goods, and the clothes are set to be donated also...i wanna encourage some bloggers to please donate stuffs, your LITTLE something is a BIG THING for those people...actually, i dont wanna talk about it here because i dont know if someone reads my blog, but this past few days i have some friends already that are more influential on blogging, maybe they drop some glimpse on my blog and hopefully they read this also, specially ORANGE WIT...Teacher Mots...i hope they will spread the news to be open and more helpful to fellow countrymen..from this...i remember why i started blogging again...well, wala na ako masabi...end of the story cause i dont wanna dig in more, we all know already what to do...
i hope these lyrics will mean something to every Filipino nowadays...:
When Santa's flyin' in his magic sleigh 
Goes all around the world in just a day
from the north pole to the southern tip
he makes his trip with LOVE to give away...hear him say:
ITS CHRISTMAS ALL OVER
THE WORLD TONIGHT

on the lighter side...its my Anniversary! yepey! i am so very much happy haha with 5 followers! its many eh?...indeed! it doesn't matter they were one of the best anyways...and people like them inspires me more...
i hope i dont spoil my self today its not a big day for anybody but for myself it is...i gain friends, i learn from them, iv'e learn something you wouldn't learn from school, work or at home...it will cost a lot to give up on blogging, i maybe not commenting on post where i follow, but that doesn't mean i dont read them, it is just sometimes im stunned by what i have read...haha like,where on hell these people came from? and thank goodness until now from then, i still enjoy the magic of blogging and reading blogs and understanding more people, and learning more the real faces of the phase of the world...thank God iv'e never quit blogging...or else iv'e lose a part so important right now...at least haha i have 5 followers...well i can give a damn to these people their awesome! so please celebrate with me today! lets eat some cakes...O_o yum yum yummmmmmmy!

ang sarap!meron then itong other version the mallow is inside and it will melt and pp out outside oh my!

2ND MORNING MASS '11 AND ITS LESSONS

Angels... are mythical beings often depicted as messenger of God on the Hebrew and Christian Bible and  Quran, also ive read on a certain Christian site that Angels are pure spirits created by God...the word ANGEL comes from the Greek word "angelos" which means messenger...and they have specific given characteristics and values to elaborate more further these beings...well, iv'e come up with this because i saw the modeled manger in our church this morning that the only statue that stands in our church manger is the angel...and it was also discuss to us people in the church before the mass ended that our church committee  lacks fund for purchasing the manger that should be used during mass...before it was really a routine that the statue of the saints will be used for the manger,but the church ministers dont allow it now,cause the risk of using the real one's is maybe a hustle for them and they are just protecting and avoiding the real ones to be damaged...we just dont know what could have happen in the future...we cant be perfect anytime, eh...^^ so thats great that the administration also tell the people so that we can contribute for the manger and for the church also...

well,back to the mass, this morning it rains so hard here in Cebu...but it didnt stop me from attending the mass...3 am im very wide awake, and i started to send mms to my friends, this is really my devotion to them,i will be their alarm clock whenever they are in the country...and hopefully they are not annoyed whenever they receive my morning message...haha and i decide on this alone huh...some gave some response like 'WOAH ITS TOO EARLY!' "YOU REALLY SURE COMPLETING THE MASS HA"...

well,that cant be help... ☻

♥______________A  BOWL  OF  HAPPINESS FROM HEAVEN________________♥

please read more...so you'll know the whole story of todays mass...☻ thank you! i put the break here cause i dont know where to put the foodie...^^ hehe yum yum yum!

FIRST MORNING MASS BEFORE CHRISTMAS ♥

this is one of the most memorable morning mass ive had...because for the first time...haha the mass was pause for almost 20 minutes,to give way to the Mnsgr./priest , the mass was about to reach its end, when suddenly before the peace be with you part, he was gone and haha i wasl ike, momma,where is he?Missing?...then i chuckle a bit...momma said,he goes to the CR...oh goodness hahaha ...well, thats the funny part but i also appreciate and overwhelmed with the neighborhood,the church was jam-packed this morning...im happy that people in our town didn't forget to attend the mass...and i hope to my self that i can finish this through out Christmas,and to continue what iv'e always done by the past few years...^^ 

IM SO EXCITED!...♥ ♥ ♥

and maybe tonight i will start buying my gifts for everyone...i feel awesome, cause i know i can share some happiness...we all know material things cant buy real happiness...but being able to feel that the real gift i wanna give this Christmas is that, what i really actually wanted to give them,they feel it right now...and im glad iv'e so rounded by good people...simple,yet honest enough to let you feel comfortable that your effort are not wasted...

at this time of the season...its very weird that im always a cry baby...^^ oh yeah, when i think of something right now, i always feel like crying...not because im sad...its because im always overwhelmed... thank God, the pain has faded perfectly without hurting myself...the hurt has faded but the love and happiness brought by it remains untouchable...maybe this is sounds weird...but its a matter of choice...i can see im no one compared to him, and that drives me to left the feelings behind and buried it there...soundless...they may think im such a coward...but to live in a country like ours who value so much dignity...maybe iv'e made it right to just keep it myself...its not easy but its cool cause it makes me push my self more further, take more risk on making decisions so i can help myself be better enough for the future...not to be better enough for someone...but to give credit to myself for such a pity now...hahahah revenge revenge! kidding aside, i haven't buy the Christmas tree , hah my momma reminded me this morning...before, when the first morning mass approaching we already have our xmas tree in our sala...but now i dont know the people were so busy doing nonsense with my self also...^^ but i will buy it tonight...stress...hahaha
so everybody! good luck to your Christmas welcoming...love love love ♥

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EGGPLANT  CHIPS  ↑

this is very addicting... again... what iv'e eat is a piece of heaven...awts...super shallowness of my happiness ...hahha i love food...

