whatever it takes

..just when i thought i was quite forgetting the people i supposed to forget because of time interval and focus differences...i was struck by how i approach a person its like a human instinct my body walks towards a guy & his lil'bro and when i was about to extend my arm to his shoulders to my excitement the guy look back and give a wide smile and say "HI COUZ!ITS BEEN A LONG TIME!, WHAT BROUGHT YOU HERE?ARE YOU WORKING HERE?JINGLE IS INSIDE THE CAFE WERE ABOUT TO LEAVE ANY MOMENT,WHY DONT YOU VISIT US IN THE HOUSE?" haha i saw my cousins! i feel very excited and i feel very happy to see my old folks...quite amazing though i haven't talk to them any longer cause im on my work & i should get back to the office right away....but sure,i will be visiting them in the house...

well,thats the irony of life,when we thought those people away for such a long time totally wont feel the same but i guess im wrong at some point still, blood is thicker than water...

still even if its been a long time i haven't seen my cousins with their posture even if its blurry i still know deep down that Hey!i know that person...and to my amazement the feeling is so fantastic that im very high cause i saw them, and the bond was still their even if were all grown up and a little more formal the way we talk, the way we held each other,not the typical loud voices , the hand gestures and the way we jest around...geez! were all grown up! 

but quite feel the same and still the person weve known for a very long time...its the time who pass us by not the who we are and thats far more important than anything else...

now i was move by my cousin Kyle & Jingle they make me laugh they still reflects the same aura...classy with a very approachable scent... 

im looking forward to see my other cousins also , maybe i feel those things before because im so into my self, being alone and so aloof...somehow its my fault , but still no regrets cause i just dont feel strolling around no time for that ... haha just living healthy thats my goal right now... well to wrap things up im with my cousin MICAH KARAH G. shes cool and nice...its raining  outside so we cant go home early...we'll wait for the rain to settle a lil'bit or else we'll cath cold...

Cherie Ann Lines

MAMA MARY's BIRTHDAY 9/8/2011

Wow! good morning fellas... its really a nice day for me, and maybe to all Christians around the globe...

its the feast for MAMA MARY"s BIRTHDAY...

what?!!!! oh yes! you read that right sweetie...well, when September strikes the calendar...i feel excited becasue of her birthday , maybe for some reasons, one is that its only once in a year to celebrate a birthday, and the celebrity is Mama Mary, and if you're really a Catholic and a Godfearing person no reason you will forget and neglect that event its something very important to me .

i got a chance to say thank you to her cause im so blessed and its because she loves me and the people around me. This morning the mass started 3:00 in the morning for the "manya-nita" but we go to church 3:30 am...the mass started 4:00 am and ended 5:10 am...its a tradition that during her birthday after the mass we fed the people who attend the mass...every year we took the responsibility to do that...its kinda fun and were happy because we got to share the blessings we had. 

but i miss to take a picture after the mass,if i could only have a camera again, but its really nice

and the most exciting part is when we let go all the balloons woaah! its really cool!

now we only have few balloons to unleashed ... well,the balloons came from me i donate some of it, my tita and someone who are close to us...

its so simple tradition that should be passed towards our generation, the priest who do the honor to conduct the mass today somehow correct when he told the people that "simple people are gathered here today to celebrate...simple in a way special because you never forget a birthday, and so forth" nevertheless his right cause when we arrive in the church their are only few who i think sited inside, but after a few more minutes people flock their way to the church...still its so good to see our neighbors in our place doesn't seem to set aside the happenings...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA MARY...I LOVE YOU & MOST OF ALL THANK YOU

i may sound goofy but this is the other side of me, im very into this kind of feast...i was raise to fear God and i was so lame before that i dont want to go to church but when i was growing up i learn ITS ALL WORTH IT waking up early in the morning to be with my papa & mama to attend a morning mass...cause somehow i know i was so blessed even if im such a sinner i always found happiness in God...we should have time to listen to what his will passed down through generation...maybe thats the one lacking in todays cyber world...how the young generation reflects and give importance to our beliefs and traditions...well, thats far controllable...it should start in the family then to your self.. great man holds a self affirmation...haha again?! well affirmation again , its really something important to me...

