MY BIRTHDAY + WHATS YOUR IDENTITY PART II

its a nice morning for me today...its not just because im in the mood but because my parents sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me...haha but please agree, gestures like that are so sweet...yeah ITS MY BIRTHDAY ^^

and as i arrive in the office this morning, i knew it! this day and tomorrow will be so much of a hectic days in a row... tons of work to be done...so im gona make this post fast...

the first part was already posted last saturday...PART I

The STAR - born with the spotlight on them,last-borns are usually the stars and entertainers of the family...and i really do believe on this one,even if im not the youngest...i can see it from my brother ^^ sometimes spoiled rotten, not only by our parents but also by us, the eldest siblings...they are loved and adored by everyone...even the grumpy old ones...

• you ALMIGHTY - being the youngest usually means you're used to having all the attention. Also the most charming and possibly the most easygoing of all the children...after all,your parents had gotten more relaxed by the time you came along,so you weren't brought up strictly as your older siblings...but they usually absorb the parents "praningitis" hehe ^^ their special though...
• Spoiled Rotten Scoundrels - many last-borns are reluctant to grow up,since they've spent most of their lives being pampered and babied. So most of the time,the youngest children in the family are also the last ones to learn about responsibility and maturity...but wait...im also like this haha...a lot of last borns are also attention-seekers and limelight-stealers, since they're used to being notice all the time...this one i really cant justify ^^ this is just based on my the weird analysis...haha what?!!!
• Bunso Hustle - speaking in a baby voice...(annoying sometimes) is pretty cute...when you're nine years old, but not when they were in their teenie years ya know ^^ Just because you're the youngest doesn't mean you are excused from any responsibilities at home...i taught this to my brother before,now he act more mature than me haha ^^ volunteer for even the smallest tasks,like washing the dishes or cleaning the table after eating...these are small but solid steps that get you used to responsibilities...

The SOLOIST - only...the lonely?... Not necessarily,only-born actually enjoy the undivided attention of both parents...since they have no other siblings to split it with...

• Only You - if you're an only child,you're probably more mature than other people your age, and on occasion prefer the company of older people. You are a godsend to office supplies stores, because being the organized person that you are, you just love to separate , segregate , and folder up everything that needs to be fixed. In fact, for me these people are very independent...^^
• Unforgiving - hehe since yo're quite the task master yourself,you have a tendency to sometimes be demanding and proud...Just because you have a tough hide, doesn't mean that everyone else does...^^ and just so we're all clear on this : when someone else bursts out bawling at your not-so-tactful comment,that usually means you were way too harsh...but i understand these type of persona...really do ^^
• A Walk To Remember - the next time you feel miffed by someone's comments about you or your work, remember that other people feel the same way when you criticize them ^^ learn to say things in a polite , helpful manner...and you'll find that people will also treat you more kindly...

that would be all ^^ i  dont know if im way too far of the words...but i know each one of us has our good and bad when it comes to attitudes...but for me,it is really important that we express the good ones...just dont like the haters...why hate if we can just spread love...hehe im really sweet,i just dont like nega vives... please greet me haha its ma'birthday ^^ love you all...muaaah i will be in hiatus for quite a while... i will be reviewing for my exams...tomorrow is my last day of work here in the office,i will miss all the stuffs here in Philippine Airlines, this has been my training ground...i need to focus now...and to man up,cause as i reflect this morning,im really grown up now...need to be more serious enough...i know im workaholic,but still i want to cross some boundaries...if i fail,the least i can feel is that I TRY ^^ so plese do pray for me...thank you for all the kindness in reading my workd, and on the good words that make me write again...im tahnkful iv'e known such great people around the blogosphere...i hope i have given justice to what i write above...haha its simply fiction,we all know that we are loved by our family and other people around us...lets all be thankful... this is goodbye but for just a while...i will be back...

♥

WHATS YOUR IDENTITY - PART I

i know...more from today...im so random today...this has been my second post before i leave my blog for a while...

so start analyzing  who are you with this two...^^ 

the LEADER : dependable , disciplined , determined... thats me... As the eldest child in the family, i tend to tkae on the role of a mini-parent or a vice president...Run the show when parents are not around...a definite panganay perk...

• big sister act - most firstborns also bear the brunt of high parental expectations. they are expected to always do their best and set an example for their younger siblings...beacuse of this,firstborns grow up to be the sort of people who seek control...If you're the eldest just like me...you may seek control by being a nurturing mother hen,clucking over friends and making sure they're always all right...for me this is just so okay...i grow up this way...you may also seek positions of leadership,president of the class,head cheerleaders or whatever ranks that deals with leadership...i am the indomitable but loving ATE of the household...^^
• the usual suspect - "ikaw ang panganay sapat sinuway mo na yang kapatid mo!" actually,i haven't heard my parents scold me like this,cooperative kasi ang brother ko...does it sound familiar? thats how the proverbial polvoron crumbles ^^ whenever any of our siblings get into trouble,all scolding signs point to you as well...parents usually expect their eldest children to exercise maturity and good decision making, sometimes to a fault... Because of this, eldest children like me occasionally fall into the trap of bullying their younger siblings,but i dont bully my brother as a coping mechanism... ^^
• its important for me to know how to deal with my brother since im a girl...being his big sister,its a lot like wolfing down a tub of popcorn with a tub of soda...you get what i mean?...^^ you gotta learn to balance the salty with the sweet, no matter how stressful being the eldest can be, remember that you'll always be the first to have heart-melting...toe-curling...eyeball-popping, now thats ,my reward to myself...^^

the PACIFIER  - a natural diplomat and ambasador of peace, middle-borns love to smooth out the wrinkles between brothers and sisters and are as easygoing as can be...the world could use more of you out there ^^ hehe

• Miss congeniality - if you were this type, you've spent most of your life getting your brothers and sisters out of each others hairs, so its no big surprise that you're a great people pleaser and negotiator...whether its another fight over who gets to use the bathroom first,or who has to get a glass of water for youre momma...youre a genius when it comes to transforming sibling squabbles to sibling revelry...as a matter of fact, you hate confrontation...^^ and fighting and will do anything to keep the peace...oh my its me hehe
• eternal sunshine of the spineless mind... - being eternally pleasant has its drawbacks though. since you've become so used to pleasing everybody, sometimes you forgot where to draw the line...unless you're fighting for a spot on the Phil. gymnastics team. there's no sense in bending over backwards just to make everybody happy...
• leaving pleasantville ... learn to set your boundaries and say no when you want to... its true that you cant please everyone all the time...^^ and at the end of the day, the only person you have to please is yourself...

im the eldest...but i also have this middle child attitude... its natural...^^ i hope you are enjoying your weekends guys...one more post to go...before i leave blogosphere for a while... i love my blog... ^^ love love love... i gotta get going since im almost off from work...^^ godbless us all... ♥

30 SOMETHING JUST RANDOM

This has been the most shaky week for me... i cant explain much the emotions that im feeling... will i be sad or just feel that im happy...its been mixed up of emotions...i will be away for a couple of days,so im gonna make this post long enough to read...im so random...so im gonna post random things too... when i come back,i will post everything here... wish me luck ^^ yesterday,when i was tweeting, this topic caught my attention... so im gonna list my answers here...

