REFLECTING

...cant find the right words to start this new thing... the week was find though... and a bit nostalgic to stuffs i somehow remembers from time to time the whole time...

have you ever been aware what am i writing this past few post? exactly a month ago since i write a real post...and i was really paranoid every time i forgot to see whats going on in my blog... also a lot of things to post right now but i am really preoccupied  everytime i start to write my thing...stress are really draining me too much... 

when things get rough, all we need is a bit of loose... let go for a second and breath... 

again the other night,some friends wanted to come over to bond again...sadly the night was really dead so i drop the plan... then last night was also fun with my aunt and her daughter, just singing and i really enjoy the moment i spent with them...somehow that was lil bit of a help...maybe im just toooooooooooo stresssssssss 

at the moment i am back on my fb...due to being busy havent tweet for a long time and the only thing available that can be use is fb so no choice,use it...anyhow, it helps me to reach and communicate with my classmates... and im so dumbfounded everytime i post something in my stats....i am so nonsense...i always post lines from my favorite books and author, just wait for them to like of comment on each post i make... and the funny thing now, my cousins and friends are asking me why all thats been hapening on my wall is that stuff... and i was like..."what?there's nothing anyway...and Mikah laugh...shes my cousin...the one i have mention here in my blog before...

i miss writing...i miss the routine... true i became lame this past 3 weeks, cause i really cant cope up with the changes...and maybe because, its still not sinking in me right now... 

maybe also this post im writing right now is a bit of RANDOM... 

...also, i cant really say or even describe the thing that's been randomly hanging right now...it always stays in the mind...it never really comes out...cant even write it properly.... i was saying in my previous post that i will somehow give it a try to share the stuff i was sharing before...haha that was not so really clear i agree to that if you were just questioned as i am right now... now,that makes me weird eh?!!..and that cant be help too...

ive prepared something for the my next post ,maybe tomorrow i will finish it and try to see if it is good enough to post to cope up for my not so good ones posted... and also i have tons of news to share since i really contain everything..

right now... i am having a good time reading the stuffs my friends been posting in their own blog... they never fail to inspire me... never fail also to remind me how awesome to write and to be a blogger... well, that cant be help too... it really runs in the blood... just like how the music soothes in me...

i was like a Wolfpack this weekend of mine right now...^^ haha twas fun anyway...so gotta go

 CIAO ^^ ♥ love love love and i will left this line for you guys...

“Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that.”
― Nicholas Sparks

EPILOGUE ♥

...every mile stone we took step in our lives there's gotta be bumps to get over with... as i grow up, responsibilities i now understand...im more mature now and more serious with my life.. i treasure most of my time...i spend it to the people really means to me... and deciding more for the benefit not just to myself but mostly for my future and consider very much my family every stepped of the way... last night i heard my papa say something to my momma... i feel guilty for the reason i feel im a bit selfish a little bit right now... and told myself that i should get back on track now...handle things more way better off than today, and i also know what she told me was quite true... my only reason to give was that i need some break for myself to unwind re-think the previous pages on the first chapter...

actually i dont know what to write for almost a month... i am very pre-occupied by stuffs...

now i know that i should man up more right now cause i have new reasons added to what i am fighting for...i used to say that "choose a battle to fight for wisely..." somehow i can apply it right now on my life... my family always remind me that im still young to do what i should do...maybe they're right... the thing is, i already decided to venture more away from home if i had a chance...

there are tons of reasons why i choose that... right now , just like those boring days that i cant think of anything worth posting here...^^ 

after that last post i made before this, i realize that i just too carried away with the damn thing...i called that damn cause i know im too idiot to let myself fall deep even if i know that it wont do any good to me at all... hence i keep on posting here about the feelings... i feel ashamed right now haha ^^ what the! i just really hope no one of my friends knows my blog...haha 

i soak myself too much on my blog reading post from my fav writers...they simply inspires me to write more valuable ones... well i guess i need to really start writing again more worth post ^^ haha im just glad i had time now to share again my life to people i know been there with me,through out my journey last year...that was very epic... that was one of the  memorable pages of that chapter... now that im down with a new... hopefully i can post better more from the real sense here... so ciao and i still have to finish the other one... this one is not very clear i know you agree... sentences were tangled ^^ 

so i must expect that on my next post you will be still with me with my new chapter...thank you!

but still thank you for reading and not forgetting to remind me great things in life..

always start a day with a smile and love...and end it with love love love too... make your life worth living for... ♥ ♥ ♥ 

#WITHTHEM...

...wow... thats all i can say... iv'e been away for a very long time in the blogosphere... and i dont think i need to strips down all of it to cope up...actually im so happy today... i just cant say stuffs on my fb directly so i started using my twitter and started to focus more on that... and that helps a little but i really cannot just not peep on my fb... that was the not so nice thing cause i just make it hard for my self instead... but that helps a lot to stay away from awkward stuffs... haha i thought, by just tweeting the feelings wont hunt me down... guess i was wrong... i just didnt realize it but the feelings are really too deep now...its very tempting to swim... but i always keep my ground...i dont want to be left unguarded... i cannot loose the friendship i have to the person... 

on the lighter note... my friends come at our house last night... we had a bonding moments, we sang at the videoke, sang our heart out... stress free... they got home so late.. actually Wevino was there too... with Rj... Ahple...and Hirbert... Wevino texted me if its ok to unwind to keep the stress away... so i said its ok on my part, i also let the others know,some cant make it and we had a blast last night... and i personally really enjoy the company...  i hope that there will be next time as what wevino thought of too... hmmm my cousin was teasing me the whole day today... that cannot also be help since i told her about the bonding time too... haha she really knows me and she keeps on telling me stuffs that are random...

on the other side again,since i am preferring twitter than fb, now i cant just tweet what i really wanna express.. im afraid the person might know... there are stuffs that are making me crazy...there are a lot of things that are going on in and out of my mind... i decided to forget about it (the damn feeling) when one of my friend told me something, its not bad since none of them knows what am i feeling, it just came out of the blue from her mouth that we talk about him and she not knowingly say that its impossible that the guy has no girl...in short he was perfect for a man... and that seconds the motion to what i believe from the start that im no good and im no pair on him... and i feel so ashamed too for feeling this towards  the person... his my friend... and loving him is too way too much... and what a coincidence when  i am starting to do my thing... boom! we bond again... i hope i wont regret this... and i promise at my very best i will forget about this... i just want to let everything to stay the same and remain on its phase... i just cant afford to loose a friend...

well, i guess i had to stop it here... 

right now im trap at the cafe since its raining hard outside and i have to go home already... so, ciao really got to go already... until next post again! new chapter of living life...work...and the bless..and its bliss... 

im thanking God for the new chapter... i will post something again about this one next time... ^^ i know this one was boring but im really at ease now... i let it out!!! 

Mr.13 ...i was happy when i found out i had love you long before and realize i was falling deeply...no regrets...but i rather choose to keep it that way to keep you and be a coward...than letting you know and put our friendship at risk...i value you as a friend and as a special person,t'was a nice feeling and a very timely one...i just hope you wont know who are you haha... i am the best stalker!!! kala mo...^^