and thats all for a wrap...love...love...love...^^ 

the best is still unwritten

too much doze of carefulness makes me feel numb sometimes...i need to..why?

to avoid hurting myself,and to avoid people from hurting me...thats my rule to myself...

and maybe some people i love took it the different ways,this is the problem i've been always keep bumping around me,everyday...i just cant help it, im afraid to where my decisions in life will take me from today... coz i think im to numb to reflect and give them the feeling i had for the people i cherish the most...now i can see only one person that i cant hide my feelings , she can penetrate me, shes my younger cousin, she took BSIT to be like me, im thankful that whatever and how will she manage the pedestal she had now to be still and always be approachable. and im happy she didn't turn out to grow an airy person...im happy she still look at me as her good ate...and im so careful with myself cause i dont want her to get disappointed unto the people who believes in me..it innovates me to push more from myself, they are the reason i dont complain, whether my money falls for them, its all ok, they are all worth it...sometimes im afraid to be left out alone and to the point im asking myself what will be the me after today...but you know that is just the one side of the story thats is just a part from my drama blues in ife...i really dont deal with this , because im not the kind of person that loves drama...

the most important thing is i know god had given me more blessing in my life now, and i try to be better more and more each day to give back what God had given me.

maybe im numb but it doesn't mean i dont feel the feelings around me, if only they knew what im i thinking...haha i kinda laugh sometimes to give light to my feelings if i dont feel ok i just set for a while chill...and then take a deep breath then go on...i cant stop right now...if only they knew the sacrifices i've made and how i fight everything just to stick with my rules oh comm'n! its not that easy but still im happy that i choose living healthy and remain a bachelor haha not a common habit for a person but im weird thats what gives me the vast difference from others well im simple yet confusing because of the stuff i affiliated to myself and the strong rules and affirmation i give to myself, i dont care what other people say cause id rather attend to myself than waste my time dealing with fake people...we only live this life once...so why waste it...

maybe you have your own way of thinking about living life once...

same as me...i have my own outlook towards that, so i live my life the way i know right for me and suits me...i i will have my life unique as it is from others and try to venture things i wanted...its nice to have a person in your life to share with whats going on with you but for now i haven't seen one...i guess i meet that before but isn't worth it...no regrets for the person but he had his own life outlook...his in a hurry , and took it with other woman when i look back , his clinging and hooking up with someone else , while im still and enjoying every aspects life given me...but thanks to him i gotta see more from the shades of yesterday...he reminds me that the decision is right that its worth it to took a single  life and to not get into so much hurry...i enjoy the fact that im single i can do whatever i want...so whats the big deal of being a bachelor? haha it doesn't make sense if they will ask me pathetic questions... i will give them my silly smile...

to wrap up everything im thinking now is that for me i thank God for everything and for the guidance & mostly 

The Best is yet Unwritten...

yet , spectacular getaways comes along every time but  still every good reasons for that and looking forward to that day...^^ when im standing in front of that huge edifice in Europe maybe that will be the most special day for me...you know what im talking about? well, i give u a clue...if you look at it , you will feel that will be your most romantic feeling towards yourself and the most fulfilling moment that its really nice to live life and you wont notice how fast time goes by...^^ and thats the wrap cheos gotta goes...

...pathways...

i've had an awesome weekend...i sleep almost 4 in the morning on Sunday , i started watching the movie ahm i think around 9:30 up on Saturday after i eat my dinner , and after i had this meeting for business stuff and at the meeting it tackles about our health...and i wont elaborate more from it its kind'a confidential hahah kidding! 

back to the weekend getaway...so i thats it,im watching this movie and its very cool!