30 Ways To Make A Girl Smile :

• CHOCOLATE - for me, whenever you gave me anything sweets you will be forgiven and thats enough to make me smile...this is at top of my list because chocolates really make my day...takes away my stress...
• PRESENCE - cause im so bipolar,and it will always make me sad if no one remembers me within the day,i always cuddle with my parents even if im so grown up...i just cant help but to be sweet ^^...it makes me smile...
• SINCERE - we all know how to lie, but we also know the difference of fake and genuine attraction of people...this is so important for me,cause im so open with m emotions, this will come with the next one 
• HONEST - i really dont like liars, so it makes me smile whenever im so rounded with happy people and knowing i always have them at my back and would never stabbed you ^^ they love your flaws than your perfectiveness ...
• MUSIC - i know i ma girl but i dont know what to write...these stuffs really make me smile...i cant end the day without music...its on the blood man ^^
• COFFEE - oh do all girls love caffeine? i just love it... im always excited whenever i got a cup...it makes me smile... 
• FOOD - whenever im sad all i do is eat...eat...eat..eat... i just dont know why im so slim ^^ food really comforts me....it makes me smile...
• SODA - some girls dont like soda,their just too ooozzzy really concern with their body hahah calories? its my best buddy! it makes my day...
• PERFUME - i just love scents... ^^ it makes me smile... im this vain eh?
• SHOES - oh yeah.. haha all of the girls love to wear sky high heels... i love to dress my feet, it always give a perfect smile on my face whenever i feel my feet is comfortable... and i love those flats and heels...
• SPA -haha not all of the girls try this , but if they do it pays off ^^ it just nothing,this really makes me smile...
• BAGS - this should every girl put on their list... who dont want to have a cool bag? i love my bag so much ^^ 
• MOVIES - haha another thing... i dont know if do all girls love to see movies alone...well, this is my list so bear with me...i love watching movies,i stay late at night just watching movies...^^ 
• TANK TOPS - some girls love dresses, but as i grow up, i love this more than the dress..i have black and white ones. im comfortable wearing it,im not a fashion goddess so i just go with what i want,love to use it and pair it with a denim...cool ^^
• CAKES - i dont know if you like cakes,but this really wont be forgotten of me ^^ i always buy my momma a slice of cake every night...
• HAIR ACCESSORIES - every girl must have... im vain so i always have one in my bag... ^^ 
• STARBUCKS FRAPPÉ - haha im always get giggles every time my friends treat me for a frappé...they always wanna see me smile...
• PIZZA - do you like pizza? cause i do!!! i just cant hide the fact that i love to eat eh...hmmm, one time i was ask for a sit by a manager of one of the pizza house here in Robinson,cause he sees me buying one,and im talking nice things about their pizza,he gave me his number ohhhhwww ^^ how was that eh?...
• BEEF - i love beef... i can chew it happily, before i dont eat beef, im allergic to it...but my papa help me over come that allergic fear... ^^ yepey!!!
• SLEEP - feels like im really running of stuffs to post hahhaha well, whenever i think about sleeping it makes me smile! ijust love to sleep...lazy much ? :p
• BEACH - every woman had a pull on this one...they wanna swim to show some curves...hhahahha lame!
• FLOWERS - i dont like flowers..but i put it here since girls like flowers but its not on my list ^^ hehe im cheating man!!!
• MAKE - UP - they said...but oh,i dont wear make-up at work... just moisturizer and sun screen,its not make-up but girls love make up so again need to put it here...
• CARDIGAN - who among you girls didnt smile when you've seen a cardigan? hahah i really save my money to have my first on this... ^^ hurray!
• LECHON -ahm, this wont go with the girls who are conscious with their figure... the more they starve themselves, they take every happiness they can have and hurt themselves hahaha kidding!
• MEN ? - oh really, haha i didnt know this, but yeah they say men makes them smile...oh okay ^^ no comment... 
• LOVE - every woman wanted to be love... i just think its okay to be single... as long as youre happy, you can get love from your family...friends...and from work... haha ^^ 
• BACHELORS - well, i dont know about the other girls but for me,it makes me happy when i see bachelors around the city ^^ or even in the movie, i dream that those men where singles haha lusty!!!
• FOREIGN BANDS - i know that my list is weird, but lets get more weirder now, it makes me excited whenever i know foreign acts comes to the Philippines specially BANDS... 
• wow i got a hard time thinking about when i come to last...oh g Do not allow others to determine how you feel.jeez ^^ i dont want to sound clichéd but 13 really makes me smile...i just love that smile!!!! 

some girls may have added some of their stuffs...but aside from those at the list whith a scratch all of them really makes me smile..you must know im weird so dont get confused about those random stuff on my list...^^  when i come back... the next chapter will be revealed... but before that,one of the restaurant here in Robinson offers their promo for the month until Feb. 29... very affordable... its a Mexican resto and i love there place... Bistro Mexicano...

drinks and desert are free too... their beef stew is puurrrfect! i will post it next time... settle for this one first ^^ enjoy the weekend every body... dont forget to always love love love... dont let sadness crap crawls into your system... live life happily and always love everyone around you... and love your family! ♥ dont forget God...always say thank you... and sorry... love you all ^^ ♥ take care... 

REFLECTIONS

have you thought about it?i ask you like you've never heard me saying it...iv'e never seen such blank expression from your face before...what is your answer? still you havent look at me... youre eyes are wandering far beyond... i wanna know whats in your mind... please answer me!!! still no response... ok,just call me when you feel your ready... 

they say, when taking a move, you should make sure nothing will be put on jeopardy when you risk something or on making your move... some they say youre a coward,for not grabbing it and letting it go...but those some never understand the word WORTH if they judge you as a coward... doing something for yourself to grow is both moving on and letting go... and within the process its always been a risk...and always been bitter sweet... 

its always been the WAY how to make the move differ from the others... and its always NOT the same as what you think similar to others...the consequences and the stake of each move are always different...making sure that when you move its like playing the chess, making a move without risking the most important character of the chess... 

when i look at you again,i think its started to sink in your thoughts,so i appear before your face...saying "im with you throughout the way, dont cry...dont be afraid... you have me, so you dont have to worry...when you feel youre feed up,just set your mind to your goal... the road of life is too broad for changes is the only thing certain in your life...you've prepared for this a long time before...fought your life a good battle...whenever you fell down learn to stand up... again you have me...and i saw that smile in your face" - yeah i have myself in me... at the end of the move, its always been ourselves who can understand the move we  make... its always within us... i may be a coward at some point but probably i forgotten the fact that iv'e fought and over come bumps on my way before...its not time to give in the quagmire of confusion - fear - doubt- cowardice is not acceptable this time... i should live my life now... and move forward.. its the end of the line for me here... all i have is all the happy thoughts,since the beginning through the finish line... im gonna work hard now...twice or even a hundred times as i work here...its always been a working process whenever we do something...im a workaholic person, i think its gonna be tough journey ahead...im crossing my fingers...pray that the good man above will still bless me with his bliss and guidance...

so in the end...its been myself whom i am talking to...am i this alone? haha
after all, its always been the reflection which you can turn to...reflect how you've done...to see whats in front of you... to understand how it turns out...and embrace changes...

yum yum yum!try this out...