DELICIOSO!... ♥

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...

S  I  S  I  G

this past few days...i was feeling a little dope, haha ya know mr.friend calls me again then want to meet up on our friends house so we can plan for our Christmas party...i think i was able to hide my feelings very very good enough...i stay away from him so he wont see my face...sometimes i take some glimpse on him,then haha i dont look at him...im afraid i was blushing inside...even if my body aches so much...i still finds myself walking out our door making my way to the said venue...im doing this for them,and maybe i just want to see him...that was very weird eh?...im kinda back on track again...the feeling of awakening from a deep sleep...

well, maybe some things cant be controlled by us...and maybe ill forget about this ...

Christmas is just 12 days to go from now...i myself never knew it will gone so fast haha actually its hardly sinking in my thoughts...i was like "gosh!when will i start buying gifts for my love ones"
today iv'e scolded my self...i forgot my keys to my office...oh goodness...so when i arrive , i decided to go back at the house...of all the things i could have left without me,why the keys?!!!!
im very upset about this...maybe im just over thinking everything this past few days and so i was left so stupid and absent minded this couple of days...im thinking about the audit iv'e made...thank goodness iv'e receive a call and my work were correct! if it wasn't i dont know what should i do about it...
this has been the reason why im worried and so absent minded...im afraid i may not done it well...and im relieve after getting the info this morning...

...ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...
...HOW ABOUT YOU?...

A LIST TO CHILL FOR A WHILE

true about  it...its been a roller coaster ride for me the whole year round... or should i say after i graduated college...'twas all worth it...have the long awaited freedom to do some things you wanted when  im still studying,mostly the stuffs that torn my heart a million times cause i was deprive from it...all the sore was all worth it...got my job...super cool, your earning for yourself, gotta help the family also...people whom you didn't know to last were the ones who lasted and never held back even on their thoughts...thanks to all of them! im looking forward to see them randomly year after year beyond today...

i wish this Christmas would be special...really hope so...

my Christmas wish...list ^^ that i barely stick on to...

1. complete the morning mass routine , just like what i am doing for the past years...

2. i wanna be more happy and continue to carry it on welcoming the new year...

3. wish to spend the last days of the year to friends and family...the ones who gonna come from other place and the ones who will eventually fly for a greener pasture...

4. hope i can give more love to the people whom i owe   the attention and great things...and hopefully i wont forget anyone whom i will send my gifts..though i forget always...^^

5. i hope i am well on that day so that i can last the time needed to all the events i will be into this holiday...

lastly...i want us all to have a merry merry Christmas with our family...and just enjoy! God is the reason...

 i stop making resolutions and Christmas list , cause i cannot do it...i always ended up failed... then when i look back now, im amaze! cause probably some was not a fail...just like going to the mass...im always present even if im sooo sleeeeeeeppppppyyyyy i always scold myself, then get up...chill for a while then i find myself setting in the church waiting for the priest to start the mass, and during masses i dont feel any drowsy at all...im always very awake...lolz! ^^

rambling...at the office

Konnichiwa ^^

Im hear again! Konnichiwa ^^

Although i've been missing for quite a couple of days...ive been visiting regularly to my blog and to my favorite blog sites... the most common reason i can give is that im busy with work + im spending some time to myself to settle things ive never thought ive used to deal with all along, well its not exactly it should be but ive seen it so special to be left aside... sometimes decisions are made to pursue and to let go, it may really affect everything in our lives. I can say i have lived my life the way i wanted to think, i haven't seen this before from where i situated myself today, its kind'a Enchanted to me sometimes, how was that huh? ... + all the effort to do something for the family im so attached to + to the events i should cherish to let them happy + the most fun is i've been happily doing what really makes me happy aside from the music, i've been busy also watching movies lately... + im thinking too much ^^  a total of = blog absences hah ^^ 

When i was young, i was learning to speak Japanese and i understand a little Niponggo and Mandarin...

I had this book from my Lola with all the Japanese word, and i try it every time i see something that describes the word and use it on a phrase... but i forgot about learning Japanese word as long as im growing up, so i ended up knowing just a lil'bit of it... 

Itadakimaso is also a Japanese word, i use it when i eat outside the house, like eating out with other members of the family, with my friends or even having out for myself, i use it when i eat and giving thanks to God for all the blessings and graces he has given to me and to my family...

Lately, ive been feeling ill of all thats been happening, it may be very simple from the previous events to tell things up, but all situation has its own ways on divulging out of the blue, ^^ maybe at this time, i got a more serious weighing to begin with, so i will shut my mouth eventually, but knowing me...^^ one of my post i will probably tell the story to share... i just hope things will gone smoothly...

Have you ever thought that October is such a fast month? i was like Oh! its almost the end of the month, yet without knowing it, i forgot its almost November and December is coming very very very soon... 