THE HILLS...and  haven't finish it till almost 4 am and my eyes are very dead tired already so i decided to grab my pillows and blankz so i can take my sleep,and decided to finish the movie in the morning since i dont have anything to do...but i planned to go to church that day i just didn't remember at first, im so excited to know more on the movie and looking forward to finish it that day,i woke up yesterday almost 10 am, i think if it wasn't the noise of my phone i wont be able to woke up that early, oh yeah 10 am is early for me haha ^^

i've had so much fun every Sunday, i got to bond with my family more...its like , the only time we could spend each other for a week, and every Sunday we have a visitor, my uncle and tita...the Rapada siblings...we got to bond with my 3 guy cousins...my kuya Rodel Rapada- Jefferson Rapada - Ronald Rapada...

im close with my kuya Rodel, i really look up to him, his and electrical Engr. but sad to say he cant land a job he haven't pass his board exam yet i think its because of his lifestyle but his not bad,his super cool, down to earth person, not an airy man, his so kind, he loves his work and career 

but to the point that he really wanted that job position but landed nothing because he still dont have his result, im proud of how he manage to be still and maintain his good self despite of the things he has and achieve maybe what is lacking with his life now is only his result in board but for me or shall i say us...his still good...

the problem is i've seen in him the disappointment ... he really wanted the position but ended up rejected, well i dont think i am in the position to brought up to here, i just really confident about him that he can make it...

he told me that he believe he dont have any hope for himself to achieve the job he wants...

well, after that around 4 pm they go home their already drunk...and i decided to go to church ...

its the first Sunday for the month of September...and hey to mention September Mama birthday's coming...we plan to give balloons for thanks giving,

yesterday as i was talking to my other cousin Emy Mendez about  what happen to me these past few days, he told me and explain some stuffs i should know like i was telling her the feud between me and my friend,she just say the possibilities why we happen to have a gap,well she might be correct but i forgive her already and thats far more important than anything else, all of my friends the fades so fast and feels cold towards me i forgive them all...i dont need tons of fake friends indeed...i will suit myself to a few but real bestfriends , not that much communicate but still answers your text and call whenever i need someone to listen even if its against all the odds miles and miles away...u know a simple yes?are u ok?whats the call?dont worry im here,although busy but still finds a time to know whats going on with you, this past few months that i miss my friends and im feeling my blues because im so confused at some points of life ironic blast I've found peace to my family that even if i dont say anything they just felt it and do the very best just to feel you light hearted...

i found out that i have tons of fake friends but im so thankful that i have with me my real best friends and they were all awesome...they all far from me, but still feels like miles away are not the reason to forget to remind me they are all there behind my back to cheer me up in times of all the chaos that will hit in your life...

now I've man up already and knows  some of them changes colours well i need to let them go...so that hard feelings can be forgiven and could be prevented...its not good for ourselves it will just gives you stress hahha 

im thankful to all the people who never get tired on watching over me...and never held back, never back stab, never abandoned, never think bad towards me, and never drop their hands on me...i jsut hope everyone will feel free to forgive everybody also...

to wrap up everything...love everyone around you,dont entertain fake people so they wont spoil you, dont stoop to foul ones, always smile, dont forget to say thank you to god, dont forget your family always put them first, and love yourself...trust your instinct, have self affirmation, stick to your rules...give yourself time to breath, then move forward without taking advantage to anyone...

love...pray...muaaahhh 

 Cherie Ann Lines

misapprehend

i really love siomai...i ate this when i fell my throat is craving for a coke
and if im totally aloof...

Though i dont have much more to say about whats going on with my life i still love sharing what my perspective each day i live by...

After all the troubles, i left it behind with a whole heart and with willingness , why?cause its not easy and not healthy to live a life full of virus, haha i mean full of negative vibes... i dont want that heavy feeling because it makes my head ache and i cant think that much , i dont want that annoying feeling...i just dont want to deal with so much drama in life... we all have problems but its on us on how we handle things... 