THE HAPPINESS ♥

the sunset seems to be painted in the sky with the pinkish purple scenery...iv'e longed to held my head on your shoulder as i watch the sun slowly embracing the darkness...iv'e always love the sea...its breeze and its rush...it brings calmness in every bits of my system...as i watch you smile like that...it makes me happy,it makes me want to hold that happy face of yours...i know that your so vain,so am i...but not as much as you,for that i find you beautiful... those smiles,i can see it clearly on my thoughts,just like the clouds slowly fading from the sky... when we walk down the road, just the two of us makes me shiver a little inside,your scent flows into my nostrils, i know it was you... i didn't look at you that moment, avoiding you to see my face from turning red,im really happy iv'e walk with you that time... i was just your friend, and i know you cant see me the way you look at sophisticated woman that was your type. Not enough, every time you say something ,every word you say seems to be the reason why i smile... i always shed and hold my self back whenever i feel im gonna burst out cause im afraid you might notice me... when you mock and tease me, it irritates me otherwise it makes me happy hearing your voice and knowing i exist in your vain world...

it was you! whom,i feel happy...i get stuck at the page staring at your vain face...im jealous every time i saw you with someone else...it makes me utter OH MY GOSH! i didn't notice the time,iv'e got my self dumbfounded...when you saw my wacky face...i just feel crap every time your near,im always in a  fluster...
you just serve the word happiness to my life...
when you light that cigar in your hand,i feel wonder struck,i didnt know you smoke...and now it makes me confused...should i stop loving you? but what about the sunset? those smiles im afraid i may not see if i pull off on being with you? what about the happiness?
i was staring at the ceiling for a long time...sushhh the only sound i can hear is my whisper and the music playing while im thinking of you...
"so you sailed away...
unto a grey morning...
now im here to stay...
love can be so boring..."

HAPPINESS ♥

its a nice Wednesday morning...since i wanted my blog to be clean, i change the background...i still have the  maroon 5 header...i cant give that up...and the white background is so clean...i settle for this one...^^  i want to have blogroll also...and yeah i did...this weekend, i ask my momma to come with me find a book...i wanted it last weekend,but an emergency family affair occur...so i decided to go instead go buy the book i want...
accidentally, the ship name Logo Hopes is here in Cebu,they dock at the city port,and my momma told me,they sell good books to read...i already ask my friend about this since i saw his fb pictures about the ship,i ask him,i knew it before my momma told me about it,she saw it on t.v...haha really mothers knows best...she knew i was looking for a new book...and she told me about it...i ask her to be my date this sunday...since it will be my birthday this monday...i will ask her to buy me another one when we get there hahahhah *evil laugh...^^

speaking of which...i wanted to write something about happiness, citybouy inspires me on this one...i also wanted to join but i know im far from their caliber of writing...^^ hehe i dont want to be the one bites the dust haha i really love his post...you have to dig in so you will understand...friendly also...^^

i wanna write my own version of HAPPINESS...i will address this to people like 13...i dont think he will read and visit my blog...i think no one knows about this except for my colleague who always follow me wherever site im into... that cant be help since  we've barely see each other nowadays since they work outside Cebu already...some are working out of the country...some is in their hometown...our only way to communicate is through internet we seldom text,but they call me during weekends...i miss them...

i hope i get this right this time... but first i will have to work first so,see ya on the next post fella...ciao ^^
i remember this...all for one one for all...
where great minds meet,to innovate and invent...-a slogan of our school department...

13... AIN'T THAT BAD SOMETIMES...

i  watched the movie 13 last night...the story is about a man assumes to be somebody else and find himself off guard and theres no way to escape except for to really put his shoe on behalf of the person he is supposed an intended to be...

...one morning he drove his mother to her work,and visit his father in the hospital...his father's body is injured and i think i heard him say that he will do anything,and he told his father,he shouldn't get involve with illegal work again when he get well,and they sell their house...the name of the character is Vince,and his an electrician...i dont know if the story is weird or im the one who was just sleepy...i think the story was very psychotic...since the story started,Vince he talk seldom...he just use his facial expressions...one day...after he drove his mother to her work and visited his father at the hospital...he was working with the wiring at the house owned by a couple...also weird for me cause the guy was oldie and the woman was not that old and they seemed to be not the typical normal couple...then the guy had a visitor,they talk and Vince was ear-dropping since it cant be help cause the door is open and  also the wife can hear too...but before the man got visitor,he took a letter from the mailbox...he opened it and read it,he printed something from the computer and then fold it and put it inside of the envelope(colored brown that he got from the mailbox)...then he had the visitor,when he notice that their voices is too loud and might anyone hear them talking,he close the door...after that Vince have continued his work,and the wife hurriedly go upstairs and look where the husband put the envelope...she opened it and read...when the visitor leave the house,the couple were talking about the letter,the wife was some kind of a bit worried,then the guy answered her with "DONT WORRY WHEN I GET BACK I'LL HAVE SO MUCH MONEY AND YOU'LL GONNA LOVE ME AGAIN(then he laugh)",Vince continue to ear-dropping on the conversation from the people of the house...when  Harrison  go to his room(the name of the man) he inject something on his arm...that was a bit strange cause i think he got a heart attacked or he was overdose by some drugs...when the wife was about to wake Harrison up,she notice that his dead,she scream and Vince hurriedly go up stairs and called 911...as the cops where there and investigating,they ask the wife and after Vince,he just say what he just knew...after he was ok to leave,he go upstairs and get his things,when he was about to leave,he remember the letter,he search for it and found it...then he took the letter...when he got home,he read it,theres an instruction,theres a key also and money,for him to buy clothes...then he go somewhere and use the key to the bolt which also lead  to a ticket,letter,money and a number 13(a little board), and a cellphone...then he goes home,change and go to the train station,but before that he was at a hotel,then the phone rang, someone instructed him to take the train by the morning and leave the train one stop before the train last stop,i forgot the name of the place,i think it starts with an M...when at the train,their are people who were following him,but he doesnt have any idea about it,they all think that Vince will really go to the last stop the M place,but Vince leave on board one stop before M place,the cops panic,and the investigator hurriedly took off the train and followed him,but didnt make it since Vince took a taxi already,but the cop manage to take note of the plate number of the taxi...then called the others...Vince reached something to the driver,the place where he should go,which later be seen as somewhere on the road,with snow,and very vacant...and then he paid the driver,he waited and a car arrived and pick him up,but before that,the man showed a copy of number 13 first (he was checking if Vince really got the number)as soon as he did,the man give a sign to Vince to come over and get on the car...and he just did...they arrive somewhere in the middle of a forest...but when you enter the place,there are lots of cars (expensive ones)parked outside...people inside were holding attache cases,some registered $3 million,then the man guided Vince to their room,where 2 people where there,but the other knows he was not Harrison...Vince try to explain and told them that he just ear dropping and he learn that if he followed the instruction he will make lots of money....but the owner said he should finish what he just started and act te part of Harrison but with his own identity now...he was instructed to take off everything he wear...the heels of his shoes were taken off...and give them all back...the place where Vince was,a gambling place where rich people gambles money with their bet...which have numbers...its an underground trafficking...

TURNING TABLES...

stumble and fall... 

when everyone does, its either let go or hold on till back up again... 

started my work for almost 2 years ago..having my ojt and really became an officer here... i started here with boredom as my partner,no one to talk to,but people whom you dont know...t'was very weird for me, and so challenging to talk nicely to people even if they were talking nonsense and sometimes hard to understand the explanation,my temper were at stake,haha there are really shitty times that i cant imagine myself so cool even if the usual me would walk out,so im'a say this help me a lot...iv'e known my self better,i knew what can i do and what i need to improve...even if the work is so stressing and make me like a zombie in the morning cause of the eyebags,well its quite fun though...in short this work makes me a real busy working woman...

forgot to see some colleague and friends,cause you prefer to take your rest and have your time the ME time so you can enjoy the weekend...its driving me crazy sometimes... but over all,i was attached to every single details iv'e learn from this work...its hard to move on...but yeah,we all need to take risk and have yourself take some chances,cause it wont go back again if we miss it and if we mess it...

