I was a self committed single woman,I dont believe in a "HAPPY ENDING" realtionship...and most of all i dont have a bf...That was all before...
After that first love trap i was so boring with my self...all was a routine for me...'house... school...studies...eat... watching t.v...listening music...'and i did not notice i was growing up lonely,cause of that freaking failure i've experience...but we all gone through that...the wrong thing of my part was that i took it seriously... but now if there were times i can recall my first failure about what love means all i can feel is that im happy to know how cruel life was...and gradually in reality we must face the truth there's no happy endings...hahahhahah
Now,as i go on with my life,there's is this man who gives me an idea what love means...he pursue the thing he wants...he helps me see's life is a maze and beautiful...y maze?cause i can see and i've learn when we look ahead on what we are right now,theres a lot of different roads that should we will be taking,roads that leads us to the ends of our reasons and decisions in life...but im confused y?...understand my answer from the explanation see after this :
"im confused since then...this was my problem before,to have a relationship...cause im confused...feels like...yah!i want him to be my bf...but on the deepest part of my mind and soul theres something missing in myself...it's empty...for so many times i let love pass me by because im not ready to commit on someone cause im still searching looking for that spark i lost or shall i say the spark i always wanted in my life...im refering to this special person that i myself...FINALLY FOUND him...i dont know what happen i just think of him and ask his forgiveness and surrender my self to him...with him...i find my peace of mind...i find love...unconditional one...a love that would never betray me and understanding...He never blame me if i do wrong..He wont shout on me if i commit mistakes...He always let me know He is there always with me and He is willing to accept the BEST & WORST of myself...He im talking about is GOD...
...WOW!i am so high if i talk to him...He is the best thing that happen to me...If i talk to him about the problems he lighten up my burden...He understands me...people around me,acts like they know me in and out...but they just dont know they dont really know me at all..im a faker when it comes to myself...they see me jolly...irritate easily and lots of stuff like im so "kalog"...hahahahah they thought im immature the real thing is i hide the real me cause i dont want to be vulnerable...and i get hard to trust someone...but he taught me how to be soft...still i dont show myself who really am i...cause all i want to be accepted by the worst of me...and the,lets see if who would be the right one that will be worthy of my BEST...
I ask HIM to enlighten up my mind every time im in trouble handling myself temper...i know very well myself...im a demon inside if im mad...and crap!im so awkward when im good hahahaah
God never fails me to be a good one...and im happy i found what i really want now...i want to find myself first and serve God while im still young and waiting for the person he destined to give me...I want to find my special someone together with Him...I always put in my mind now...GOD NEVER FAILS US...
its up to us on how we execute well our decisions in life...
Now i know why i feel so empty and hard to get into a relationship right now...it is because for a long time i forgot about HIM...i forgot GOD in my life...that is why i feel empty...confuse...I never regret the day i say yes to GOD...cause with Him i can say hahahah IM IN MY HIGH...I love someone but now that i have HIM now,i wont let HIM go and i dont want to forgot about HIM again...i just want to spend more time again with God..
God loves us unconditionally...try to find your own happiness with HIM...and with His blessing...
...WOW!i am so high if i talk to him...He is the best thing that happen to me...If i talk to him about the problems he lighten up my burden...He understands me...people around me,acts like they know me in and out...but they just dont know they dont really know me at all..im a faker when it comes to myself...they see me jolly...irritate easily and lots of stuff like im so "kalog"...hahahahah they thought im immature the real thing is i hide the real me cause i dont want to be vulnerable...and i get hard to trust someone...but he taught me how to be soft...still i dont show myself who really am i...cause all i want to be accepted by the worst of me...and the,lets see if who would be the right one that will be worthy of my BEST...
I ask HIM to enlighten up my mind every time im in trouble handling myself temper...i know very well myself...im a demon inside if im mad...and crap!im so awkward when im good hahahaah
God never fails me to be a good one...and im happy i found what i really want now...i want to find myself first and serve God while im still young and waiting for the person he destined to give me...I want to find my special someone together with Him...I always put in my mind now...GOD NEVER FAILS US...
its up to us on how we execute well our decisions in life...
Now i know why i feel so empty and hard to get into a relationship right now...it is because for a long time i forgot about HIM...i forgot GOD in my life...that is why i feel empty...confuse...I never regret the day i say yes to GOD...cause with Him i can say hahahah IM IN MY HIGH...I love someone but now that i have HIM now,i wont let HIM go and i dont want to forgot about HIM again...i just want to spend more time again with God..
God loves us unconditionally...try to find your own happiness with HIM...and with His blessing...
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