Its a TRICK OR TREAT everybody! ... when November strikes, all im excited about is that i can spend and go to cemetery just the way we celebrate it just like before and the second reason why im excited about November is that theres a special place i will go when second of November comes, i will got to see my Lolo, cousins and friends from the town my heart attached with... im super excited, i haven't realize how we grow so fast that the gap is getting wider every year because of the changes...

well the excitement im feeling is not changing a bit yet its getting more and more stronger to experience the event every year, im looking forward to go their every year... its so special to me...

the adrenaline rush is ranging heavily...

moreover, i wanna say advance HAPPY HALLOWEEN everybody...^^

CREEPY - PART III the epic fall

actually im feeling ecstatic right now...one of my client bashed me on the phone... how sad  T_T

shes so silly, its not my fault in the first place, she shouldn't nag to someone if she even know both of us hasn't the problem... i wanna screw that womans mouth grrrrrrr this has been second from today, im shaking from tiptoe to my fingertips... i cant even directly answer the question their making me sick... they should know im not the one who is en charge unto that, the thing is the upper management rules are not quite effective, i just dont want to be bashed out in the phone, it really makes me depressing... *sigh*

if i had only 100 years to live... i will sure that everyday is a worthy day of existence, that in a little way, i can help, i can work, i can spend time with my family, spend time with close friends, let people happy, and probably i want to see God in my last day walking on earth... i wanna share to others how God reminds me to open my soul rather than my eyes...listen through heart not just my ears...speak with wisdom not just tongue...and use my feeling of sense rather than just the heart... it sounds difficult , though that should be people must live within... cause that makes me happy all the time. there's no need for us to be lying down with money just to become happy, like i always say : there's more to life than that...God creation is one of the miracle we are living with everyday... those who think they are as high as the universe are so useless one...look at all those low profile people, their happiness are genuine compare to those rich people who limit their happiness... i agree that Money matters so much with our everyday dwelling but...because of that pathetic thoughts of us people we dont enjoy the real happiness life has to offer us because we think and do too much... as i believe , too much water will spill out, once it does it will shake the basin and sometimes it makes it weak then collapse...worst is to be destroyed... for me the word love is just a word, just like when you repeat it more often it will sounds like LOVELOVELOVELOVEVLAVLAVLAVLABLAHBLAH see? hehe its not a hypothesis , its somehow a fact  to me... i dont want to be a spoiler because as a person i also love someone... but if you are really one of my reader throughout my life, you would have already known that when it comes to love... i had this rare impression and understanding when it comes to this one of a kind feeling... and i will say it again...

For me LOVE has more deeper meaning than loving someone... its the feeling that someone feels for the people they care about, it doesnt mean, you like someone to be your partner when you say you love the person... it has to be more then love... that is what im trying to seek to someone, when it comes to love... love sometimes is the reason why others hurt, they say, you wont understand the hurt if you wont experience it, but for me its different, why need to be hurt when you deserve to be happy? i just dont get the logic about what other people think about this stuff but i dont mind it at all... its not my cup of tea... there are only few people whom i love the most... : my parents...brother...cousins... best friend...my dog...food and music...specially God who never get tired listening to my life blues... we all have our flaws in life... i've said it back then so iwont elaborate things more deeper... ^^

if i got to live a 100 years as i have said, i will spend it to be more happy than being lonely(who wants to be lonely anyway ^^)... then love each day to live... eat more... laugh more... and  be more approachable than before...

i may sound awkward now because of the things i have said earlier but its real... i cant even think of anything that comes from my heart to write here... this may be the ending of my CREEPY part post...^^ im excited for Halloween...excited cause i know i can sleep whole day... knowing me hehe ^^ im such a sleepy head... sounds creepy but thats me sweetie ^^ 

just love to live life healthy and happy...Godbless creepiness...

rush of the moment

When i say pizza, it means i am dying inside to eat my favorite pure beef pizza overload, specially the mushrooms...oh my!it makes me drool a little bit... hmmm, i love cappuccino , its sort of my favorite drinks aside from soda, i just dont know why, well i was telling myself before that i will stop drinking soda, but i cant resist Coke & Pepsi when i saw them on the table sweating a lot just to open its cork hahahah its such a sinful habit that is really hard to break... but given that i dont resist the tempt given to me, this is because this year is gonna be my sinful year, i promise already that my next assignment is to be a vegetarian and complete my healthy lifestyle next year, so im giving all myself the chance to taste all the most delish sinful food that i love... because next year i will be a total risk to take, i make a bet to myself if i can do it, i will give my self anew phone because i dont give a damn having one even if i have i dont typically bring it outside the house, im just not into texting...calling neither... then if i dont make it i will scold myself and go to gym...