my workspace and all my papers,im gonna miss them,all the reports iv'e handle,all the flights and all the time iv'e memorized and all the people whom iv'e worked with...they were all awesome,hands-up to them,they were all sky high with their patience and really used their humility though not all really can handle specially the newbie...haha they should learn how to deal with people...and they'll get used to it soon...im gonna miss all of these...those over working hours that made us go home very late...we were all great at our designated field... im thankful for those people who help me grow...from the maintainance  who never failed to great me and smile at me in the morning...to the guards who always say morning mam,bye mam haha dont they know another word? ^^ kidding! and to the accounting department that i usually seek help when im just at my training period...^^ i know im so annoying before...and thanks to my co-officemates who never fail to share their foods to me,haha they always treat me chocolate + coke + pizza...thats our bonding time...and to my manager who never treat me other person,she treat us so well,and i love her humbleness she's one of the best...

whenever i fail on something, these people reminds me to pick up myself and be professorial enough,there is no such people exist that are perfect...but we must tend to be one...less mistake...if i looked back to those times,i can say im far better today than the time i was just learning and thinking what will be doing...and we all do have obstacle course to pass through,it is just the way that differs on how we deal on it...i know that im so freakin damn sometimes before and even now,im still working with some of my weakness..and hopefully when i start on my new work,i will be able to use what iv'e learn from here and i can adjust and will make less mistakes...if ever ^^ 

this has been driving me nuts the whole month of january...the thoughts of i should left this work...i can still remember the time i was crying so hard,when i get scolded by the manager for the big mess iv'e done...never in my wildest dream,i thought i can be bashed liek that...she never shout out me,but those words i cant forget...until now...after that i told myself that i wont be doing this,i dont deserve that way...i know somehow thats my fault,but if only she stop talking i could have done it the right way ^^ but that was really a total mess,for a flight that was scheduled for the assistant of VP Binay...haha now i can just do anything but laugh at that...i was really stupid at that time...but still the guy is so gentleman she never curse me to death ^^ thats a credit...well, on dealing with these people i should have learn a lot from them...i wont attempt to commit mistakes if working with people like them if i dont want to be bashed like that again hahah i pity myself now ^^ but yeah,i cry cause after listening to their long line on scolding me,the woman said YOU'RE STUPID!!! i was very shocked...in my mind u was also bashing them SHIT!YOURE IDIOT TOO...IF YOU JUST MAKE IT CLEAR AND DONT MAKE ANY CHANGES I AM VERY SURE THAT I KNOW MY JOB WELL PIG! cause shes so fat!!!AND DONT CALL ME STUPID CAUSE YOURE STUPID TOO...WHAT THE HECK!!! haha but seriously i havent think about it,its a late reaction... the thing is the guy havent board the plane and took another one...i think im being stupid that time ^^ hehe 

im gonna miss everything about this shitty work...that drives me nuts sometimes...but hell yeah i love working in a transportation industry where my dreams are so close...i have lots of memories to reminisce im looking forward to grow more from those experiences... im gonna cry for sure on my last day ^^ but now,i need to work ^^ muaaahhhhh bye fella...KUNG HEI FAT CHOI to my chinese friends...love you all guys... 

THEME SONGS

its a nice morning in the land of boredom... i was really thinking not to go to work today, i feel sick,but i know im not...manage to drag myself to work... i feel like a zombie...

i was bloghopping this morning and backread Glentots posts...somehow,even if this person is soooooooo green haha i learn a lot from this man...engliserong palaka,super good at it...and orange,i wont miss a day not hanging on his blog,i started my day visiting his,and ends my day with his post also with the other,specially teacher Mots...who would have thought i'll get by this far reading those...this somehow inspires me to write a story...i was really inspired by Glend's ideology ^^ the November writing contest he just organize and the story he made is very cool!!! so from then on,i wanted to write just like that...hope i can join the contest the next time he organize something like that again...hahahha i cant imagine the real status of these people,they were just too cool to be true...im excited too somehow ,i will buy my next target book tomorrow,it will be Nicholas Sparks book again... it will be my gift to myself for my birthday... if i already had it on my hand i'll take a shot on it and post it here...^^ excited too if what will be Lj's decision...oh life...i still have tons of papers to segregate and folders to input,i really wanted this all done before friday next week, im so excited for my break...yepey! sounds interesting yet,im very nervous... i might get disappointed too...but i hope it hurt just a little bit cause im not expecting, but i need to focus and think positively... there is something today, that makes me hold back a little...i might get screwed it up if i mess this whole thing... by the way a couple of days ago, exactly 2 post of mine,is very off...i dont know what happen,all the text became black...^^ and i cant have it  back in the old one...but now,iv'e fix it up...so everything's okay...

you know what a theme song means?and how it defined?will i guess literally i do...but my cousin told me,i dont...i cant accept it before...cause i know,i knew...until i understand what she mean by that...  my theme song for my momma is a song by James Blunt... "YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL..." coincidentally,the title is similar to one of my fave series...and finish watching it already...every weekend morning,she got the house down with this song,and that makes so sleepy again...

"my life is briliant, my love is pure...i saw an angel of that im sure...she smiled on the subway,she was with another man,but i wont lose no sleep on that cause iv'e got a plan... you're beautiful...you're beautiful its true...i saw your face in a crowded place,and i dont know what to do...cause im never be with you..."

and the theme song for me and my papa is a song from maroon 5...its not the moves like Jagger haha ^^ its "WONT GO HOME WITHOUT YOU" he always ask me to play this and mimic Adam...i always tell him,that i love Adam Levine hahaha thats how crazy i am,last time,when maroon 5 had a concert in Manila i ask him if they come to cebu i wanna watch!!!!they just laugh at me...pity dreamer ^^ he also like Adam...we both do...

"why does every moment have to be so hard...hard to believe it... its not over tonight,just give me one more chance to make it right, i may not make it through the night...i wont go home without you..."

me and my brother theme song are so many...but there is this one that we share singing with..."YOU'RE A GOD"...he will give me the mic after he sang the chorus hahaha he think he can sing better than me eh?...

"Ive gotta be honest i think you know...were covered in lies and thats OK...there's something beyond this, i know...but i hope i can find the words to say...no never again...no...never again...cause you're a god and i am not, and i just thought that you would know...cause you're a god and i am not...and i just thought i'd let you go..."
the picture quality is poor...so just bear with it ^^ dont have any

my little brotha...

well,im working with something so i think i gotta get going now...^^ ciao! i'll be back a bit with my something...happy weekend everyone! again... always love love love ♥ ♥ ♥

WHAT LIES BEYOND ♥

its a beautiful FRI-day!!!! i know that im busy right now,but since i had to stop for a while while waiting for the PAL report to be printed out,i spare time to write...its Teacher Mots birthday...hehe i always excited for someone's birthday...i just dont know,im like that ^^ but the post aint for teacher Mots hahahha i just use him for my intro...^^ wish him good health anyway...i will always be his number 2 fan...