After all, at the end of the day all you will have is yourself...well,for me thats my opinion...hmmm let me say,im 21 now but still a bachelor,haven't fall in love so deeply yet, but had a much more deeper views about love...how was that huh? =O 

some say its weird and its a lie if i say i dont have a boyfriend... i wanna squeeze their tongue to let them realize relationship to opposite sex only exist because of love...hahha i really dont believe on that,im weird? well oh yeah i am, and also extraordinary...where on earth did i get that?! haha i got that from my very best friends...and they are men! yeah they have their girlfriends already but me,im still a bachelor...

simply because i choose so...so what? im happy anyways, i got to spend my time pampering myself, my family and my very best friends...i dont want to waste time clinging around with some men whom you're not sure if they were the ones for you...oh comm'n! cant manage to take that...

they say, how would i know if it will work out or not i dont even trying,well i just thought so...

and i dont want to test my future , i dont wanna mess up with my life, and i dont wanna regret the test...

im a coward? well if thats what people say and that makes them happy haha let them suit to what they think 

for me its all crap to be given such attention... i'll do what i do, say what i think, that makes me a cool feeling that i gotta let out and utter what i want to without even lying, you know i see people always tell lies just to please themselves , how was that? for me it doesn't make any sense...

But in our life their is a certain time that we ought to meet people that reflects different colours 

at this point in my life i haven't been in a world that makes my head spin but i guess i still refuse to because its very unnecessary...its not my cup of tea that because my colleague have their own relationship i will jump into it also nha-ah...thats a no no for me...  they can say whatever they want...still i wont take a hazard move just to do something i know its not so me...i love kit-kat but im not a copy cat hahah ^^ see the difference even if it rhymes... my golly! i wanna venture more new horizon... work in different fields next year...live freely... just what i really wanted to do... 

sometimes its really hard to be a bachelor... its not because you envy people but its hard because :

* people think somethings wrong with you,even if theres nothing

* no one ask you if your ok,but not lonely

* you cant stand to listen to a love song 

* its just it keeps pissing me off the way people ask me and all of that stuff that i keep on telling them, on and on again and again , why dont they just understand that i dont have anyone by me grrrr

* telling the people the same answer over and over and over again

* most painful of all, rejected by people because i cant sway to their trips in life, i cant keep pace with their topic and life because im different i cant love back so they just simply forget we once are friends...i just dont think they'd understand

well, im feeling blue right now, tears may ran down like a razor but nha-ah its really the typical  me...i just felt like this when i talked about my so called friends not to mention my real best friends who never leave me alone even if they have their gf already... but life must go on...and i just gotta go on with my so called tour n life ... towards success! please bottoms up bottoms up... 

u know its Saturday today, every weekend i always sleep late because its the only night that i can watch all my movie tapes , cant do this on weekdays cause work... so i love Saturday nights...im breaking dawn till dusk always...just to watch dvd's and i dont know it makes me feel light hehe ^^ i can do whatever i want and when i watch movies i could feel theres something in me escapes from the stress of working the whole week...at least i gotta do what i want...then sleep...lying in bed and no need to wake up so early because its Sunday after Saturday hahah how was that man! im so excited to go home...by the way i love this new found song...i will share some of the lines ok...:

I knew I wanted you the first time that I saw you walk by
That I need you forever when your eyes met mine
I loved you the first time I heard you speak my name
You'd be the beauty in my life, always

it may sound to you a love song but i love this because its not a typical oh la la love song...hahah i love music you cant take that from me...i just dont love love song that are pity to the bones...hope you get it right,cause im always misunderstood by people who acts they know me but really not... and it really gives me a grit that they assume to know me but they dont barely understand what i simply say,people are too literal that they just listen to what they say they forgot to understand what they intend to listen...

to wrap up everything... counting blues to end the day...gotta go baby blog...see ya tonight...