As i was so busy since this past 3 weeks already , the reason for this is im doing a book report... you got that right... oh man, i cant believe im doing this for a close friend... it gives me a headache... but im done already, despite of hectic schedule at work, busy with all the paper works in the office... i just get it done sweetie... the prize is a soda and a pizza... sadly, its not the pure beef over loaded... still thanks to my Chinese friend who's very vain with everything... he totally mesmerize me when i see him, his so scented and balmy every time we meet... his more than vain than me...his a pedant but his very nice, and gentleman...  we both a like about food... we love to eat, specially pizza and shawarma... have you notice i love beef? ... lulz ^^ here is the pizza check it out.

i feel guilty about what i did this morning so, im scolding myself right now for the attitude... i think i let my mama's feelings hurt, she took it the wrong way... i didnt meant to hurt and deliver the line as bad as she thinks... but i know she'll understand... im evil again... *sigh* huhu i will buy her fudge so she wont feel biiter of me when i got home tonight... my family had this close ties that others dont have, we are living simple, but happy, full of thoughts... my pap dont want me to be stubborn, mistake is a no no for him, maybe thats the reason why i have this prerogative  of mine in life... how they raise me is a precious gem they have ever given to me... im proud if they are with me, i love being around with them, some grown ups right nowadays, dont want to go with their parents because they say they are already grown enough, but it is contrast with me... 

i love to stroll with my parents, im such a homie... i love to go out with them, i love to spend more time with them ever than before...i love my parents...that i will give up everything just to make them happy... 

some may dont understand this but in life we decide and see life in different aspects, directions, decisions, weigh and meaning...

it just so happen that ...i have my own prerogative and i stand by what i believe i know i love doing regardless with people who cant understand that simply... ^^ 

still thanks to God, he never fail to remind me right from wrong...i admit i was wrong this morning...

i need to recover the loss and hurt i gave to my dear mama...

im not he kind of a person who shout, if i get pissed off by someone i simply dont talk and if im really gotten to my limit and exhausted...i will directly tell what i feel, that somehow make it worst because when i say something its really hard to the max... im cool but when i heated up, words can tore someone apart... thats the devilish side of me... but i can control my temper now... dont get me wrong, i dont say bad words i just simply talk nicely but will gotten worse the situation i think so... hehe 

A COVENANT TO GOD

Supposed, that i'll be looking back the ME a year ago up to at this very moment... I can say i just didnt advance a notch... actually, theres no trace of relevance, why? well, it may sound creep to other people, but for sure to people who read my blog, they somehow know a little bit from me...

Before,as u know, i was a stone pillar, there are things that i know i made the wrong decision with, and im happy i over come that fear... i can show a creepy smile because of that certain part of my life thats been a Total MESS for me...then after the year 2010 ended, at the first day of this year just dont know exactly the date already but after new year as i can recall i cane up to a realization that im messing too much with my life, i lied for too long to my family and to myself, so i decided to bring back who i used to be, i step out to the four corners of my room, and choose to live a healthy life and a happy life again, i admit i used to live a life full of lies just to cover up for somebody who i thought worth it all, i was too naive that time but then as people learn their lessons it will be easy to move on and accept that I AM WRONG and I FAILED in an area of my life... I once forget my covenant to God... 

I can still remember how i struggle in that stage... confused are everywhere... i choose to live life full of conformity due to my selfishness. I had a poor understanding of a family, i was once carried away by temptation of being free... i didn't wait... thanks to my parents, they raise me well... i grow and learn as a woman who i am today... i accept i was wrong before, they are wrong also but so am i... but it serve a lesson to me... 

I was not a woman who really chase love life... frankly, it doesn't move a bit of my nerve... my friends, cousins and close friends, they have their love life... but i dont feel the same way of longing like them, i dont remember falling in love before, but i remember admiring someone, my cousins used to tell me YOU'RE REALLY WEIRD! WHY CANT YOU FIND A BOYFRIEND? ! LOOK AT US! its all the same with my friends, they used to tell me the same line also over and over... i just laugh, cause i know whenever they strive to be someone else they can never be just like me... im proud of myself... that will be one of the few things i can brag about myself, my strong affirmation about my prerogative in life. having a relationship and being single is no big deal to me... i just dont know why, i only love one person and thats until now, even if its impossible but at most were happy , we both are! ^^ its not because im envious or anything about people who are over heals drop down because of their love for someone, they for me are so pathetic... given that im too much because of what i say, but i know what im saying... trust me haha ^^ parents are always good, and maturity is a thing... no need to rush and pressure self to get into relationship... i only love one person... and that will be the man God will give me... ^^ i found that already, but only God can tell, cause right now its not for real... there are a lot of things to work out...

i can put his face all over just to know and feel his closer than the flip side of the world, rather...^^

thank God im happy with the people i love... and i have a simple life... 

maybe is just a word... TO BE CONTINUED... ^^ 

God is always good...

God has been good to me, always listen to all the pain i shared with Him... he never thought selfishness...

at times when i was still learning and struggling and still catching up to life's speed-bumps. he was the only one who never question my worth... His the one who actually look after me, and always there to remind me, to just get up...move on...go on...dont hesitate... do what you ought to do... your one of my herd... your not alone... 

When i was still a student, i've said countless times that i cant do this anymore...cant go on... but still He gave me strength to fight forward, backing off is not a choice...