when i was young...i was thought that lying is not acceptable and the consequences depends on the impact of that...my father was very strict! and since im a good daughter ^^ ( hehe ),actually im really afraid of my father,that is why im so compose of myself,whatever he teaches me,i wont forget it,or else im dead ^^ but yeah,his strict...whenever my parents ask questions, i always remember me and my brother naively answer honestly...till,there comes a time,when we started to lie...its because of different reasons...we all do lies... but me and my brother cant use lie in front of him..he's just too good to read us ^^ well,is my father so he would know,so we gave up on that...but when we start to learn and go to school,we learn good and bad...this is the phase where we do all what we want...since were kiddos,were hard headed but way back then im really behave but!my brother was! his a guy anyway...but his not bad at all,he just wanna play play and play after class,he stinks when we come home...he was very different from me...im such a homie...and he always out of the house at night after school,his always on the net cafe... when he start to grow,i feel his also growing far from me,im still his big sister but he never share secrets anymore, i never heard from him,until he get into school troubles...i think that was two times...and the first one,we never dare to tell our parents,i was the one who go to the principals office...but the second time,i knew i cant handle it anymore,so our parents were shocked and they were really mad at him,i was the one left to stand by his side,from then on until now,i know he trust me so much,so i wont fail him...i was his hero,even if his physically much like the older one,because his really chubby and tall...and he always been so proud to me,by that he and my parents are my hero too... i always taught him,to never lie...wither its god or bad,we should take the guts to tell the truth...on the PROPER WAY...cause its on how we deliver something that rage something...as i see it,whenever he lie to us,like simple things, he always laugh so we easily caught him,same as me...i cant really hide lies... me and my momma spoiled him,haha when im upset,i just think of them,they reminds me of my goals and to toughen up...*sigh... im so okay now...im not nervous anymore...i was being like this for almost 2 weeks... away from the story eh?... hahaha i just miss my family... suddenly ^^

ikakain ko nalang...its almost lunch time...see ya soon self...im almost there please wait for a while...one more thing is left un-decipher...haha weird!!!! muaaahhhh dont forget to love love love always okay... ♥ ♥ ♥

“Because everybody lies. It's part of living in society. Don't get me wrong-I think it's necessary. The last thing anyone wants is to live in a society where total honesty prevails. Can you imagine the conversations? You're short and fat, one person might say, and the other might answer, I know. But you smell bad. It just wouldn't work. So people lie by omission all the time. People will tell you most of the story...and I've learned that the part they neglect to tell you is often the most important part. People hide the truth because they're afraid." -Jo” 

― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

TARA  LET'S EAT!!!!

SINULOG 2012...WHAT A DAY!

“Nothing is ever lost nor can be lost; the body aged, sluggish,cold.... the embers left from earlier fires shall dully flame again”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

im currently still working on uploading my other pictures from sinulog but guess,i need to post it here even if its not that good,cause some pictures have poor quality...

me and my friends plan to meet up at the pharmacy where we will took the cab to the city at 12 noon!sharp... but seems like i was being teased by the moment... my cousin Mikah was planing to go with me,and take note...she never said anything at all the night before...so i ddint manage time for her,the problem is its 10 something and almost 11 and i need to take a bath while my phone is ringing the hell many times,t'was all my classmates asking if im ready...and so, my temper was really getting the sign of red alert already...i really feel sorry for my cosuin...(i will tell you later on the post what did i do to her...) ...back from where i am... when im done, i tell her to prepare cause were going...we will be going ahead from my classmates and meet up with them at the other stop over since we still need to go to Mika's house so she can change clothes,the thing is!!! she should have go ahead and waited for me,on that we can prepare well, and i wont forgot all my things before leaving our house... and since im already pissed off by the thoughts the time was screwed up already cause its 11:30 something and my phone was keep on ringing...i almost throw it away...^^ hehe before i leave the house,my father was there,with my aunt,granpa,and my momma also...knowing me, i was really used to say goodbye first before leaving...so when i notice my momma was not there i was then again pissed off,then i just keep on sighing on the gate...and walk in and out of the house...and really my face are unimaginable... i really hate waiting...and most of all LATE! i keep on asking my father if where momma was,then they were all quite since im almost teary eyed.....yeah...thats me when really angry...i am such a cry baby...whenever i get mad...and taaanaaanaaa!!! momma is back and then they all shout! THERE!!!! ola! i get up and said I WILL GO NOW!!!i bid goodbye,then without saying anything to Mikah,she's just staring at me the whole time at the cab,then i was telling my friends that i will be going ahead and i will wait for them12:30 sharp...so when Mikah ready already,i was really irritated cause i notice i left my sanitizer and everything...thank goodness i have my face towel, knowing we have to go to Sinulog the heat is really on fire,so we should have prepared everything and i always have something to clean my hands...i ask her if she had her's she also said she left it...worst of bad luck hasnt ended there..

its lamost 1:30 pm and still my classmates are not yet at the place,and i was pretty damn eating the smoke from the vehicle, and at last when they arrived we took a ride,and boom! weve took the route we think we can pass easily...the worst thing!!!! the crowd was jam pack...its SINULOG,what can we expect...but thats not the worst im saying, when we are going to pass the ally, the crowd started to panic when artists floats are beginning to pass on our way,there is a crowd control,so the part where we were walking suddenly get into dense,squeeze every people on that area...when I saw a way out,i directly pass over the ally, the thing was...Mikah who never let go of me...was the only one who go with me, the rest...LOST!!!!! yeah, so im very angry now, because i think Mikah was my bad luck that day hahaha ^^ (this is it) ...i was now very quite, then she ask me if we should look or call them, and i told her "how?you said you nail an eye to them,why lost now?call them?you knew already there's no signal on Sinulog route area...how come can you reach them?use your head..." yeah, i really scold her that time,and i feel sorry for her cause shes just being quite whenever i spoke...i really dont get mad easily,and when i get mad,i dont say something but that time,im really pissed off of what had happen,its not because the others were lost,cause we will surely see each other atthe church...im jsut really upset,cause one of us that time dont know the place of the city,i was afraid he might get lost...and knowing the siganl was did at the sinulog area...the signal will be back at 9 pm...oh yeah,imagine that...but still the bad curse hasn't yet to come... 
 i decided to go ahead since i think my friends will be taking the same destination too...we better get moving,when we pass there i got a message,so the area where im standing has signal,so i stop and stayed there even if im dying with the heat...and so,they tell me that they were in-front of the Jolibee so Mikah volunteer herself to go look for them,then i said better come back even if she doesn't see them,im afraid she might get lost too...and so,she came back w/o any goodnews...by this i was already throwing tantrums now,im almost teary eyed when i feel my shoes is flapping ^^ yeah...the worst was my shoes sole was torn...and i cant even take a walk im really embarrased...i dont care about the people...im just concern on how can i walk the whole way barefooted?... Mikah was cheering me up,she told me that we'll just buy shoes when we pass the mall...the mall?...is like a 20 minutes walk...oh goodness...she think of a soulution i should walk slowly...slowly? at that time where all you can do is insert yourself to jampacked people on streets where only inch of air can pass...yeah thats how Sinulog scenario was...you cant pass roads with space to walk freely...my shoes got torn cause a foreigner step on it...and i cant yell at him cause he already pass me and the crowd is pushing us forward... oh my life!!! until!!! Mikah saw slippers for sale beside the road...where floats are passing by,while Mikah was busy waving her hand to kapamilya artist and gma artist i was busy looking for a slipper...when i got one,i feel relieve now...and we go to the church ,we pass the 2 hour long walk...and reach at the basilica de Sto.Nino around 4:48 pm...and i buy soem candles,we also attend the mass since its just started when we arrive,and still were waiting for my friends to arrive...when we transfer a spot,Mikah step on my slipper,again i just give her an evil look and sigh...i hold her and ask if shes hungry already...hahaha i know i was really hard on her that time,after i gave her money to but food,i say sorry to her...i feel okay after ive ate what she just bought...im really hungry and thirsty...plus that time,since we walk the whole way through the crowd,the pushing and tight way out and im using slipper i feel already the side of my feel was swelling and its almost hurting me...oh that day!!!! i also got bruise in my arms...haha but still its all worth it when i attend the mass,and saw my classmates, after we go to the dome to watch the fireworks after the announcement of winners...while waiting we had food and a lot of soda,we all were very thirsty... and hungry...then we took pictures... we were really crazy that day... and they were making fun at me,hahah cause Mikah told them what happen to me...we also have pictures from the dancers...from the floats but sadly we havent get the Higante's pictures...they were all awesome...very sky high tall and very nice...

