“As a girl, she had come to believe in the ideal man -- the prince or knight of her childhood stories. In the real world, however, men like that simply didn't exist.”
im not a hater of LOVE...i believe in it,cause i feel in love with my mother and father ...the one's who guide me when i was just about to learn how to open my eyes up to the time on learning how to get up when i was just learning how to walk and up to the woman i am today...for a so much emotional , sentimental person like me...maybe some dont understand why simple things makes big impact to my self...
a persons patience is somehow a virtue for me...i know before i have a little of this...thats not a secret to people who knew me anyway...and thats my flaw,and im thankful for those who accept that and never try to shun me because of that...same as you...you also have flaws and its up to the people to understood that...we cant please everybody though...i also hate to talk to much, specially when people talk to much of such nonsense stuffs... its not that i dont give a damn to my surroundings, i just dont like to blab with other people...so not me,so not cool...
someone told me,its all ok... and so i believe...but i really have this low self-esteem way before...all thats giving me the courage to move forward is my motivation that someday i can go around the world...stupid dream! yeah,but thats the reason why i choose to be alone... and regrets too also part of this path i choose...true to be called that im paying the price for this,but ITS A GOOD THING...yeah...
im in a crossroads right now...undecided which way to take ahead...but neither of all the roads lead me to be with my love ones...i wanna take these roads one by one...its not necessary to let them know my plans...it will just make them sad... i wanna spread my wings and take the risk to try another field...i dont know too why im so different, why cant i just be a simple girl just like the others...my cousin ask me this,my answer is...i wanna see whats on the other side of the world,and the most weird answer i gave and the most funny is that i want to be an ambassador of people,i wanna know how far can i go...i wanna travel and work hahaha i wanna go to Cairo...Italy...France and the whole Europe...i want to live working... this place is very memorable to me...cause all the feelings iv'e shed is this place the only witness to that...i will miss my table...my chair...my shelves...my telephone...my view from the glass...my paper works...and too many to mention ^^ breath in breath out... if i fail... you will be the one to know first my dear blog... ever since i started to write on your page...its all about the other side of me...
i was a life lover... i hate cats and i love dogs...i started hating cats when my pet died...i get rid of them...i love dogs cause they knows how you feel...they never betray you...they kiss you even if you wont say it... so i hate people who dont have a heart to take care of them.... my auntie was very sad yesterday,since her pet chu-ua-ua died, she was like my aunt's baby...they sleep together with her husband...gross!but the dog doesn't stink so its ok to sleep her with them...she took a bath too... i feel sorry for her and to my uncle who cry river for her passing...
any ways... this is just my random thoughts that at the moment still cant think clearly...maybe,there's always a time in someones life that goes rambling like mine today...im so afraid that i might not make it next week...i dont expect but the thoughts keeps on coming in my mind...the what if's...its getting me so damn nervous...
those roads...your shining ahead as if your willing to let me pass...and here i am, still looking for the confidence for that day...my time is running out i know...but i also know, at the right time i will be prepared for you...oh my life!!!! is this hard to be alone?... though im happy...i know i wont regret if i took either of the road...i just need to believe in myself too... ^^
BY THE WAY for my friends who keep on asking, man!i think i cant have a love life as soon as you want, haha dont bet,you'll just get disappointed ^^ i still have a long way to DO...not to go...and maybe you dont understand why i stay like this... i just want to make myself happy... wither you like it or not ^^ and when you say something please,dont over say it... everything thats been too much will always over flow...haha dont hate me for saying this...i may hurt others feelings but i really dont mean like that, you know me, i dont really want to explain whenever i say something...so please before i get mad... please stop asking me stuffs that are not so important guys...i know also you dont mean something bad,but thats what i wanted, leave that thing to me...^^ again im HAPPY even if im single,dont get bother about my status you guys, you dont have to do about it...even i have the face,i still choose to be this way so please dont make me mad at you ^^ lets just love love love... and hoepfully this is the last time...
#this post is my mix and random emotions for this day...
sorry i just wanna let this something to be out of the box...
its not making any good to me...
finally i could read your blog! i take too much time to read all i had miss in this time im sorry again for disapiear but im in vacation and my family loves t camp and that stuff so every day i wake up and they have same family trip planed, but what ever now im here! i read you like not so happy, if you want an advise or how ever that wod is well writen i think that you have to take chances and to live your life like its the last day because you never now whats gonna happen and at the end of the day you have or need to feel that you did everithing that was on your hands to be happy. thats all that matters.
ReplyDelete^^ yeah,your back!family bonding is really important...
ReplyDeleteita not that im not happy,im always happy with everything i do...its just there comes a point that i need to take a risk now and do what i want...and my parents are supporting me on this one...im excited about it and im nervous,if i fail i will have no regrets...
what makes me sad is not about it...its the stuff people keep on asking me...and their getting more used to ask about it and i kinda dont find it funny anymore hahah but i always feel good whenever i write or read on blog cause i know people like you knows what i feel thank you JO...^^ what you have said is very warming...you and your family take care always ok...
hahaha. never give up on love. sometimes, its the only thing that you have.
ReplyDeletehehe im really bitter? love is not a priority , i feel young for that pa kasi...but kidding aside...i wont give up,sabi mo eh ^^
ReplyDeleteim sorry but i dont think like you my friend! i think that love dont have age (i know it sounds cliche) but you can love with all of your heart having 16 years old or 50 if you found that person that moves your world in his oun world you found it and nothing even the age can come between that.
ReplyDeleteJo...yeah,you were right my friend, ^^ i didn't mean that,i was just kidding with orange...i always love people,what i mean on my post is my friends were asking me why i choose to stay single,when all our friends have their own...i know they didn't mean bad by saying that...and i dont hate people ,dont worry i dont have anything against love...^^ i also love ,please read my post so will understand...^^ that i also know how to love ^^ SCARS LEFT ME ...can you read it...^^ and by the way how are you?
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