Its kind'a funny sometimes, because if i looked back, i know i've never been a good daughter, yah, im not bad but i know all what i've sacrifice for is still not enough to pay back for my parents... i cant still look into my fathers eye's, because once in my life, i've raised my voice unto him, that was when i was on the stage of being confused about how should i accept my adulthood, but after what happen, i appreciate more my father...i learn to think first before i speak,,, because what you have said already cant be erased... but the action to be acted can be control... thanks to my work, i got my coolness, before im really a brat... if i got angry i easily loose everything... i can loose my coolness in a snap... but now, i know how to handle myself more... im now patching the spaces i've made from my family, because before i used to be a loner i get myself contain in my room , i was a different person outside the house... i used o be emotional when alone, but strong if when with friends, so that may be the reason why they got me wrong sometimes because somehow i understand now that my true self cant be locked in a 4 sided wall of my room... i failed on showing the best of me... but all of that was a lesson to learn for me... im so lucky to have my family... as much as possible i wont go far away from them...and i know and appreciate my self...my achievements.. more... i've gain the confidence that was once i'd lost somehow in the space... and again...im so happy looking at to the people i know important to me... 

my family is my diploma... a piece of paper is just a paper... but the knowledge i have learn in school cant be stolen from me...its one piece thats been rooted far deep down in my being... im very happy i learn something in this world... if someday i might look back nowadays i can recall already what will be my reaction...hahah surely i will show that wide smile because i know what creepy stuffs I've done hahaha  im so happy at this point in my life, because my friends are happy with their achievements , their love life's...and hey! im the only one who have no love live...because my Prince is on another time zone of the world, too far...how sad hah ^^ kidding! either way... im happy ...thats the most important part... just live life the way it should be live...dont pretend to be someone else... live healthy specially... ^^

P R I N C E

ANOTHER DUCK FACE

so love of my life? 

... GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD... 

TRUST HIM AND LEARN TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR LIFE AS HE HAS ENTRUSTED US TO BE...AND ITS A ONCE IN A LIFE EXPERIENCE LIVING THIS LIFE... 

LIVE LIFE WISELY & GODLY... ^^

A TRIBUTE TO THE SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE

when i was all alone feeling all my blues in life this person reminds me i was worth something...

he achieve what i want in life, i dont want fame, but what i love about his personality is that he stand by what he thinks right and its inflexible...what he says , he will stand it...his workaholic...

i just dont love this person but i also admire his attitude towards life...his unreachable...but despite all of that achievements he still manage to make people smile...he really is something to me...

i was dreaming about that day looking at the Eiffel tower with this man...its impossible now...but his my hero...my heart belongs to God...my family...my music and craft...and to people like my bestfriends...and to someone like this man... his cool for me, you cant hear him brag about something...i love him cooking his favorite food...making the coffee he wants...drinking soda but not too much...his vain... 

i edit his pictures way back...this is all i had from him...thanks man! your all the way awesome...its been a very long time since i saw you...thanks for all the achievements... this is a tribute i miss seeing you...

P R I N C E

duck face

one of the funniest i ever saw in your face

the way i live my lfie

i can say im a woman who love to travel...enjoy music (it is one thing that cant be pulled out of myself) , loves movies (foreign movies ) , love sports, enjoy arts, pastime is singing when bored, a homey woman and would go out if i want to stroll on malls looking for food, depressed on shoes, super love eating...love to watch NBA...yeah...thats the me...and the closest person of mine tells me that im more than that...hah i know somehow, because i can also detect some of that to myself...im so fickle minded,  and theres more stuffs than that.. i dont want to elaborate more...^^ forgiven...

my sweetie is my blog...i can find peace here , everything is real, no fake people liking your work, its just all appreciation with genuine feeling of related feelings of thoughts... 

well, kind'a sound weird but i love this phase of networking, this is my timeline , at first i thought no one reads my blog, then olah, there is! people i dont think this stuffs i love is just a waste of time but gotten me wrong , indeed!...credits to them...

i somehow wrote here the things i feel, the secrets i cant tell anyone that are physically approachable, but then still choose to let it go here and let other people read this...because i was also a blog reader, i know how was it to feel to read a blog that you can realate to and thanks to these people who never appreciates   what i love doing...somehow on the other side of my world i manage to express what i love doing and what i know i can share with... 

i love food thats why i put every thing here, for someday when i look back again, i could still see    the traces of now from then on...hmmm how was that sound so creepy to me...^^ 

i miss my friends, i miss my self being with my real friends... i miss everything... 

but i manage to cope with that through food that are super delish...next year my goal is to be a vegetarian so i will eat everything with meat these days...oh my... i really want to live healthy...

u know what...i cant imagine myself being with someone else, because i want to enjoy everything and in my mind i know i still have my responsibility, well, my family doesn't demanding anything from me, but i know already there is no need of confirmation i should do my part, im not satisfied yet with what i have given up for them, if i can offer my life to them i will do that without hesitation because that is not enough for the life they have given me, that is how i see life...i feel so relieve writing this things up, i think also i never found the one whom i can say I WILL NEVER LET THIS PERSON GO for the rest of my life, maybe because i havent finish what God has summoned me here and i havent finish yet the work i should do...

i love this...

vegan sandwich / whole wheat bread yummy!

try eating healthy foods so you will feel happy...haha ^^ how was that? so creepy eh?!...

see the world on its horizon

For this past few days i've been so busy...with the work and with all those events i've been into...

so tired, but at last! i got a 1 whole day to have my ME TIME and a day to spend with my self and my family... and i decided to post some of the events to catch up with my sweetie...