THINK RANDOM

“As a girl, she had come to believe in the ideal man -- the prince or knight of her childhood stories. In the real world, however, men like that simply didn't exist.”

im not a hater of LOVE...i believe in it,cause i feel in love with my mother and father ...the one's who guide me when i was just about to learn how to open my eyes up to the time on learning how to get up when i was just learning how to walk and up to the woman i am today...for a so much emotional , sentimental person like me...maybe some dont understand why simple things makes big impact to my self...

a persons patience is somehow a virtue for me...i know before i have a little of this...thats not a secret to people who knew me anyway...and thats my flaw,and im thankful for those who accept that and never try to shun me because of that...same as you...you also have flaws and its up to the people to understood that...we cant please everybody though...i also hate to talk to much, specially when people talk to much of such nonsense stuffs... its not that i dont give a damn to my surroundings, i just dont like to blab with other people...so not me,so not cool...

someone told me,its all ok... and so i believe...but i really have this low self-esteem way before...all thats giving me the courage to move forward is my motivation that someday i can go around the world...stupid dream! yeah,but thats the reason why i choose to be alone... and regrets too also part of this path i choose...true to be called that im paying the price for this,but ITS A GOOD THING...yeah...

im in a crossroads right now...undecided which way to take ahead...but neither of all the roads lead me to be with my love ones...i wanna take these roads one by one...its not necessary to let them know my plans...it will just make them sad... i wanna spread my wings and take the risk to try another field...i dont know too why im so different, why cant i just be a simple girl just like the others...my cousin ask me this,my answer is...i wanna see whats on the other side of the world,and the most weird answer i gave and the most funny is that i want to be an ambassador of people,i wanna know how far can i go...i wanna travel and work hahaha i wanna go to Cairo...Italy...France and the whole Europe...i want to live working... this place is very memorable to me...cause all the feelings iv'e shed is this place the only witness to that...i will miss my table...my chair...my shelves...my telephone...my view from the glass...my paper works...and too many to mention ^^ breath in breath out... if i fail... you will be the one to know first my dear blog... ever since i started to write on your page...its all about the other side of me...

i was a life lover... i hate cats and i love dogs...i started hating cats when my pet died...i get rid of them...i love dogs cause they knows how you feel...they never betray you...they kiss you even if you wont say it... so i hate people who dont have a heart to take care of them.... my auntie was very sad yesterday,since her pet chu-ua-ua died, she was like my aunt's baby...they sleep together with her husband...gross!but the dog doesn't stink so its ok to sleep her with them...she took a bath too... i feel sorry for her and to my uncle who cry river for her passing...

any ways... this is just my random thoughts that at the moment still cant think clearly...maybe,there's always a time in someones life that goes rambling like mine today...im so afraid that i might not make it next week...i dont expect but the thoughts keeps on coming in my mind...the what if's...its getting me so damn nervous...

those roads...your shining ahead as if your willing to let me pass...and here i am, still looking for the confidence for that day...my time is running out i know...but i also know, at the right time i will be prepared for you...oh my life!!!! is this hard to be alone?... though im happy...i know i wont regret if i took either of the road...i just need to believe in myself too... ^^ 

BY THE WAY for my friends who keep on asking, man!i think i cant have a love life as soon as you want, haha dont bet,you'll just get disappointed ^^ i still have a long way to DO...not to go...and maybe you dont understand why i stay like this... i just want to make myself happy... wither you like it or not ^^ and when you say something please,dont over say it... everything thats been too much will always over flow...haha dont hate me for saying this...i may hurt others feelings but i really dont mean like that, you know me, i dont really want to explain whenever i say something...so please before i get mad... please stop asking me stuffs that are not so important guys...i know also you dont mean something bad,but thats what i wanted, leave that thing to me...^^ again im HAPPY even if im single,dont get bother about my status you guys, you dont have to do about it...even i have the face,i still choose to be this way so please dont make me mad at you ^^  lets just love love love... and hoepfully this is the last time...

#this post is my mix and random emotions for this day...

sorry  i just wanna let this something  to be out of the box...

its not making any good to me...

SINULOG 2012! PART I- WERE EVERYONES HIGH

the SINULOG 2012 is one of the best Sinulog I've had experience...

part I :

...Saturday is the fiesta of Sinulog to all the towns & baranggays in Cebu... we celebrate our fiesta in our place with all the colorful and the most fun yet solemn fiesta....not to mention the people from other towns also who visit the event just to watch and witness the event...mass in the morning,with over flowing devotees, after is our street dancing with different tribes that represents their sitio's,and after the street dancing, its the dancing competition, after is the solemn parade of Snr.Sto. Nino... after the parade is the fluvial procession...whom,i was very excited too...haha i've join boats who join the fluvial procession,where all us are getting wet....i cant say more from that day... im still high from the event...

...during the fluvial parade my friends were already on the shore waiting for the boats to dock...before i hop in the boat,i was texting with my friends, and they were asking to join also on the fluvial but they were late, so in the end they were left behind so thats explain why they were just waiting for the boats to dock...
as soon as the sto.nino brought down from the boat, people who were waiting were all dancing...and parade again...were all wet...you cant see people who are not...^^

when we reach to the church theres a solemn rosary first for the gozos of sto.nino...after that all the sto.nino,the devotee's have,will be danced and all the cheer praises...you can see on their faces the flamboyant and joyful expressions...

...after dancing, i saw my classmates finally, and we go to our house...i let them eat first cause im so wet and need to tidy myself up first before we go to our classmates house that night...after we go back home...then sing our lungs out till past 11 pm...we dont do anything at all that whole day...eat...eat..eat...eat...dance...dance...dance...sing...sing...sing...t'was all fun-tastic,i was very happy...cant say more anything about it...

...since each of us plans to go city for the Sinulog on the morning they decided to go home...and i too, sleep already, but you know the feeling of mix emotions because of something?...haha yeah, i havent slept well that night, im excited for the morning and for the Sinulog...cant slept that much,and i woke up 6 am...actually its 5:59 am...yeah thats the time...

...i havent uploaded pictures from this day yet sicne there's no enough tiem and sleep...gotta work back too...so im gonna post it on the next post...actually i wrote this yesterday but didnt make it to finish and published ^^ all i can say...

...VIVA! PIT SENIOR! STO.NINO!!! ♥

can i just give some spoiler? hahahha ...and who can ever forget about the lechon of cebu?...oh man! cant stop stating stuffs like this...hehe see yeah on the next post...lot to say about Sinulog...

