Why cant i take him? maybe because from way back then he never waited for me,i ask him to give me time but sad to say his on his way catching waves and so i know, that makes me hold back from him, like i said from the past if someone hurts me, i wont let that person hurt me again. and as i look back he has lots of girls my gosh! it drives my head off the ground thinking all of that stuff. and besides i have my head full of loads and tons of personal problems, i dont want to have more complicated matters .
Maybe his right im afraid to love but it is my choice and this is what i love the most, chasing my dreams while still young thats my prerogative in life, maybe maybe maybe...thats been said and done. i dont have any intentions to hurt him, and make him mad at me, but see what is the outcome? he never give a damn i just pissed hm off. thats the end of the line. i dont feel awful, it doesn't mean im so heartless but im just telling him the truth it will be more awful if i give him false expectations. but his my friend a close friend indeed i dont want to loose him, i hope he understand me.
you know,people have different outlook in life, im weird, i have a broad understanding about how will live my life, i just hope people who loves me understand the nature of what i really want to. if someone loves me purely that person can wait at the right time. but for now i dont think i have the guts to go into situations like that. maybe if someone proves to me he has his strong affirmation, lets just see how it goes but for now i will be working back hahhaha cheer up Cherie baby life is good!
|love for someone has its own mystery|