GOD  IS  SO  GOOD !

we attended a wedding, and on the same day it's my uncles birthday...so after the wedding celebration, we go to our uncles house, we sang they drunk...we had so much fun...i will upload the pictures on the next post...^^

when everything is so stressful and when you get into that edge where you know your over using your mind, body just to work hard ... its very tiring, plus the thoughts of all the stuffs you should not forgotten and should always bear in our mind, wooah! its very stressful, i just want to scream...I WANT TO BREATH! 

but its okay, this is the nature of my chosen field and the hype of my work...nevertheless im enjoying every bit of it...

i work so simple, still grounded not to mention all those stuffs because i know i still lidont have the quality i really wanted ... i let God managed my life to the right way and i will be one who directs behind what he wanted me to portray... i may sound so annoying when it comes to my self beliefs but thats how i believe i should run my life...i dont want to conform my own taste and i dont want to regret not doing the things God has created for us to experience and see...

maybe to tour around the world and to be in Italy or to Paris is my greatest dream...it may sound so impossible but who knows whats ahead of us today...
those places are really closed in my heart...i want to sit there facing the Eiffel tower that will be the most awesome adrenaline rush i would be feeling if that will God will give me...i hope before i die i could do those things...and see how wonderful the world is and how amazing to see God has created for us...

i know my worth so i am not asking why things go wrong sometimes anymore, im more open to what He wanted me to see... i hope that with all those catastrophe that our country suffers , no more lives will be taken and that people can go back to a new life they should be doing and living...God has his purpose and it should not be questioned drastically...lets look back how we, people, abused what He has given us for free just in return to take good care of it , but instead ruined it purposely... because we people are pathologically pathetic, we can never be  satisfied, we always crave for more and even TOO MUCH...well thats how people live life on the way they think they are used to be...if they just know how to be humble sometimes...

 CHERIE ANN LINES

movie and music in my life...part II - the halt of the story

being perfect is so damn difficult to depict...why? because there are a lot of things to consider...

the way we execute decisions, talk, way we think, walk, way we approach people

things should remember well so i wont get embarrass and how we move so we wont get a fatal mistake...

theres no such thing or a person that are so perfect but at their most → ALMOST...i seldom use the word at least in a sentence because for me it means we dont give our best cause we just contented in "at least" but why do that? we can do "almost" and we can accomplish things we carry out in the good and right way we think...its all the matter of decision making and throwing all the selfishness in our selves... we cant be perfect but we can perform , give and do our best to be almost perfect... ^^

at times when i feel so drained with my work, to people, and to some certain stuffs that makes me pissed off, i listen to music or eat or sleep...

now as i looked back all the things i've decide to take, stuffs ive decided to let go, people i prefer not to get involved with and people whom always there with me throughout the obstacles and to certain opportunities that i've given up for the sake of some personal reasons that made me give it up and let go and the opportunities that i've took and grasp that made me the person i am today...i am so grateful and i feel awesome to all journey that i've been...it makes me more maturehumil now, happy, contented, an a person whom i love... i also think in getting into a relationship but not until i found the person whom who can define everything about me...& if that person God will give me...there are lots of responsibilities i know...but maybe at that time im more capable on handling a life with someone to consider 

one of the most sinful and most disgraceful, humiliating, and most shameful bad habit of  a person that i really dont like is being a ...→ LIAR... that will be so pathetic to me...i really dont love people that are liars oh my...just be true to yourselves and you'll feel happy...this is very important to me because LIES means ...Lying equal to Cheating...they both partners in a situation where humans forget their class, brain, self respect and worth...and that is why i somehow stay away from relationship, cause i've seen lot of people throw away lies just to please everybody in the crowd...for me that is very lame...^^ haha 

its hard to get into a relationship, for a person like me...the thing that i havent been in a relationship feared me...i dont want to get hurt and i dont want to hurt anyone...

most of all i dont want a person that will be a hitch, hindrance to what i want... i want a person that will totally knows and accept the real me...i love a man that can define the things i have said in the past...and a person that are God fearing...and a jolly person, and the most important of all...a one woman man...i know this man is very rare nowadays and very hard to find...but i trust God he wont fail me on the person that he would give me someday...well the story has come to its halt...i wont tackle on this anymore...God teaches me a very important lesson..."when you said your happy live that..life is precious to waste"

my life music as this moment is from one of my idols...i have all her songs in my pad...THE CLIMB...and the movie for my life now as of this moment is...haha i love this movie...RAISE YOUR VOICE...very inspiring... 

 here it is sweetie...:

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

and you can also see the trailer of the movie just see the link above

reveal some stuffs i love...dig in!

I am Cherie Ann, a woman who choose and decide to enjoy life and nature, see the world in its different dimensions, being able to be adventurous, healthy, happy, fulfilled, chase dream and gasp it, understand my existence, serve and love God, most specially living life the way i wanted to be...

those decisions i made brought me to where i am right now...regrets? NO...probably just a little lament on some things i haven't done that i should. and from that on i choose to live my life on the path i wanted for a long time, its an unending road of changes but God reminds me to always keep grounded, and thats one thing people forgot about themselves. and to be more mature on things to reckon and to be executed, i understand that as we grow old, responsibleness should the one we carry and corresponds to all the decisions we made in our every day living. 

i got to complain on how i was pressured my life..it makes me laugh because that was way before...i feel sad, i really confine myself to my room, thinking awful things that had happened and that will happen its out of the world realization, then i got to get out on that box, cause one day as i ask Him, he answered my question...Him, who never leave me in times i was in my stage of confusion, everyone i think goes unto that stage in their life but i was so blessed that He never failed to remind me the things i should bear in mind

...thats the time i started living healthy, i listen to good music, i reflect the happiness that im feeling towards others so i started to reach out with my family, cherish the time they are with me and i am with them. 