JUST SO YOU KNOW

" i will...i'll take the blame on myself...fine with me though...for i know i cant just take back what I've just said...

sorry if i offended you're ego...of being a real man?or by cheating on our friendship...i knew this will come...i thought i can escape... and im wrong...i cant just ask and say Can you just forget and forgive me? cause its a sensitive matter.... if only... but i dont believe on IF's... so to say i was really wrong from the start..." - these are the words FIRE wanted to post on ICE's page this morning...

she felt guilty about the awkward atmosphere between her and Ice, but she prefer not to... to avoid more conflicts and misunderstanding about the matter...of LOVE... she stares at the side bar and watch how fast the guy log out when he notice Fire's presence on the  networking site... tears fell down, she dont know how to be fine when she's not. Confused too on how Ice found out what she hides. They both are good friends for a long time, yet the situation feels too weird now. No one knows though whats secret she's hiding on her closet,that she never dared telling to anyone. Before Fire tries so hard to fight the feeling for her friend Ice. She then started to dont communicate to the guy, avoid a conversation with him, a move she later regrets. Thoughts are rambling on every corner of her mind, thoughts that is killing her,she doesn't know how to react and act to the situation... Ice might not directly showing he knows and directly avoiding her too, she knew it already... but a girl or even a man would know if someone is avoiding someone's presence.... and for Fire she doesn't like it too.... Fire thought that if loving Ice is betraying their friendship, she should have known this before hand so she can avoid the feeling, but she also know that she doesn't regret anything about it,if there's any...
Fire wanted to say "just so you know...that i've been on hell just to forget you! i know i cant be your girl, and i rather be your friend, than seeing you moving on,on forgetting me" 

Questions flew up on her mind... How did Ice know? What should i do, ignore the awkward moments too, or pretend there's nothing flaring? Should i regret i fell in love with Ice? Scold myself on avoiding Ice first? and random thoughts... what will happen to them,is the ending happy? or the other way round? ...

me too, i dont know, its up to their ego, a wise men can decipher they dont see...

characters : Fire - a girl, and is happy - Ice- a guy, and very cold

all i can say, if you dont like someone falls for you, you dont have to be rude to the person, take it as compliment or just ignore it. but being rude is not appreciated,there are nice way on doing it...we all have our own opinions, and im not a person of to many words much to say,, bully is not cool.  well, this is life... its the life were living and coping... i hope everyone is good ^^ anyways...im super excited for the SINULOG cant wait to post it here!

CIAO! IM WRITING AGAIN! ♥

people sometimes say,wish they were a child back then skinned knees and maybe young enough to burden life's chaotic struggles. one way or another...all i know everything should be balance... the me right now is going like this... "hmmmm take a deep breath!raise my palms on the air,feels the warmth on my face while resting my elbow on my table..." thats my routine everyday when i tired my hand from typing or whatever stuffs im doing in front of my computer.... you know that i really love watching movies or series,but not that fanatic on our own... sometimes im greedy when it comes to my favorites , yeah, i dont share it to others, its like my secret and once i love it,it became part of me... though years gone that pass, i still search ways to find it and watch it... so maybe thats the reason why im so peculiar when it comes to movies, plays and series... i love foreign ones... its unpredictable, and aigoo! their stories aint shit that you've sen before, they always have something to touch viewers, lessons always there,but the heart's not always present on a project... i can say,with all the movies and series in our country,only a few that sticks to my memory... we have good talents but they focus a lot of stuff, what i love about foreign is that when they got talent, they not just give it a shot but take the risk not just risking but they worked hard,and really stick to their strength so they can develop more from what they lack. we do have different views about it, i wanna say something more but i better keep it myself, its respecting my nationalistic side...as im done with my papers,ive watch again a series...yeah,its foreign... i love it,it gives justice to the story. when i plan to watch something, first i read the story ^^ im a cheater! this one that i just said earlier is way too cool for me, and it makes me sad,cause im done with it already, i should get a copy this weekend so that i can watch it again.  i think,this has been my 2nd favorite kdrama series that ive fallen into loving it. one of these days i will post it here...my three top  favorite series on taiwan and korea. im really not a fan of kdramas,but since i really wanna see the one im telling now,i give it a try and tada! awesome! i was blown away...

this week,is special to all of us cebuanos...we'll be celebrating SINULOG '2012...how i wish it wont rain this sunday,the weather forecaster said it'll rain,and speaking of rain...it does rain this morning! that ended me up wearing flipflop and had my shoes on my bag,that makes it heavy ^^ my oh my,its really messy outside the house,muddy way to the road,haist stress out *sigh... but its fine,what pisses me off is that when i took the cab on my way to the office, the rain had stop, and i was like a wet baby chick haha i pity myself this morning...what a day! my life!!!!

back to the topic, im hanging out with my friends this sunday,we'll watch the mardigras, see old faces again,yay! im excited as much as they were...as you all know that i was really busy on work,almost 2 weeks, so when i got home, i barely touch my phone, i cant reply to their messages asking are we all coming...and since im done with my papers, im really happy to announce that guys!yeah im coming... haha see you all, i wont get tired with you all around!  sinulog is very festive for me, got to see the solemn side of the cebuanos, cheerful faces, friendly people around waking at the city scapes...and i gotta had this chance to see my friends also... break from work...  next week will be chaotic for me, but before i stress out my self on that, ill take this opportunity to have a break for a while...

on the side note, its my birthday on the last week of the month... i really do feel im getting old and i feel this blues again...hahahah we'll talk about it next time, for sure i;ll have to write long enough...for now, im going to read and visit my blogger friends post, i miss reading and commenting on their work,since i was really busy to death...^^ this has been the other side of me saying ciao and godbless us all with his guidance and grace!

fish fillet + mashed potatoes

i wonder if Orange will also love this dish, this has been the best fish fillet someone could whooped down ^^ hehe this plater is for my friend orange...start eating your's too...^^

CATCHING UP!

"I really miss writing...aigoo! its been a couple of days...even if i wanted to write but i cant skip from my hectic paper works,specially the last days of the year last week...need to pass everything before the year ends and the office takes it break for holidays,but i managed to post some of the events, but not that sensible i guess ^^ i was very drained from hectic from work and from events to events of the family...and i promise to write a follow up to catch up on everything but i think i cant ^^ theres been tons of happenings if i were to write everything i guess it will took me couple of days...but even if i didn't write anything, it doesn't mean i never been updated to my fav. blogs update,everyday i always read their post, its kinda irritating, cause i really wanna write something or comment on their post but i cant drag my self on typing, cause i need to read and type my report...so i suited my self on JUST READING everything...but i decided to just take a break for a while,since im almost done with my quarter accounting haha im so excited... ^^ "

everything is in fast motion...the things and stuffs people wanted for themselves and to for their love ones are one by one taken. i was happy from the minute strikes 12 am which tells me its a new year, a new chapter of my life, a new horizon to venture and so much more. its been a good start...even if it means i am so hectic since i got back from the holidays, well, its all worth it... its still not sinking to me... maybe because every week theres a reason to celebrate...last sunday, ive got my hair cut already...ive been wanting this for a very long time,since it grown longer for quite some time...im so happy , i wanted to share some pictures and maybe in the future ill have it here...

yesterday i was bumped into an old pal,a colleague...i dont know whats with the question...HI!HOW ARE YOU?HMMM LET ME GUESS ,DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND? and i naively said, NO I STILL DONT HAVE...i dont know whats with my answer,that after i said it,i was sad inside...haha weird, maybe this is the vulnerability ORANGE just said days ago...maybe my mind is too occupied by work and stuffs like that...the only thing that i have in my mind is the post he wrote...a friend also send me a message,talking about his love-life, i was happy for them,then he ask me again about the relationship thing, haha its making me annoyed at some point...why cant they accept the fact that i dont have a boyfriend yet...i dont take it as a laughingstock  when it comes to that matter,i dont feel sultry at all, but i just want them to stop asking nonsense haha maybe they were just concern but i really wanted to stay single for now,maybe in the near future ill accept suitors hahaha kidding! but yeah,im such a busy body...i dont know if i can handle relationships well...since they said there is no formula needed ok i'll take the risk but maybe now is not the right time...for now, the one i was really into is food...food really comforts me...hmmmm i love pizza anyway...

anyways,we all have reasons for everything...i maybe thinking a lot of stuffs lately...for ow,this will do...i'll just post something more reasonable and meaningful the next time my soul touches my keyboard...
i hope by that time, there will still someone who reads and appreciates whats writen,i do also have some things to settle before the week ends...i didnt knew it will be ths tough,though i already prepared for this...haha wanna know what it is?hmmmm, guess until i post next time...^^

SUM UP THE 7 DEADLY SINS

this may be a late post...its because after the holidays tons of work awaits me on the office... now,i still have to deal with pile of papers to be encode...im far from done...whenever i had the extra time to stop my work for a while then hang my self to my fav. bloggers pages, read their post, then back to work...then again...

im thinking lots of stuff...im thankful enough that there are people also who read my post,whom i think just all about my boring self...^^ and i cant afford to lose the chance on reading their post also...it somehow boost my energy, strive more...kind'a weird sometimes cause i barely knew this people, but i cant stop talking about them...(just like now)...their busy buddy also but still manage to post and write sensible ones...haha i was like this all the time "IM GRATEFUL IM A BLOGGER and know them..." proud huh...☻ i dont see my blogging hobby this way before... cheers! 

on the other side of the story...im gonna make a list...i was thinking for days to what will be the contents of this list...actually i wanna make my statement more longer, i dont know how to cut this short haha ^^ kidding.. 