LIFE IS SO PRECIOUS TO WASTE...

i've said before that i've lived my life HAPPY today...its true, but we all have shadows and skeletons in our closest...i have my fears...but its nice to have a strong and optimistic personality sometimes, because it boost your confidence plus the people so-rounds you are so kind and good enough to be taken for granted.

before im so tough towards others, its really hard to softens my heart, and im so aloof...but i managed to overcome everything, i found Him when i needed Him the most and at the hours i have nothing except Him...GOD is sooo good...

-im just a girl from the shadow of candidness and aloofness now grown up to be a much more tough but soft handed, mature enough to decide stuffs, and more open in my self so i will control my confusing side haha just kidding well im just sharing things you might ask me in the future...im sure no one reads my blog anyways...^^

i just love blogging...its my pacifier when im not in my mood...and also not to forget the food i love to eat when i feel bored and just being weird... mac'n cheese is the best spag...whhhaaat???! hehe 

who love to eat burger? haha dont drool im eating my burger  right now with my coffee , so sad i cant take a picture at my coffee the camera is taken already hahah next time i will post the shawarma......yummy

burger and chips from Mc...yummy!super love it...

this is what im talking about dude,just live life in the healthy way...^^ i want to spend my me time again...eating and strolling alone...

my life movie and its music - part I

i love movies & music the most...almost all my time if i have my day off from work all of my spare time goes to watching movies...and the movies i love the most is HOLLYWOOD movies, and Taiwanese movies...i just dont know how did i end up loving Taiwanese film,for me there is one specific and certain spice in Taiwan movies...even there t.v series i also watch them when i have a break in the office i just cant take that into my circulation. 

there are lots of movies i've seen and they are all amazing! these past few days i havent wrote anything because im still finishing the movie...

when it comes to movies and music , its like my baby...no one can ever pull that off out of me...both are connected in my world. all my dvd's and tapes i dont want them to be borrowed, hah that is how im so obsessed in music and movies...thats simply me, but behind all that simplicity is the thought that whenever i did wrong, feel aloof , scared , mad, angry and feels no one to turn to and feels the world turn their back at me i just simply put my earphones...play the music and boom! i feel fine and at ease...thats the difference between friends and your passion...friends leaves you and sometimes at the most important time of your life, but your passion never ever can be pulled out of you. maybe not all people understand what im talking about...but in 21 years of living in this world, gone through all those struggles in life as growing up, i've seen and deal and meet lots of different personality and the different faces of a person.

some goes and you cant say some stay...because practically speaking they all come and goes just like our owed life...it can be live once so why chase those people who come and just goes? whats the deal? well, for some they have an answer to that but to me i still dont believe in in such philosophy about people stays by your side for the rest of our lives. not all people understand music really well, if they can sing, they think they are good enough and they are musicians, but they dont know what really music means to real born musicians...all can sing and dance but not all have the passion and heart on understanding and loving that gift...see what i mean? ^^ im too into something that no one understand me, im just too concern to the people around me to not let them get hurt and put them first...before anything else...

then suddenly i get tired on that feeling, im not selfish anyway...am i? i do whatever they want me to do, go to school, listen to what they say, never embarrass them, be a good daughter, finish my studies and be a woman with self dignity, and i can say im one of a kind because of them, but i grew tired already, i lost my will to still pursue that day...because all i want is to enjoy my spare time and enjoy what i love, why cant they let me free for a while...its just im too pressure on things...its true that sometimes i feel useless, yah i have a job but i cant still go to place i want to, im too old to mingle...still im left alone...no one dares to court me or to be friend me because they are intimidated by what i become now, why cant i have real friend that wont ask pathetic things in life hah maybe thats how it ends...im just too complicated on things...

 im successful but im not happy..haha now i can say that? it takes so long for me to say im not happy at certain things in my life nw...i dont ask for more i just want to live life simply the way i want...^^ but im almost there already...just a little more sacrifices...when im done i can live my life the way i just love to live it...thank you God for another day of contentment... 

i crave the most

for this past few days i was so busy with a movie...so i decided to finish it first so i can write what i was into in my life so i can share it to you...so i promise to write everything the next time around,for now, this is all i've got...

this are the stuffs i love and enjoy much...maybe every time i feel aloof and feel lonesome about some stuffs and person...i just eat it all out...so i can let it go,i dont tolerate sadness anymore...theres more to life than stuck to people whom you care but doesn't gave it a damn anyways...i dont feel any resentment to people like those...or any grudge at all. Their not important at all...i just feel sorry for the wasted effort and time, its not worth it...im regretful to myself why on earth i was bumped unto people like them,but its all well for me now...just let it e...and thank God as always for the enlightened and the guidance so we wont end up hurting too much by sooooo calllleeeedddd friends...^^ 

just live your life healthy away from those hatred,it will not cause you any good at all...like me, i eat to be healthy hahahha love you sweetie blog...

FRENCH FRIES...for the afternoon snack

my favorite coffee...everyday i got a dose of this...

the BISCUIT from my coffee is delicious wanna have some?

my ever fav. mac'n cheese with w/ herbs hahaha 

Cherie Ann Lines

MAMA MARY's BIRTHDAY 9/8/2011

Wow! good morning fellas... its really a nice day for me, and maybe to all Christians around the globe...

its the feast for MAMA MARY"s BIRTHDAY...

what?!!!! oh yes! you read that right sweetie...well, when September strikes the calendar...i feel excited becasue of her birthday , maybe for some reasons, one is that its only once in a year to celebrate a birthday, and the celebrity is Mama Mary, and if you're really a Catholic and a Godfearing person no reason you will forget and neglect that event its something very important to me .

i got a chance to say thank you to her cause im so blessed and its because she loves me and the people around me. This morning the mass started 3:00 in the morning for the "manya-nita" but we go to church 3:30 am...the mass started 4:00 am and ended 5:10 am...its a tradition that during her birthday after the mass we fed the people who attend the mass...every year we took the responsibility to do that...its kinda fun and were happy because we got to share the blessings we had. 

but i miss to take a picture after the mass,if i could only have a camera again, but its really nice

and the most exciting part is when we let go all the balloons woaah! its really cool!

now we only have few balloons to unleashed ... well,the balloons came from me i donate some of it, my tita and someone who are close to us...

its so simple tradition that should be passed towards our generation, the priest who do the honor to conduct the mass today somehow correct when he told the people that "simple people are gathered here today to celebrate...simple in a way special because you never forget a birthday, and so forth" nevertheless his right cause when we arrive in the church their are only few who i think sited inside, but after a few more minutes people flock their way to the church...still its so good to see our neighbors in our place doesn't seem to set aside the happenings...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA MARY...I LOVE YOU & MOST OF ALL THANK YOU

i may sound goofy but this is the other side of me, im very into this kind of feast...i was raise to fear God and i was so lame before that i dont want to go to church but when i was growing up i learn ITS ALL WORTH IT waking up early in the morning to be with my papa & mama to attend a morning mass...cause somehow i know i was so blessed even if im such a sinner i always found happiness in God...we should have time to listen to what his will passed down through generation...maybe thats the one lacking in todays cyber world...how the young generation reflects and give importance to our beliefs and traditions...well, thats far controllable...it should start in the family then to your self.. great man holds a self affirmation...haha again?! well affirmation again , its really something important to me...

and thats all for a wrap...love...love...love...^^ 

...first time...

...u know the feeling of "uneasy" and "confused"...? yeah u read me right...that is what im feeling about for a couple of months passed by...or shall i say...years passed...oh man!so damn feeling,it sucks,y?cause u dont know how to execute things right...i dont wanna talk or even blow this out before but now im fine and in the stage of sureness now...a lil'bit hesitant to this...OH!I WANNA STOP MY HANDS TYPING haha sounds funny huh...^^

               ...wanna know what im talking about?...oh yeah sure u do...cause u've got to read this line so ur interested huh...

.."Long before i have myself today,i was always on the safe side of the world...i've never experience  the thing they call "LOVE"...its not the general "I REALLY DONT HAVE ONE"..i've gone through the stage of having a crush on somebody...admire someone...infatuated by a man...and until when i first have a bf that was when i enter college...his my man for sure haha cause u know that was the first time i fell in love with the opposite sex...
but i did not realize that was a "total mess...total mistake...total failure..." i never regret though the times i was feeling infatuated by this man,cause he brings out the new horizon of my self...haha but then i realize "i was the only one who's going crazy over this guy and on the other hand his not feeling the same way to unto me"...no regrets...y?cause we seldom see each other...the thing i remember was that he only holds my hand when we go to church and hey!that was once only...haha and the second time was that when he bring me to his house and introduce me to his family and a bunch of friends...uncles...oh my gosh! hahahahah that feeling!yah...that feeling on that day...i can remember i was sweating cold a lot!like...a lot!and i was shivering and shaking when
his parents talk to me feels like i was tortured...hahahaha but it goes well...and then we go to their place and the only thing we always do during this days was that 'TALK' he love to talk to me...as in we sit under the tree and facing each other...if u can only see us before u cant even think his my bf huh!hehe u know i was some kind of a immature thing about having a realationship so i dont know how to handle that before...but i can see in him that he was happy...even if he only holds my hands if we're on church and other than that theres no more...hahaha i feel sorry for the guy...and!!!! for me his gentle man...he never attempt to kiss me,he just hold my hand and we just TALK...TALK...TALK...he loves talking a lot...until such day i found out he cheated on me...so i hated him...i hated all the guys...and from then i was hardened... yah I was...I was so bitter since that...i dont trust a man's word anymore...until i found out there is someone out there who never fails to love me...never reject me...most of all never betray me...and that was the day i was so happy being with him...i find peace with him...i always go to him after my classes...and then ask forgiveness for the coldness i showed to people sorrounds me...wanna know who's this man i was talking about?

...this is GOD...and he was so good to me...