• what about my PRIDE? well,i think everyone of us does have this within ourselves. instances really do come, that i dont notice its unbearable...it really comes out...but i ask and examine myself too about this, im not really a disdainful person, i know im tough but im not a proud monster ^^ also pride will only take you NOWHERE,ever since my papa taught me to be humble,so im thankful,last year im able to stay away from this sinful act,they say, im fierce but not arrogant...they also added that im sober at times i need to panic(off topic ^^ ) 
• if im humble,what can i say about WRATH? ... i do easily get mad,but never i turned it to anyone,i know my temper is uncontrollable, but since i started my job, i learned how to separate personal aspects from professional one's, i know i deal different kinds of people, but still it isn't an excuse to burst out, i can say...I MAN UP! i was so happy when i know i was able to cool down my temper...i do handle myself on the right attitude,myself. moreover,i really dont like arguing to anybody...if im pissed off,i just listen to music,eat, read, or watch anything to cool myself down...arguing is just a waste of time...^^ 

ONE OF THOSE DEADLY SINS FOR THE BODY haha ^^

BE FESTIVE as 2012 COMES ALONG

nothing last forever...a qoute and a title that i know i cant forgot even though i get old...
as i welcome 2012...i know im getting old...^^ just a bit...January is my birthday..so every time this month come a long, im having mood swings, which i am working out already...to person as weird like me...well,yeah...theres a lot to look forward on this month...fiesta...and the big fiesta for Sinulog here in Cebu...and yeah, its really near already...the literal NEXT WEEK! see the events sequence? from the Nov. till January im very drained with events...^^ so after the sinulog on every local municipalities here in Cebu , its the big event on Sunday...its the official Sinulog 2012!!! im not really a party goer...im such a bomber to most of ma'friends...i prefer to go home and rest than go partying...yeah...i have a low social life...its because i dont enjoy life like that...they say im not a boring companion but really i know im a bomber when it comes to partying...u cant count on me... good thing, i have this attitude that whenever im with a bunch of people around i always make them smile...so i dont get guilty...i always volunteer myself to go home and leave them, when i know they want to go somewhere else...and i also have friends whom i am thankful with, who stick to me even though i know they want to go with the others...i appreciate their kindness...

actually,i dont have any new year resolutions, i just set goals from my previous goals...and cultivate from it...
this year my goal is to be a vegan and to stop my soda intake...not long before iv'e said this already..but before the year ends,i think its been a month since i control my soda craves...iv'e drank coke and pepsi maybe just 3 times, then this new year iv'e had just a half of my glass with the soda... maybe the vegan thing will really tough for me, i will surely miss eating chicken and i will stop buying beef...eat healthy...live healthy...stay fit! so as giving myself a new look this weekend...^^
im thinking lots of stuff and i will post it here soon...its not really a new year resolution but a goal to live enhance...
let us all start a positive outlook in life...

i want to be a straight vegan but what if the food is the same everyday? will i get weary? hahaha im really nervous about this...what if i fail on this...oh goodness bear with me... like this one, if the typical food served just like this ... i cant say NO! i will devour it haha sizzzling ...

HECTIC SCHED = ZOMBIE OUTLOOK

its been a busy train since saturday morning till evening...everyone is busy doing their thing to prepare for the new year...from going to the mall to buy everything for the food and gifts for the new year, to nights partying and welcoming new year, to celebrating it...oh man! its so tiring but still ITS ALL WORTH IT! i dont have sleep for 2 days...party after 12...we have a party at my lolo's house after 12midnight in our house with the family...then we sing out our lungs out until morning on jan.1... as 12 strikes all you can hear is the noise coming everywhere,honking horns, the torotot thing, the loud cheer of people, fireworks...sad i haven't captured our fireworks that night, i totally forgot! goodness...^^ its because i was busy watching on the time, jumping a lot, and laughing a lot...i was like hey momma why are you so excited it isnt 12 yet...then she said no you're the one whose excited here haha then i was panicking when 4 minutes left...i am very happy when i see my momma's face...my papa's excitement to light the fountain...my brotha's coolness every time he light and throw the firecrackers... for me that night was one of the epic scene a new year we had...my family was very light...we enjoy our food,and im so full...i am happy happy happy...much to say...much to thank...and i was full of love to them...we enjoy the night with the four of us...yet were so happy...i really cant stop saying I AM HAPPY! yeah...its very regal for me...

before the new year, while waiting for the mass at 10 pm, in our lolo's house,my auntie invited one of the most popular local band in Cebu, and i was so tired but  when my uncle told me about then, i was re-charged...i jump from my bed, not realizing i was just wearing a short, so when i go to lolo's house,i am so embarrassed hahah oh yeah, i blushed a bit, i was freaking out! its Phylum! and oh my i change clothes then party after with them,they started singing, and my other cousins were dancing dancing dancing the whole time,requesting songs,taking pictures of the band,but i haven't have one,im shy...^^ i was jsut dancing and my papa is laughing at me,my kuya is saying hey come on!have a picture with them,and i was like...no,later nalang... it was really a fun night though...but i need to attend the mass,so i left, but my cousins didnt bother to go,they choose enjoyment than going to church haha so when i was on the church the whole time they were partying with the band,when i got back, they already preparing to leave...oh how sad... i am disappointed haha ^^ they packed up cause some of their members were very drunk already...some vomiting on sides already...hahah i was like this "THATS WHAT YOU GET,why kasi you drink a lot of that!" I WAS REFERRING TO THE BEER...its a pity! but really i did really enjoy...i freak out! and i was stunned by the vocalist voice...after they left,me and my brother with our cousins just having fun,singing, till morning...but i left 4 am cause i was really tired already...but damnit i cant sleep , but really tried to close my eyes,cause i know i need to travel to my other lolo's house again! to watch the sinulog festival,it was fun also...ive slept for a couple of hours, but receive a call from my tita,asking where am i cause its almost 8 and i need to catch the bus,when i get up,i watch my face on the mirror...i know theres something wrong! yaiks! my eye bags were very black...so i put on my shades, bring the stuffs for my lolo,but i forgot my gifts for them...haha i was a total zombie,while on the bus i wanted to get some sleep,but i just cant...when i arrive my granny was very happy, then we watch the sinulog...i really want to enjoy and have fun with my cousins and tita yesterday but my body is really tired i think cause whatever i do to lift my energy theres really nothing to exert ^^  but still managed to walk a distance, smile to people...i didnt finish the parade,i ask my tita to go home so i can have my trip way home as early as i can...cause im thinking i need to rest , i still need to get up early for work today...i think theres a lot to say for the whole 2 days of gasping...but really need to work and need to pile up tons of work...so i can post a decent one later...

...im pretty much look like a zombie today...^^ ...happy new year guys!